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I was one spoiled lady this week.

Keith and I had a talk about a week or so ago about how I felt unhappy. I told him I didn't quite know how to get over the feeling. I told him I go to work, come home, and just feel like, "This is it?" I really don't know how else to describe it. He has started helping out more around the house, but I still feel like blah. He said that if I needed to go to make myself happy, he understood. I care about him and love him, but there is this feeling in the back of my mind that sometimes I'm missing out on something because he doesn't want to do things. I told him we just needed to try working on us as a couple...I think this would help out a lot. Things were okay when I was pregnant, but when Jade arrived, things between us changed. I became very concerned about if we were doing all the right things with Jade and let our relationship take a ride in the back seat. I also told Keith I might be slightly depressed because our house is so dreary. We have two big pine or evergreen trees in our front yard. They were healthy trees, but had over grown themselves to the point of no longer being pretty. Those two trees made our house look dark and spooky from the outside. I told him I'm also sad because we've been living in this house for a little over a year and we have yet to use the upstairs. It's about time we start using all the rooms in our house.

We went home from our walk and talk and I decided to myself that I wasn't going to just let things slide anymore. Things that bother me or I don't feel are right really need to be pointed out, even if Keith doesn't want to hear them. He usually gets...what's the word...not annoyed...but something along those lines. I told myself in order to be happy, I have to let Keith know when I'm not happy, why the situation isn't making me happy, and see if there's a way we can fix the problem.

Keith asked how we could work on our relationship and I told him, "You complain that we don't have sex all the time. Ease off!!!" I explained to him that when I was a big old pregnant lady, I was in the need for some lovin' but as his foot was out of commission and he was on those pain pills, nothing was done. Now that he's back and ready to have some action, I am the one who isn't feeling it. I do take Prozac which has a side effect relating to your sex drive, but I also think I am just not feeling pretty...sexy...etc. since I still have some pregnancy weight. Plus, I'm so tired all the time from work I just want to go to bed. I did explain to him that I like to be spoiled every once in a while...not all the time, but it'd be nice to get flowers for no reason at all. Small things like that would make me happy.

Keith listened!!!

I was at work the other day...having a rather long day at that. My hours changed from 8:30-5 to 8-5 to cover In-House customers. This change happened Monday, but Tuesday I had to cover for our early rep Roxanne who was out due to a funeral, so I had to be in the office at 7:30. I know, an extra half hour, but I haven't even gotten used to my own extra half hour for normal yet. I was EXHAUSTED. Keith ended up bringing me a box of Teddy Grahams and a card saying he was sorry I was having a bad day, that he and Jade loved...when he thinks of me his day gets better. There was also a hand written coupon in the card for 10 free back rubs redeemable at any time. It really made me smile.

Wednesday, Keith decided to be extra sweet and had a half dozen miniature roses sent to me at work from him and Jade wishing me a good day. I thought he sent them because he kept asking me if I was mad before I left for work. I wasn't, but he seemed to think I was. He ended up just sending them as he thought I needed flowers. I loved telling people I got them for no reason. When I got home from work that day, I noticed something really different with our house. One of those big scary trees in our front yard was gone and all that was left was a stump. Keith and our neighbor, Steve the tree farmer, cut the thing down. Steve was home for work as he wife accidentally put regular gas in their diesel car, so he had to fix it. I guess he was avoiding the car so he told Keith he would cut down the tree for us. Our yard looks so much bigger and the house doesn't look so scary. Keith said he hoped this would help me when I come home - hopefully the house won't look so depressing from the outside. It really made me smile.

So, I guess just making sure I speak my mind and let Keith know when there is a problem really is the best way to go. I've been doing pretty good about telling Keith, hey, I don't like this or that or I really enjoy it when you do things like this. It's been going well.

Jade is 4 months old today!!! She now weighs 15lbs 2oz. She's getting so big so fast. She talks and laughs all the time now. We started giving her rice cereal in her bottle and she is finally sleeping through the night. Every so often we have a moment where she wakes up, but a small bottle puts her right back to sleep. She's just an amazing baby. I told Keith that we are so very lucky. Some people complain about not getting any sleep to having a crying baby for days on end. We don't have any of that. She sleeps really well, always has. She doesn't cry for very long and when she does, it's because we aren't catching on to what she needs or wants. Most of the time it's a diaper change, a bottle, or she just wants to cuddle. Pretty easy to handle.

I am getting a tattoo!!! I found the Chinese symbol for Jade online yesterday and showed it to Keith. I think he's going to get it too. I want it on my leg while he wants it on his arm. I told him I've always wanted a tattoo of my kids names on my body some where and I think this symbol for her is going to be awesome.

We have a pretty busy weekend ahead of us. My family has an annual garage sale - 9 familes this year! We've known about it for over 2 months, but have slacked off. The garage sale is next weekend so we need to get our butts in gear and get things cleaned up, marked, and taken to my Grandparents. We are doing that this weekend and if needed, this coming week. We have a lot of stuff and I'm excited to get the garage cleaned out by putting tons of it in the sale. One nice thing we do at this garage sale is that after 2, everything is free. When people are paying, we tell them to stop back by after 2 since everything will be free. We usually don't have too many problems with people just trying to come back after 2 because we tell them, if you really want something - it might be gone by 2. We have this sale every year and people know it. Keith has no idea how big this sale is...it's huge!!! I told a lady we work with about it and she said she will be there. It's awesome.

Alright, Jade just fell back asleep and I am pretty tired so I'm going to get some more shut eye before we get up and start working on the garage sale stuff. I hope everyone is doing well and being safe. Ciao!!!

Posted by Gnuineblnde on 2009-07-18 07:58:03 | Rating: