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So, I've had to make some major decisions lately and am hoping for some really beneficial changes here.
The other day I wore a dress to work and was asked by a customer when I was due. I was really embarassed. I've decided that beginning July 1st, I'm going to come home and take Jade for a walk every other day for a month and hopefully I'll start to lose a little weight. I'll probably walk both Saturday and Sunday, but just so I can have a little break after work, I won't walk on Tuesday and Thursday. I really don't eat a lot of junk food or anything, but I do need to start drinking more water at work. Right now I drink two cans of orange soda, so if I can cut out one of the soda's, I think that'll be good too. One thing that I have already changed is eating breakfast. I never used to eat breakfast, but when I was put on WIC, I had to buy some cereal. I started eating it before work and found that I really don't get tired if I eat breakfast. I guess it really is the most important meal of the day.
Keith and I have been having some problems. In the past 2 1/2 weeks, I have completed exhausted myself. I wake up at 6 so I can have a half hour to myself before Jade wakes up around 6:30. I take care of Jade until 7 when I put her in the pack'n'play so I can take a shower. After getting ready for work and taking care of Jade, I usually can put her back to bed before 8 when I leave. I go to work from 8:30-5 or after since we're so busy now that I can't quite leave without finising nearly everything I started. Once I get home, I eat and play with Jade. I then have to pick up the house and do dishes. By the time all of that is done, it's nearly time for me to go to bed. I finally blew up at Keith the other night. I was really tired and wanted to take a short nap before doing the dishes. He was tired too and got snotty about be napping. I told him that if he'd help out more around the house, like pick up, do dishes every other night, cook on the nights I work except Friday when I can usually cook, etc., I wouldn't feel so worn out by 9:00. He said he really doesn't have time to do those things during the day because he's taking care of her. I tried explaining to him that even if she won't nap, if she's content playing on her tummy or in her pack'n'play, he can do stuff around the house.
I also made the point that while Keith was working, I tried to have the house picked up, the dinner ready, and everything for him so he wouldn't have much if anything to do when he got home. He hasn't been giving me the same treatment. His excuse was that he hates doing dishes. Hell, most of us hate doing dishes, but it has to be done. We started yelling and I decided I couldn't handle the BS anymore so I packed up Jade and went to my parents house.
Mom and Dad told me they think I'd be better off living on my own, raising Jade. Keith is not adult enough to deal with her and he's way more worried about how to get alcohol each day then how we are going to make sure our utilities, cable, etc. don't get turned off. I even found out that he drinks in the afternoon when he's taking care of Jade. His excuse is that if he's not drunk, what does it hurt? COME ON MAN!!!
Anyways, Dad told me I could move home until I can save up enough to get my own place and they'll help me with Jade. They also expressed their feelings about Keith. They said in the beginning they agree with me that he had ambition and seemed to have things together, but now he's milking his foot surgery so he doesn't have to go back to work. They think him having this surgery really is causing issues with his want to get back and do things. I agreed.
I finally decided I was going to discuss everything with Keith and give him one last chance. If he doesn't work on changing by helping out more at home or doing the small things I ask instead of waiting until I bitch about them not being done, then we'll work on making things work. I care about him, but if he's not willing to change, I can't stay. Period. I would want someone to give me that chance if the tables were turned.
I told Keith this and he said that he did talk to his Mom and she told him he was being an ass by thinking his only job was to deal with Jade during the day. She said I did a lot for him, us, the house, etc. while he worked so now he has to work at doing some of those things while I work. It's only fair. So, right now I guess we'll see.
Keith did say the other night, after we had our long talk about everything that once he's back to work he won't do dishes. I told him that wasn't fair and he had to still help out. He said he would, but he will not do dishes. He had a few drinks in him so I'm hoping he was only acting up because of that and will help out more when he goes back to work...whenever that actually happens.
So, here's hoping to change.
I better get going, I hope everyone is doing well and has a great week.
Take care!!!
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Posted by Gnuineblnde on 2009-06-28 09:18:08 | Rating: | Views: 35
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