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I have been contemplating blogging for some time now and tonight I have taken the plunge. When I was younger, I loved to write. Many years in Corporate America zapped my creativity with it's forced business writing that sticks to a certain format and specific language. I hope blogging will re-awaken some of my creativity.
So, this week I felt an emotion that was foreign to me: Loneliness
In my mind, there is a difference between being alone and being lonely. Being alone simply means there are no other warm bodies around, human or otherwise. But being lonely.......well, you can be lonely in the middle of a party.
In my case, I was alone AND lonely.
All of my life, I have savored quiet times by myself. I am one of "those" people who is completely comfortable going to a movie or dinner by myself. I have worked for 28 years and my oldest child is almost 30, my youngest is 13. So, from a very young age, I have been surrounded by people for a large part of my day. Fortunately, I have found ways to get "me" time, even if it is only 15 minutes here or there.
Now I find myself without a job and full days of "aloneness". And I have been fine with this until about 2 days ago. I saw two sister's on TV and broke down realizing how much I miss my own sister~~she lives about 1000 miles away. And today, with my family away I was so lonely I could barely get motivated to even get a shower (I eventually did, by the way!).
I am sure most of this loneliness is spilling over due to my lack of employment. I never realized how much I identified myself by my job. When people asked about me, my first response was about work, not my family or other inerests. Some people foudn this sad,others don't even notice.
Well, I took a good book and then heded to our local Mexican Rest for taquitos and they were yummy. All the stares I thought were at me ended up actually being directed to the sporting event showing on the TV over my head (ha ha ha).
So, I am just going to post this, It is my first attempt and it is pretty damn boring. I have some other ideas tucked away to.
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Posted by GlassHouses on 2009-10-25 21:21:18 | Rating: | Views: 38
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