Well... Here we go. I never really saw the point of 'blogs'.. I mean, why not just pick up a pen?? Seriously, i've been keeping the same diary since 4th March 2006, I don't write in it religiously, only when I feel the need to update the future self that will look back on it.

But anyway...

Where to start... I broke up with my boyfriend the day after his birthday because I couldn't live with the guilt from my 'holiday romance'.

I went to Egypt in December and was totally wooed by the waiter, Mahmoud. He took me to the Resort Disco and kissed me under the stars. And proposed... At the time I assumed he did it to all the young english girls that he liked, so I took it all lightly. but it's nearly 3 months on, and today he sent me photo's of his family, and home. Everyone keeps saying that he is only interested in a Visa, which i know isn't true.
Also, how bad it is to live in Egypt as a woman. I'm not Muslim. Will this hsve to change if I decide to live there?
What if I do go and it goes horribly wrong?

The *** Swan. (Maybe i'm letting on too much information here...I hope not)
I've worked in this wonderful gastro Pub since August. Since *** the barmans birthday. *** slowely helped me to fit in, and then bloody left!! Soon to be replaced by ***, who I have so much in common with it's scary.
And it became apparent about a month ago that ***'s noticed too... Cos he told me that he loves me... But.... He's 42, married and has 3 kids that are 11, 7 and 18 months (I think?)
Maybe that info's wrong but as he'll never see it it doesn't matter!

This is really confusing me... cos 1, i've never had so much in common with someone before, so i'm beginning to wonder if i like him back.... But I shouldn't because of my age... And 2, Mahmoud.

***, *** and I went to see Sweeney Todd... Which was great, except *** went to see another film... Leaving me and *** in a dark room together by ourselves, with our shared obsession of Tim Burton on a huge screen.... Er...?????? Hello?!!?
But no... Nothing happened.

He hugged me the other night after we met for a drink after his shift, and I *think* that he went to kiss me, but it's hard to say as my head was at the wrong angle (at a hugging angle!!)

Got a Uni interview on Friday... For Norwich School of Art and Design... Am shit scared because I haven't completed my portfolio... Was going to to that today and tomorrow but facebook took over...

Not sure what else to say right now so i'll draw this entry to a close.