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enough with him, and all the depressing shit. the rest of my life has begun and i am on the cusp of my future and its a marvelous feeling. with him im done, sort of. the sex has actually officially stopped (im quite proud) and this little break we've had has allowed me to come from under his spell. fuck him. i cant say enough times in enough languages for you to understand how i feel. we are not meant to be and i need to move on. correction, i needed to move on months ago, but i am finally determined to do it. victory of the self is mine.
i am back on to worrying about me and my weight and just trying to have fun this summer while not shopping to much. he has become my whole life. well, its more like, he was all i talked about it. he didnt deserve my anger, i didnt deserve to stoop so low. i want to talk about the fun of living in the city, going out, finally dating, being a fucking 21 yo women, post pictures from parties, life!!! i want to talk about life, not just one piece of dick which has turned into months of self torture and denial. like M before him though, if i didnt have the shitty ones, i wouldnt be able to value the good ones. im just wondering how many shitty ones ive got lined up because 2 was quite enough. its going to be a summer of FromNY lol ( Seinfeld refrence, just play along). I need fun, decent people in my life.
over the past couple of months ive began bonding with a new friend, lets call her.... acrylic. acrylic is out there a bit more than me so spending the summer with her should prove sucessful in going out more and boosting my social calendar.
i just want to be young and carefree, why cant i do that> |
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Posted by FromNYwithLOVE on 2008-05-24 04:19:21 | Rating: | Views: 27
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