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rubbed me the WRONG way... take a bow
so the date with Tr was so akward and really bad. i have this huge pet peeve when guys rub my hands or my arm, and of course that's exactly what he did all night! i just had mindless rubbing lol, and old flame jerry always wanted to do it after sex/fooling around and it drove me nuts, annoyed the......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-01 01:38:21 | Rating:

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anxiety and fucking, the two things im good at
the application process is clicking along and im terrified. this may not be such a safe bet as i once thought. and yes, the gods have assured me sucess is my endpoint, but im just scared, anxious. today was just not a good day for me school wise. as for him, what are we doing? having a......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-05 02:17:57 | Rating:

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humiliation and rejection, yummy
the dream. sigh. here goes: i walk into a deli and find my legit boyfriend (white, pudgy, yucky in general) and then Cu. Somehow in the dream- i know for a fact that i'm with both of them, i dont know if that means fucking, something i would never do in real life, but its a possibility. and both......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-06 19:23:53 | Rating:

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numb, letting go
im depressed. and bc of me bc of him. i just need to stop this but as much i just want the situation to evaporate i just cant. a year, and entire year and i have nothing to show for it. as close as we are as two people he still thinks of me as a stranger. as good as the sex is that's all he......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-07 00:17:05 | Rating:

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finally sticking, oye
yessir, i have accomplished a feat (is that how you spell that, you know i cant spell). Although we did talk mostly post-black out, things have been subdued. he tried to come over last night, tried for about 4 hours (no kidding) but i told him it wasnt happening. he tried tonight and all pretty......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-13 01:02:05 | Rating:

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addiction, you make me smile with my heart
it has been some time, barely talking every couple of days, and honestly it's done. yesterday we somehow got into a huge knockout fight and he suggested we should just delete each others numbers and be done with it. of course he backftracked and that didnt pan out. i extended an olive branch and......Read More