being a nympho isnt so bad.. being a single one with non-slut morals is. really bad. the perfect fuck nor the guy who will give me the perfect fuck has come along and so i sit and wait and go back my extremely busy life which almost seems against me seeing people. ive been thinking about sex now like 30 times a day easy, and ive moved on from the perfect sex to the raw, beat it up sex. lord help my wandering mind.

just an update i realize i cant go forever without stepping into a gym so my goal is to work out at least once a day legitimately in the gym (i cant spell for shit so embrace me and my miss-spellings). this is going to be hard, but nothing in life worth having is easy.  so back to 1300ish a day and just making sure i get to the gym every day. plus with just starting brith control im afraid i think im gaining a few in the middle. yikes. my goal is to report in 2 weeks ive dropped another 5 pounds, im putting it in my palm so i know be on top of it.

ive been fucking adorable 80% of the time these days plus my make-up is on point and im getting some new jeans, boots and a sew-in weave so i think ill be taking that up to a 95% because so much of my inner happiness depends on putting effort into my look.  and all in all L is back to being her regular hating self which just makes my inner-horrible person gleam.

althought the whole think thin be thin has worn off, the whole think happy be happy hasnt. yeah for that. im gonna work on the first part some more.