Wow this is addictive, like pretty much everything in my life at the moment, i made a decision earlier that whenever i had a thought no matter how meagre or substancial i would type it down.

Soooo here we are *taps foot*

80mg of citalopram seemed so much when it was perscribed a year ago, now it seems to have little effect atall apart from numbing my senses to the point....well you get the picture.

Anyone else on this stuff? *im speaking to myself again*.

In an hours time, im going to be in a hall full of people, students of the craft, joking and laughing whilst displaying a ballot of violence in its most serene form, something about that doesnt seem right to me, maybe its the laughing part. Maybe its the 'me' part.

Find the exit signs and disappear.