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A little about me as i am 'busy' procastinating at work.
I grew up in a broken home, arguably we all did to some extent, moving between 3 'houses'. Never met my father and spent the majority of my youth in a wheelchair which im told led to me not evolving my social skills to the point all my friends had when i was a child.
My summers were spent avoiding my step dad and his anger and playing out the back on a bench with building blocks, your pretty limited when your confined to a wheelchair, ha!
I avoided school like the plague due to bullying, i had lots of friends but never felt like i could fit in, it always felt like i was trying, whilst seemingly they were doing it as second nature, must be those skills i was missing huh.
Education suffered, relationships suffered, i retreated inside myself and a deep depressive state for most of my teens and although im in a place now a million miles from there, i sometimes wonder how much progress ive actually made, and how much was 'fixed' via pure avoidance.
Fast forward to today, 24 years old an avid weight lifter / gym goer with a penchant for all things martial arts especially Muay Thai boxing. It might be suggested that i adore it because i am able to exhibit control in the ring which is a total mirror of how i wish i had been able to affect the outcome of many situations when i was little.
Everything i am and have i have worked for, my university degree, my mind, my body, my good job with a future, my dvd collection, my friends - all of which came at a great cost, the true price of which is yet to be truly discovered.
Someone asked me once, if i could go back would i do it all again in a different way....
...stop me if you've heard this one before.
S.
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Being uncomfortable/unhappy may not be unique, it's always different.
I understand the trying-hard-thing, btw. Some people are just meant to be social royalty, I guess others aren't.
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Posted by StareAsMyWorldDiv...
on 2007-12-20 10:02:24
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I think we all feel the " I am trying so hard but not really making the grade." through our younger years.
Its rough, but in your case I think a bit more rough than it is for others.
So let me ask you... you out of your wheel chair now? And I think it is pretty awesome that you are into marital arts, I am a huge UFC fan and love to see all the Muay Thai fighters come in. They are the most entertaining and fast paced of all the fights.
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Posted by Thin_Inside
on 2007-12-20 13:44:25
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Yep im out of the chair now have been for a while, docs said i might never walk properly again, now i have some of the fastest kicks in my club.
Id love to put some videos up but knowing my luck id be spotted.
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Posted by FracturedDreamer
on 2007-12-20 16:00:31
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