I do.
To tell you the truth, I don't know what I am.
Lesbian? Bisexual?
Can't be both.
I'm so confused.
I'm almost afraid of admitting either one.
I'm going CRAZY.
A lot of things have been getting to me.
Just little stuff, a push in the hallway, a disrespectful remark.
It makes me want to cut so badly.
But I haven't.
I can tell you I haven't cut in months.
My therapist thinks I haven't cut in years, but I have.
I'm lying to her.
What does that make me?
My grades suck.
I don't know what to do anymore.
I try, but then I give up because I feel like I'm the only stupid one in the world.
I'm so lost, I really am.
And hey, if you're reading this, and you can relate, ADD ME.
I want to talk to people who understand.
I can't even sleep at night.
I've always been an insomniac, but never like this.
The girl of my dreams kissed me yesterday.
I can't even decide who I like, girls or guys, or both.
What's wrong with me?
There must be something.
I try to look on the bright side, but some days...
I damn sure can't.
The only light in my life are my cats, and the fact that I'll be 18 in nearly one year.
All the relationships I'm in now won't last.
I wonder if I'll ever find someone who loves me.
I know I've said that before.
BUT I WANT TO FIND THE ONE.
Thank you for reading.