Have you ever thought about how devastating distance can be? In some situations it can be a good thing I'm sure, but even in the best, strongest relationships it can be detrimental.

Jim and I have always had an interesting relationship, and I knew it was something that wasn't going to be easy. We met online, and just simple ordinary conversations of getting to know one another turned into something wonderful and exciting; something I had never felt before.

I always thought that I had been in love before, that I knew what it was like, what it felt like, what it was supposed to be like, but boy was I wrong. I had no idea!!

When we got married I knew it wasn't going to be a quick and easy process. I knew there were going to be ups and downs and I knew that distance was going to be involved, but I had no idea all of the cruel things that distance could do to two people in love.

It's been almost 2 months since we have seen each other, and I'm not sure if it's the lack of closeness, the lack of proximity, the lack of 'I love you's' in person, or what it is but distance has been unusually cruel this time around.

These last few weeks have been absolute hell for both of us; a constant roller coaster ride of emotions up and down. We have been tossed around and torn apart. Considering we were two people who never fought, and very rarely argued you would never have guessed that looking at these last few weeks.

Awkward silences, arguments, accusations, misunderstandings, blow-ups, arguments. Times where we thought it would be best if we just stayed away from one another (the computer) for a few days. Mostly it has been me pushing away, just feeling the darkness of distance creeping around me more and more each day.

It just feels like we're losing a terrible battle and each day distance is stealing more from us and pulling us apart even more. The love is still there, so much, but it's getting pushed aside and covered up by the darkness.

It's so scary and I feel like we're losing each other a little bit more each day. I feel like I'm pushing him away, stressing him out, and I fear maybe losing him a little more each day.

I'm not giving up, even though sometimes it may seem that way. I could never give up on the one person who I truly love. I just hope he feels the same and that someday soon love can overcome this horrible distance!