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Is it so wrong to want to get drunk, stupid, and careless every once in a while? Because even though that's what I want, I never seem to get it. Last night I wanted to get drunk and forget about everything for my friend's last night here. We started drinking, I went and bought another fifth on top of what we already had, and I just wanted to drink it all and forget about everything else that is going on. Instead, he gets drunk and starts projectile vomiting all over my couch, floor, all the way to the bathroom. I had a really good buzz going and I had to sober up and take care of him. I rub his back while he threw up, helped him clean himself up, got him to wash his mouth out and get some water in him, calmed him down so he wasn't stressing out, then put him to bed. That all took about an hour. Then, once he was asleep, I had to clean up all the vomit because I didn't want it to stain the floor or the couch, I had to start a load of laundry to get the towels and rags he threw up on clean, I had to get the food and drink put away that he wanted me to get out to help calm his stomach, all the while periodically checking on him to make sure he didn't throw up in the bed or choke on any vomit or anything like that. All that took about 45 minutes.
Don't get me wrong, I do not havea problem being the mother hen figure at parties. I worry about people too much, and I am okay with that. What I am not okay with, is that nobody ever worries about me, or keeps an eye on me, or helps me out. Nobody ever steps up and lets me relax. They have gotten used to me being the responsible one. Even though I have voiced my concern, they tell me that they likeme being responsible because they can let loose. Last night I had to take care of and clean up after a guy that has fucked with my emotions over the past week and is leaving today to go home and fuck the brains out of his ex-girlfriend. All I wanted was to let go, forget who I am, and drink until I passed out. Instead I had to play the responsible adult again.
Fuck people, I think I am just going to be a recluse for awhile until people don't piss me off anymore. I am tired of making excuses for the ones that supposedly care about me just because I care about them. Go to hell.
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Posted by Fire_Us on 2009-11-07 13:54:18 | Rating: | Views: 16
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