Its been a few days since I've done an update and A LOT has happened (or so I think) so this will be a long post.  But, I'll give the stats first as some people are only about the details and don't need the warm fuzzy stuff to keep them going.  So quickly, Sunday morning, 102.6, 30 minutes of cardio, circuit training; Monday morning, 101.6, 120 minutes of cardio, circuit training, Tuesday (today) morning, 99.6, I HOPE I can get through my cardio and circuit training, but more on that in a bit...

Okay, so now let's back track.  Saturday I only had to do cardio.  What a relief!  I needed the break in order to gear up for these next few days!  Sunday morning I woke up a bit late so I didn't do my normal 30 minutes of cardio in the AM.  Did make it to church tho.  We had this speaker that was really dynamic but left me sort of overwhelmed.  Our nation is a wreck but its like I can't think about other people's problems right now.  I've got my own issues for the next week to deal with so I was torn.  Am I really this shallow?  Am I too focused?  What really is important?  Mental games.  I'm not very good at games, I tend to lose. 

Anyway, after chuch I went over to my friend's house who has volunteered to do my hair and make up for the show.  We did a "practice do".  She did a GREAT job!  I am very excited to have her help me!  I mean, she listened to what I wanted, looked at pictures from other shows, looked at the make up picture I gave her, and made me feel like a queen!  And that was just for practice!  Seriously, I had a great afternoon.  There are some things that I just don't get uptight about.  And when someone offers to do something for you out of the kindness of their heart, you just go with it.  If they ask for your opinion, you give it, but otherwise, just enjoy the generousity!  And, the bonus was SHE DID A GREAT JOB!  I mean, granted she is a hairdresser by trade and she does have a daughter who does dance recitals, but she did an awesome job!  When I came home, hubby even liked it and was impressed.  He said, "I knew she could do it!"  So, that is one worry that I no longer have.  She's got it under control.  Later that day she even called to say she had been watching you-tube videos on different ways to put on false eyelashes.  Talk about going above and beyond!  The way she had done them for practice seemed to be okay to me, but she just went that extra step.  That's a person who ROCKS!  And, she's in MY corner!  How cool is that?!  I'll have my own little entourage!  Whoo hoo!

So, later that day hubby and I go to the gym.  I did my circuit-type training and really tried to push myself.  I started with the upper body and worked my way down.  We finished with 30 minutes of cardio.  In the beginning, 30 minutes of cardio was nothing to me.  I could go all day.  But lately, its a struggle.  I'm contantly watching the clock, watching the display to see what level is next, how long it will last and mentally trying to get though it.   Now, when I run at the track, since there is no clock I just count laps so its not so bad.  Anyway, Sunday I also enjoyed my last exciting meal plan.  I had variety!  I had a shake, chicken, sweet potato, eggs, spinach salad, all stuff that I've been eating every day for 11 weeks and was growing tired of, but at least there was a variety AND seasoning!   Sunday was a great day!  On so many levels!

Then Monday hits.  I actually tried to post an entry several times on Monday but either got distracted or my computer wasn't cooperating, it was crazy!  Anyway, I get up, I do my 30 minutes of cardio and then enjoy my first of 24 meals of fish and asparagus.  OMG!  For breakfast?  So not right.  Not right on many levels.  Nothing sweet about it, nothing remotely breakfasty (I know that's not a word, but work with me) about it.  That's when it hit me.  This is what I get to eat for 4 days.  OMG!!  I made it through the snack and then lunch.  Oh, and I've got to drink a gallon and a half of water!  I'm in the bathroom every 10 minutes, literally.  My bladder is the size of a small grape, I think.  Anyway, by the time the afternoon snack rolled around, I was so over fish and asparagus.  I hadn't even made it though a whole day yet!  I choked it down and headed to the gym.  I started with the lower body and worked upward.  Did some exercises that I normally don't do to get variety from somewhere.  And then did 30 minutes on the stairmill and 30 minutes on the elliptical.  My legs felt like jelly!  Now, this goes against who I am.  There are rules to be followed at the gym.  No more than 20 minutes on the cardio equipment if there are people waiting and since they are down to only 3 stairmills I was panicked.  Its a Monday and its ALWAYS busy on Monday, doesn't really matter what time of day it is.  Anyway, as I'm approaching the 20 minute mark, I'm starting to get nervous.  Please, someone get off one of the other mills so I can stay on, please, please, please.  Oh good, she's done.  Whew.  Okay, keep going.  Ooh, then a guy walks slowly by looking at how much time we have left on the machines, mine says a little over 6 minutes, he chooses another machine.  OMG!  I look around, anyone waiting?  I don't see anyone, just keep going.  I was a nervous wreck!  Anyway, I decided to do my last hour at the track.

Another snack of fish and asparagus.  Yum!  Gosh, haven't had THIS in a while!  Where has it been all my life?  See me roll my eyes?  Anyway, get to the track and start with 200 walking lunges and walk the first lap.  I can tell that my carb intake is way low.  The energy level just isn't there, and I am tired.  I've just done an hour of cardio.  But, I put one leg in front of the other and start running.  Its a BEAUTIFUL day!  I only make it 8 laps and I have to pee.  Then I walk one.  I start running again.  Its hard.  I've got a cramp in my side and it takes everything I've got to just keep going.  I make it 5 more laps.  I need to pee.  Then I walk one.  Okay, try again.  My goal is to get 20 running laps in but as I come around after that next one, I ask one of the moms what time it is.  She says, "10 after".  I literally throw my arms in the air!  "Thank God!"  I walk one last lap.  I just can't go anymore.  I needed to run 6 more to make my goal, but I'm starving, I'm peeing like a racehorse and I can't get my legs to listen to me anymore.  I sit down.  A couple of the moms actually say, "You're done already?"  They aren't use to seeing me sit.  Even the guilt I feel from not doing more than I did the time before can't get me moving.  I'm spent.  I just want to go home and eat.  Oh yeah, eat fish and asparagus.  OMG. 

My tummy is growling.  I'm tired and I still have 2 1/2 quarts of water to drink.  UGH!!!  But, I get down the next meal of fish and I drink 1 1/2 quarts of water and then go to bed.  That's all I can do.  I've got nothing left for a Monday.  Its gonna be a LONG week!

So, this morning I wake up and start my cardio.  15 minutes into it and I'm dying.  My tummy is crying out for food and my legs can barely keep going.  Its gonna be a long day.  So, I quit and eat my breakfast.  Yep, you guessed it, fish and asparagus.  I am actually very thirsty and drink a whole quart of water at breakfast.  I then have to pee four times before I even leave for work.

The scale says 99.6.  I haven't weighed this little since I was in college.  You can see every muscle, vein, bone and bump I have.  I can't wait to have spaghetti!  Lord, what I wouldn't give for a cookie!!!  Just get me through the next 3 days!

Until next time...