today i ate in the morning my honey dew mellon bowl with strawberries and black berries( probly 100cal),sushi(150cals),seafoodmix(300cals),4 cookies(200cals), egg and beansprout sandwich(200cals),bits of stuff ( meaning i know i bit off stuff bt cant remeber what was eaten.. and lets see probly 200cals)all and all being a total of....OMG I thought i was a total failure and i come to 950 cals for the day.. exersize includes walking in all probly 30 mins or more... so that helps my calorie count a bit :) . i know my bobby is gonna be disapointed that i didnt clean the house at all today. our marriage counciler came by today and basically told me there isnt much more i can do to help bobby want this relationship and work on it. he just told me to continue to do what i am doing. show him that he can trust me to keep the house clean and whatever. and he says he doesnt really know how to help the relationship. I am still upset about this weekend.. getting nothing done. i looked at the house today and though wow i have a lot to do.. i did avoid it. put it off unfortunatly... now i will have even more to do and still take tamia to her appt. fun fun ! not! I know when bobby comes home he will just lay down go to bed and act like i dont even exist... no use in reminding i am here.. it will only piss him off