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I grew up feeling like I didn't have a real mother. My daddy getting killed when I was 2 left me without a father too.
But now I have a second chance, I have my Aunt Kathy and Uncle Billy. Uncle Billy is my daddy's only brother. He has helped lessen the pain of not having a daddy all these years. Aunt Kathy is wonderful.
I think when I was 7 years old my mom ran off my Uncle Billy and refused to let him be a part of my life. Because he was there and then he was gone. i can remember loving him and him loving me. Everything was wonderful. My mom is very jealous. She didn't want me to see him this time. But now I am an adult and she can't stop me from seeing anyone that I want to see. Thank God.
It remains to be seen if Aunt Kathy wants to be like a mother to me. Or even if Uncle Billy wants to be like a father to me. He told me recently that he would love me just like my daddy would if he was here. That made my heart sing. But at least I know that they are there to offer moral support. That means everything to me.
I feel like I can trust them. Something I can't so with my mom. I've never been able to trust her. If it hadn't been for Mother (my grandmother) I don't know what I would have done or where I would have ended up. My mom refused to allow my daddy's mom to see me.
Mama ignored me my whole life. All she cared about were her boyfriends and her life. Not me. She proved that to me over and over.
A relative she left me with once had to call her and tell her I needed to see her. I had a temperature, was depressed and crying all the time. Another time a teacher sent her a note telling her she had to spend more time with me. Those are just a sampling of the way she was. These incidents happened when I was in grade school. Things like that went on and on until I was a teenager.
By then I had made a life for myself that didn't include her. She suddenly wanted to be part of my life. She interfered, even so far as going to the Church we were having a well chaperoned teenage pizza party and cursed and carried on to get me out of there. I almost died of embarrasment.
I guess you could say at nineteen I ran away with a much older man and married him. Jordan't father. It didn't turn out very well. But sometime after the divorce we made up and became very good friends.
Don't ever doubt that in all things it is possible to have a second chance. Maybe not with the same person or situation. But a second chance with someone else or another situation that will make you happy.
Remember never doubt. If it can happen to me, it can happen to you.
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Posted by Fancie on 2008-06-23 16:57:41 | Rating: | Views: 82
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Glad you can see a positive in things, I believe everything happens for a reason.
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Posted by prelude2it
on 2008-06-23 17:01:46
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You are right prelude. It does. Sometimes it is so hard to see and very painful too.
Please give Shelby a great big hug from me.
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Posted by Fancie
on 2008-06-23 17:11:41
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I hope everything works out beautifully for you, you certainly deserve it!! Your aunt and uncle sound like wonderful people and youre solucky to have them in your life.
My prayers are with you!
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Posted by greencat
on 2008-06-23 22:37:38
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It's good you have a second chance with your aunt and uncle.
Your mom sounds like a real piece of work, someone who should never have had kids.
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Posted by Faith
on 2008-06-24 15:42:55
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Thanks for your nice comment greencat. My aunt and uncle are very wonderful people. Regardless of what happens between us, they are very special in my life.
I am happy to have your prayers with me. That helps a lot. My prayers are with you too.
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Posted by Fancie
on 2008-06-24 15:47:13
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Thanks Faith for your nice comment. I never thought that I would have a second chance at having a father, after all this time and it never happened.. We never know what wonderful thing is waiting around the corner for us.
My mom is really weird. I really believe she would have been better off without me. But then like Prelude, I believe things happen for a reason. I am a lot more fortunate than other people are. I try to always remember that.
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Posted by Fancie
on 2008-06-24 15:50:01
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You are so very strong. I admire that in you.
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Posted by heatherslife
on 2008-06-24 22:16:05
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Thanks so much Heather for reading and commenting. I never really thought of myself as strong at all. I really appreciate your saying that. A lot of my therapists have said that about me. Jordan has said that she admires me for being a strong woman.
Again thanks so much.
I thank everyone for their wonderful comments.
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Posted by Fancie
on 2008-06-25 14:18:55
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i'm glad things worked out :) i bet they'll just get better and better as time goes on and you have more time to bond :)
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Posted by ReD_MooN
on 2008-06-26 13:33:46
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Thanks you so much for commenting redmoon. I hope that they do get better and better. Maybe they will.
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Posted by Fancie
on 2008-06-26 13:57:07
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Thanks so much for commenting and reading my post. I wish I could trust all those who claim to love me. But sometimes it's hard to tell who loves you and who doesn't
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Posted by Fancie
on 2008-06-27 12:10:04
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