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(First off I don't know what happened to my blog MY DREAM. And I liked it too. Oh well)
I've been reading this Danielle Steel novel. The woman's husband thought of her as a possesion. I have been asking myself, is it possible Craig thought of me that way? But there is a difference between Craig and the character in the novel, "Bittersweet." Craig always told me he loved me. But the guy in the novel didn't.
But the similairity struck me. He wanted me to do what he wanted and never what I wanted. Is that thinking of you as a possesion? He never supported my dream of being a published novelist. He said I was wasting my time when I would write. He never read anything I wrote, so how would he know if I had any potential or not?
So once again Craig has me confused. About the time I think I have all of this put to bed so to speak. That I won't waste my time anymore thinking about him and what he did to me there I am again, thinking about it again.
I hate him for not trying to find out how I am. I mean 10 years of our lives were bound up together. How do you just forget that? And how can the %$# not wonder if I am dead or alive. Or at least how I am. There is not a day that goes by that I don't wonder about him. I sent him 2 or 3 letters. I don't intend to try to correspond with him anymore unless he tries to contact me. I could call him. But everyone thinks I shouldn't because he could say something to hurt me really bad and mess me up worse than I am. But then he could call me.
I am sick of thinking about it. I can't think about it anymore or I'll go crazy.
Fancie
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Posted by Fancie on 2008-01-31 16:02:46 | Rating: | Views: 50
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