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My Rose Angel stole my heart, flew away and left my body lieing lifeless in this God forsaken country. I wish I could have gone with my angel, but this could never be. It took 19 yrs. for me to fall in love for the first time. I've moved many times in these past years and have met many people, but it took someone from another country to finally reach my heart. Now She's gone and I have no hope left in finding someone like that again. I have always told myself that I would move as far away from the US as possible when I got the chance. Now I have a reason to move, but the angel I love will never be mine. To see Her in the arms of another breaks my heart and no matter how hard I try I can't stop loving Her. In my eyes She's flawless and I know She loves me dearly, but nothing more. For a while I believed that even though She was moving, if I waited for Her and still showed Her just how much I love Her, someday She might see me the way I see Her. But now I see that to believe such a thing is foolish. She will never see me as anything other than a friend. I don't resent Her for leaving or for not being with me, but loving Her so passionately makes me hate myself. I hate myself because I can't help but to think about holding Her hand, of Her lieing in my arms as She sleeps, or what I would do for just one kiss from Her satin lips. I can't just hangout without one or more of these thoughts popping in my head. I'll just have to move on. I doubt we'll even stay as close as we were before She left, because She has Her life in Germany to think about and I just don't fit in to that picture. If how I feel now will prove to be true, I will miss my Rose Angel and I wish Her the best....
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Posted by Fallen_22 on 2007-12-06 14:02:21 | Rating: | Views: 70
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