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I am sometimes bubbling over with inspiration to create. It seems like it comes in spurts though.  I have been depressed lately due to some circumstances in my life.  I am a very sensitive person.  I don't like people to know that because then they can hurt you.  I feel fairly safe writing it on here though. 

Getting involved in my drawing like I do (more than I've ever done) I feel as though I am becoming someone else.  Not knowing who this person is has left me feeling kind of shakey.  I never cry in front of anyone.  It's not that way now.  I get my feelings hurt and I cry.  This is unacceptable to me. 

It's ok for others to cry but I've always had to keep it together for other people.  I grew up very hard.  I love my daddy but I don't think he liked kids.  He made up for it when I was an adult.  I've always had to look after my mom.  She's cool but very childlike.  Her mother didn't give her the tools to live in this world.  I had to finish raising her and there was alot I didn't know. 
I don't want to be some kind of emotional rollercoaster.  But I suppose I have to live with whatever I am turning into.  I love to draw.  I'm not going to throw that away because I'm not sure what direction it's taking me.  I just have to find my way and hope I am going someplace I like.  I have been blocked the past few months.  Maybe this will open me up again. 
Posted by Faith on 2008-03-27 16:57:32 | Rating: | Views: 86


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Posted by
Fancie
on 2008-03-27 18:15:50
 
I am sure that you will open up again to your drawing. I envy anyone that can draw.

I bet your mom appreciates everything that you have done for her. I sometimes feel like I have been a great burden to my daughter. I am sorry for that. I have asked her forgiveness a million times for alll the things that happened. I really do appreciate her and all that she has done for me.

I have read some of your poetry here. It is really great. Keep up the good work.

Hope your personal life gets better
 
 

Posted by
missmarie
on 2008-03-27 18:17:46
 
i know the feeling hon, i love to draw, write, generally being creative, sometimes it feels asthough i might explode if i don't do something, but nothing comes out it is frustrating :(

You sound like a very strong person on the outside but not so much on the inside, i hope you find where you are going on an easy path, good luck, and thoughts is a great place to open up, this place seems to be able to help us all open up and let things go
i wish you well x
hugs x
 
 

Posted by
Faith
on 2008-03-27 18:32:21
 
Thank you both. You have made me feel better. I am sure Fancie you daughter appreciates you a much as you appreciate her.

missmarie your not far off. I'm not very strong on the inside. It's like today I have just realized what this site is for. thx for your comment.
 
 

Posted by
DifficultSoul
on 2008-03-27 18:39:45
 
I know what you mean about- "becoming someone else" when you draw.
I "get lost" in my art as well.
I paint and draw.
Art, is simply an expression of someone's hidden emotional psyche.
Thanks for the warm welcome to friendship.
I appreciate it.
 
 

Posted by
roe
on 2008-03-28 02:09:12
 
I wish I could draw, I love everything about it, the paint, the paper, the brushes, the whole 9 yards, I just do not have the talent. For some reason, I am drawn to it, pun intended.
As far as feeling safe writing about how you truly feel, pun intended, thats fantastic, anything to get you to express yourself is worthwhile!
 
 

Posted by
Faith
on 2008-03-28 16:52:03
 
DifficultSoul Thank you for your comment. It is a great feeling getting lost in art though isn't it.

Thx roe: I am lucky. After all the abuse I heaved on my talent I still have it. Tx.
 
 


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