First of all: u admitted that you're slacking off, that's good. Next: as long as you're willing to do your share of work you won't be getting worst. And last but not least, you're not slothing, you're just...not being able to work for some reason. Been tried lately?

if you mean "tired" then yes but i think that's just a lack of vitamin D cause I live in Ohio and it's winter.

Reading your blogs you seem very hard on yourself. Take a breath sweetie. Not saying to throw away your beliefs, but sometimes you have to step outside your body and just relax.