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Dreaming again
This is my latest realistic dream, it was REALLY wierd. It was wierd mostly because it had this warmth about it. I dreamt I had a baby. Now, consciously I don't want children right now. The thought terrifies me, literally. I'm sure someday my husband and I would like to, but I don't think I......Read More

Posted on: 2008-10-07 01:46:07 | Rating:

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Update...even if it's a little late
Everyone in my life keeps asking me how things are going with my mother. I just shrug and sigh, tell them it's alright, it's better, I'm not stressed, etc. For the most part, it's true. It doesn't mean I don't still feel like I let her down though. All my life she's let me down, turned my......Read More

Posted on: 2008-10-07 01:29:13 | Rating:

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Horrible Explicit Content
I don't think I've never felt like more of a horrible person. I did what I had to do to keep myself safe (mentally and physically), and to keep my husband. I had to refuse my mother asking to live with me last night. I got an e-mail that the previous night my mom was robbed. Someone was......Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-30 18:13:13 | Rating:

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Perfectionism
Not much has changed with my mother, she is homeless now, hasn't found a job, and is still asking me to do things for her (like finding/calling a job.) Through all of this, I have been dealing with the stress. I have been trying very hard not to turn to drinking, and for about 2 months now,......Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-25 02:02:09 | Rating:

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On me....
So during the family conference, it was decided that we should contact mental health services for my mom, because she forgets things, makes things up in their place to suit her needs/story, she has paranoia--as in if she can't find something in her own apartment, it automatically means someone......Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-11 02:30:57 | Rating:

| Views: 44 | Comments: 3 | Tags: mom mother husband mental health

Coming to an end?
My mother sent out an e-mail, for me to foward to the family. It basically said that they had no choice, they needed to help her because she was family, and if they were going to let her be homeless, then at least they could store some of her stuff. She went on to say that she had never asked for......Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-08 21:45:18 | Rating:

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Jack Ass
So I've been trying to steer clear of helping my mom too much, cause she needs to do crap on her own, which has been working the past couple weeks....it's still not perfect, and she still constantly asks me to do stuff, but I've been saying "no." So I get an e-mail from someone who......Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-06 22:42:17 | Rating:

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E-mails Explicit Content
I went on a trip this past weekend, to try and get away from it all. It was wonderful, beautiful beach, warm sun, and best of all, hours away from everything. Before I left, my mom e-mailed me, asking me t o call people again for her and do some paperwork for her. She never gives me a......Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-02 15:30:22 | Rating:

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Same old crap
I was hoping that by ignoring the problems my mother was having, that maybe she'd leave me alone. I should have known better. She starts out slow asking for things/help, and I feel obligated to do so, but then it starts almost every day, a new e-mail.... Sometimes tough love is best, and I......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-17 03:07:58 | Rating:

| Views: 38 | Comments: 0 | Tags: Mom Mother drama crap

ZOMBIES!
I am terrified of something that does not exist. I know that dead bodies are not going to come back to life because of a virus or curse. I know that zombies will not chase slowly after me, groaning and staggering. I know that zombies will not catch up with me, and slowly devour......Read More