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I don't really expect many people to read this thing, but I'm stuck at home and finding it really hard to find someone to talk to. The past month and a half have been the craziest of my life, it's sad really because I'm twenty-three years old and I feel like this is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. But I know that things like this are a part of life and you need to face things like this and I know that I haven't even gotten anywhere in life. In the month of August, a month which used to make me smile, my life got turned upside down. "Down with love, that's the right lyrics in a song I need to hear. Anyway, the last day of July my boyfriend of three years decided to just flip. We were talking and everything was okay, or so I thought, he made plans to hang out with some of the guys, I didn't think anything of it. (He had a bad habit of putting people before me lately...) He came home at ummm...around 4 a.m., guy came in and was messing with my hair. Usually I'm deep sleeper, but he woke me up for some reason. I get up and the guys sitting at the computer, again I didn't think anything of it, till I looked and he was looking at my "friends" myspace profile. I called his name, and he closed it really quick, of course me being the dumb girl that I am I asked why. He denied there being any reason for, "she sent me a message." Why was this girl sending my boyfriend messages??? The next day, I go to work and all day the dude kept calling me and asking how my day was, nothing out of the ordinary. After work I come home, and there was nothing wrong when I talked to him, but when I got there.....he ignored me. I asked if there was something wrong and he said no, but I persisted. Until finally he told me..."I'm bored Casey..." three words that broke my heart!!! I left and he didn't really say much, he said he needed some time to think about things, but I knew what was going to happen. So I waited three days for him to tell me that he didn't think was in love with me anymore, but that he really cared about me. I cried of course and tried to be sympathetic to the things he was facing but in my heart I just wanted to scream! So in trying not to think about my achening heart I went drinking......yeah! The thing all young people do when we have a problem and we don't know how to fix it. I met with my cousin and some of his friends, I get drunk and flirt with one of the friends. Made me feel good to have a guy actually interested in me. But...you know us girls we can't get over things the right way, who the fuck made a book of the right and wrong way to cope with someone breaking your heart??? This is fun....so, dear sweet...let's call him ex-boy, came to my job. For whatever he couldn't find his phone so he asked if he could use mine, I'm a smart one, let him take it outside to call his phone and he read my text messages. Joy! Dude comes in asks me to come outside, starts yelling at me. "Three years, and already you're talking to someone else, you don't even give yourself time to get over me." He'd basically told me, when he broke up with me that he didn't see himself getting back together with me and he should have just kept me as a friend. But here he was getting mad because someone else was interested, but the twist was he didn't my text messages in which all I talked about was ex-boy. Funny isnt it? You trust someone and they use your insecurities against you. So here I was again, balling over ex-boy. He tells me he want to talk and I like a dumbass run right over there.Ex-boy starts crying and telling me he missses me and wondering what went wrong and how was he going to live without me. I was soooooo confused. We make plans to meet for dinner, when we went to dinner everything was okay, we decided that we wanted to be friends and see what happens. Then his birthday was the next week I call his brother and we get the crew together to go have his first drink. Dude was drunk when he got to the bar and things were a little awkward.....I'll contiune to the really shitty later.
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Posted by EbonyEve23 on 2007-09-11 01:10:50 | Rating: | Views: 94
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