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So I suppose, I finish my depressing thoughts. It's three o'clock in the morning and my brain won't stop going. I don't want to think such bad things anymore, but I don't want to keep feeling like the people who tell me I mean so much to them, and yet no one is around! None of the people who say they care are really here to listen, "get drunk", "get high", "fuck 'em...." to so many that is easier said than done. How do you not cry over the person that has ment the world to you for a fifth of your life? Someone who was my best friend, became the love of my life and it felt so perfect. I feel so much like a little girl when it comes to things of this nature, I grew up with a single mom, no dad anywhere around. Seeing everyone else with their parents, thier families, so happy. Maybe, I don't know...I know no one is perfect, nothing is. But everything in my life up until now has been so hard and now, I'm twenty three years old, alone, scared and broken hearted. Yet, no matter how happy everyone thinks I am these days, I still cry myself to sleep at night! How can things get so fucked up so quickly? I was neieve, I know that now, but it's so painful and so scary that every morning when I wake up, I wonder if I'm going to cry again today. I don't want to, butI can't stop. I'm too scared to face the things I know I need to, but everything feels like a challenge to get done. Why, why are we tested so much in life? Life's overrated, love's overrated and friends, well their aare few if those around these days. Smile like you mean it, right!?!
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Posted by EbonyEve23 on 2007-10-28 01:24:47 | Rating: | Views: 114
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