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Here I am alone again.
Still single, still a single mum of two.
The wonderful man who gave me 3 great weeks of fun and a bit of passion thrown in, is overseas.
He's there with his ex-girlfriend, travelling around.
I was getting emails and fb messages from him. We even had the occassional chat on the msn live.
But for the past 3 days I haven't heard from him. He did tell me that this may be the case. At the time I shrugged my shoulders and replied "just send me a few cute text messages then".
But now the time has been passing and he's not sent a single one.
Which has got my over-analysing brain thinking he's over me.
Lets face it I'm 10 years older than him, I've got two kids and an ex-husband (not divorced yet though).
Who would want to be with me? I have a ready-made-family!!
I have commitments and responsibilities, don't we all? So why would someone want to take on more?
I guess Love would make someone take on more - but after 3 weeks of fun Love is not even in our vocabulary. I would absolutely die if he read this!
I don't mean I love him - no no not at all. But I really do like him. He's such a gentleman and from what I've encountered there just aren't that many of them out there.
I want to meet people, but can't get out. I want to sit here content with a man who cares for me, but I can't trust yet.
My children want their Daddy back - this is just not going to happen, and I actually don't want him back anymore.
So when can my life be "normal" again? I hear the question raised "What is Normal?" - I don't really know the answer anymore.
It is tough going from Normal - Comfortable living.... almost too predictable I guess. Although I don't want predictable - which borders on being BORING.
Oh I don't know - I just want someone I can trust again, I want someone that loves me for me.
I just want someone who my children will like.
Crazy crazy thoughts go through my head at times like these.
Why don't people care about each other anymore??
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Posted by EasyToSay on 2008-01-06 04:45:01 | Rating: | Views: 146
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Hi - I'm a married mother of 2, new to this, but suppose I need anonymous people to let off steam with too! I dont envy any single mother - altho husbands bring their challenges too. Hope you hear from the wonderful man as it is always disappointing when another human lets you down, no matter what the relationship; just remember that his lack of communication is not your fault. Sleep time for mothers. MIC - mothers in-need-of communication!
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Posted by Didyousignup4this
on 2008-01-06 07:24:33
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Sorry, too small to read hon
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Posted by sunstreaked
on 2008-01-06 21:31:41
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Hello - sorry you haven't heard from 'him' or maybe you have since posting, i hope so. over analysing, well we all do that, and we should'nt its so destructive, we cannot presume to know what is in the other persons head. Jus enjoy the relationship for what its worth, don't complicate things.
:o)
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Posted by Headinclouds
on 2008-01-11 04:15:17
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