I am not always patient.
If I like something or enjoy something .. I want it now, not necessarily when the universe deems me worthy of it.
nb. This goes for material things as well as people in my life.
I often have many emotions/moods in a day, like Melbourne's weather 4 seasons in one day.... sometimes my moods change so much more than that.
I wish my mood could be steady and not bother me.
You know leave me out of this, change my mood if you wish just let me lag until it's back to where I was.
I cannot see into the future.
I want to see it, I need to see where things are going.
Can someone please loan me a crystal ball .. or give me the fast forward button.
I cannot forget the past.
Sometimes it burns like a hot poker in my eye - right out of the blacksmith's fire. Other times it's like a shower of pixie dust making me smile so much it hurts (refer to mood comment).
I don't love lightly - friends, lovers, family.
If I say I love you, then I do. If I love you, it's because I see the inner beauty of you. If I love you even just a little it's because you are special to me... you are special in my heart. I hope you know that means tonnes.
I don't forget...
I wish I could. I wish there was an erase button on my mind sometimes.
I know it's how we learn, but somethings need to be erased.
I don't love lightly. I don't just put my trust in just anyone. Although I still get caught out. But you know what they say, No? . . . . . No neither do I? It's all german to me!.
I can wait if I know it's all good.
I can wait if I see glimpses of something worth waiting a million years for.
I will strive on regardless. This is not really about me, this is about knowing I have to, knowing I am setting an example for two little people. I don't get to hide out. They cop my moods, they see the sadness in my eyes, they see the joy in my smile. They see so much more than most.
I think too much ("no really?") I hear you scoff.
Sometimes, only sometimes I analyse too much. You think I analyse everything, but I really don't. I can't prove it to you, but I really don't.
I only "think" about certain things, but I certainly do not analyse everything.
I can walk away if you force me to ...
I have to be serious sometimes.
I have two people, two mini's who are relying on me for their health, safety and future. That is a HUGE responsibility. I still have fun, but sometimes I have to be serious and think about the consequences.
I like you ... I really really like you ... 
So say Hi won't you .. don't ignore me .. or I might just go away.
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