In the mail today, ironically on Valentines Day there was a letter from my Lawyer regarding the Family Law separation matter.  These letters always freak me out - I am always expecting a new "surprise".  They remind me how vulnerable I still am in regards to matters with my ex.

When I opened the letter it was the usual garb about my "husband" sending a letter via his Lawyer, and please make an appointment with my Lawyer to discuss..... another $300 per hour down the tubes!
So I call make an appointment - and realise I am becoming ammune to this whole process.

I also realise that this is one more step to the end of my marriage.  Not quite the final one - which I think is when my husband files for divorce.  But never the less the door on our marriage and our history is slowly getting the security chain put on it.
Once divorced the deadbolt will be securely in place... and I will know that that door will never open again. The door of my marriage .... well my first marriage will be well and truly shut forever.

Sad?  Yes, but on this first Valentines Day as a SINGLE woman (for oh 20 years!) I feel some relief and definitely some fresh, positive outlook for my future.