There are only 8 days until HWG returns from his trip.
I got a postcard from him two days ago, which was a really nice surprise in my letter box. And very sweet because he's been blogging his travels on his own web-page and they are very detailed blogs.  For the most part everybody that I know who are reading them are really enjoying them.
He also sent one to our workplace, and one to another work colleague - but in a really small way I feel lucky to have got my own one, sent to my home.

I haven't heard from him via text since SUNDAY, that is 3 days ago.  And I haven't had an email from him for almost 6 days.  (This is unusual since he was texting every 2nd day at least)

And my over analysing brain is yelling at me that he's got back with his ex-Girlfriend who is he travelling with.
I hear you asking - "what the  ... why is he travelling with his ex", and the simple answer is because they booked it before they broke up.

But anyway back here for a minute.   I just don't know what to think anymore.  I tell myself to GET OVER HIM - but have I made him bigger than he was to me?  Is there actually nothing to get over?

I tell myself SO WHAT if he's back with her - it was only 3 weeks of fun, passion and friendship.
But those 3 weeks were amazingly fun and at times exciting.

I guess the smart/logical/thinking part of my brain says I built it up because he went away while it was still good. 
The other emotional/irrational part of my brain tells me that it was never going to last.
But one things for sure - I am never ever going to know either way - because he went away before we could test it.

So now I sit contemplating how to approach the situation, trying to cater for all possibilities, when really there is no way of doing that.  I wonder what he's thinking, I wonder what he'll say.
I wonder if he's searching for the words to use to tell me he's over me.
I know there is the possibility that he is just enjoying himself so much that I'm the furthest thing from his mind.

Fate has to take care of me, again.  At least this time I'm expecting it.