Thoughts.com Blogs - No more HWG ......he's going back.....to her

After a crappy start to our conversation today, HWG and I fell into the comfortable chatter that I enjoyed so much .... 5 weeks ago!!

He's into David Eddings - like me. No big deal I hear you say, but most of my friends don't even know who David Eddings is. But HWG even knew the useless but trivial fact that Eddings actually wrote with his wife - but only started giving her credit in the later books. WOW! I think to myself - this guys good.

We then get into some serious (not convincing hey!) current affair topics such as our differing opinions on Heath Ledger (my once Walk In man) and Brittany Spears. HWG has no sympathy for the RICH who have everything and blow their lives with stupid behaviour.

Stupidly or not I break the free flowing conversation by asking :-

So you are back with her? Or heading that way?

I am referring to his ex who he's just spent 24 x 7 with for the past oh 5 weeks ... to which I get the answer (after a long pause) of

I don't know where we re at!

He says he thought he was over her, but realised he wasn't and they BOTH don't really know where they are at. They both don't think they are happy with things as they stand at the moment. - I take it that means as a broken up couple. (lets face it who is after being together so long!?There is an adjustment period)

Me being me, you know Miss Nice - make it easy for everyone but myself - tells him to go for it and says a lame que serra serra! I tell him if it makes HIM happy then why not etc etc.
Of course I mention to him that if he'd said he wasn't sure if he WAS over her when I first got to know him then I would NOT have STARTED anything ... and he says he wouldn't have gone there (with me) either if he wasn't sure - No consolation for me really!

Then I throw in

I could almost say that the 3 weeks we spent together meant nothing to him

But he's too clever for me - or should I say not as emotional as me and answers cooly - You don't really think that do you?

Of course I don't really think that - because I think he's a good guy, and if I really thought that, then I wouldn't be giving him the time of day!

I was sad to hear it but think I knew it.
Sad because I thought we got along soooo well, and I was blown away at how much we had in common - as in things we liked, things we thought etc etc.

I could see him as a guy I could never grow bored of, and vice versa. I don't think I'd have to change at all - weird huh!

Maybe too much in common - maybe that's the problem - maybe that's why I didn't blow him away and he isn't thinking up ways of surprising me next Thursday!

Oh well, I guess he can't be HWG anymore - and he's not really back with her yet - so TWG (Taken WG) doesn't fit so for now he can remain HWG .... well until he's in that NO GO ZONE, you know the one where he's got a girlfriend or partner - that ZONE that I don't venture because I know how much it hurts when Single women go there.

Maybe he'll see one day what he's missed out on by "dismissing" me.

In the meantime I'm very lucky to be able to have him as a friend.!
But if I said I was happy about this - I'd be lying!