Welcome to my wandering words, welcome to no sense or should that be nonsense, no commitment, no promises, read with no expectation and you wont be disappointed.
Do you ever have those days where you just want to fade into the background and not be noticed by anyone?
Do you ever get tired of fighting the good fight or striving to do better?
Do you ever wish that good things came to those who wanted them now, and a wait was not necessary?
Do you ever wonder what "those" people did right that you are obviously NOT doing?
You realise all things are different in their own way, but you know all things are equal as well.
You know you have to chase that dream or the winds will sweep them away.
You know if you guard your heart for too long it will grow grey and hard.
If you have amazing friends hopefully you know you are lucky and don't take them for granted.
If you have an amazing family you know they will come with their quirks too.
Don't expect everything to be given to you on a plate, because for most of us that isn't going to happen.
Some days I want the world, I want every single friend to notice me and love me openly - so I can love them openly back.
I've got a rambling mind right now, but it's not a sad one. I am rather pensive and content, but I feel like just writing and writing and writing. If the sun was out my desire would be shoot images, explore and capture beauty. Alas it's dark and cold outside, inside it is warm and light.
My mind can't help wandering to thoughts of Bob who would've had the pre-op and be recovering for his next op on the 30th. I know emails are the last thing on their minds, but I wish one of his family could email to let me know how he went. I can't help but think I may never hear from his hotmail account again, who knows if he's told anybody his password, I'm thinking positively that he'll start sending me 5 emails every 2 hours again, all those jokes I hate getting, but don't mind from Bob. His 5 liners telling me about his gorgeous grand daughter or his new grandchild on the way. Emails I welcomed but took for granted... because they were just emails, just short notes that we shared... now they mean so much more.
Do you know he sent me a package over 2 months ago that got lost in the mail. He picked out some gifts for my children and he'd sourced a crystal "something" for me that he said was rare. Well it still hasn't arrived, and Bob promised me that he was sending another one because he wanted us to know he thought of us. He apologised that he couldn't get another "Crystal" thing for me,
"but don't worry Love," he'd say, "it will be just as special for you love"
Silly Bob I remember thinking to myself, he didn't need to send me anything, but I wait excitedly all the same.
Sorry for the rambles my friends.
Posted by EasyToSay on 2009-07-29 04:24:45 | Rating: | Views: 110
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