So the saying goes "Time heals all wounds" or as some like to say "Time wounds all heals" in the form of karma I'd assume. Maybe that is why today I've been a little up-tight, a little sensitive, and am ending the day in a bit of a rut, a mood, a snoot! Tomorrow is the 4th of July, American Independence Day. But it is also a year ago on the 4th of July that I became officially divorced.
No I am not wallowing in self pity, neither am I reflecting, I'm just in one of those moods and I'm wondering if the significance of my very own freedom from the hand-cuffs of marriage has weighed more heavily on my mind than I realised. After all aunt flow is 3 weeks off and well things have been going smoothly lately.
Maybe that is the other thing, maybe things have been going too well lately that with those ups has to come a few downs, a minor down for sure, but never the less a slight down.
In comparison to many others I'm sure my life is rosy, but I cannot see or feel the lives of others, I only have my own day to day to compare life with. So I mean no disrespect to those who are really toughing things out right now.
I will be alone all of this week-end as the children are going to stay with fotys mum. No I don't have a date lined up, not a one. I don't even at this point in time have a booking with my beautiful Andy. Andy for those just new to reading me is a Horse... a Beautiful brown horse who is a pleasure to ride.
I've been on a bit of a budget review, and with bunk beds on the shelf, I've been trying to save a little extra here and there, so horse riding has gone by the way side a little. Another reason for my possible Mood.
So many things I could say, but I don't want you complaining that you've had to read on and on and on!
I guess it would be nice to come home to someone who loved me .. or be home and they come home to me. But I know it's not the most important thing, and honestly the love of my children comes so far ahead of anyone else that it's not even comparable.
But still those of you single know exactly what I mean....
It's just nice to be loved
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