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That is my favorite song at the moment - Lips of An Angel.
The reason being when I dated/saw/got together with HWG he always called me late at night. He also for part of it had his ex-girlfriend and parents living at his house prior to their OS holiday.
"Kinda hard to talk right now"
"She's in the next room, sometimes I wish she was you."
Two weeks ago I got a text from HWG when he was drinking at the cricket.
Now for those who know my blogs - you'd know we had 3.5 weeks of hot passionate times - and read this - we also spent plenty of hours sitting innocently talking or watching DVD's or just simply enjoying each other's company! Mind you probably a lot of hours were spent talking/texting on the phone too.
When he texted me on that Friday night from the cricket he'd been drinking.
So I decided to see how far I could push it - I asked him if he'd go out with me the night after "AS FRIENDS".
Why as Friends I hear you ask - well the reason we didn't continue seeing each other once he got back from his 5 week holiday with the ex, was because while they were away he realised that he was not infact over her - and he felt confused, and I think he felt an obligation to her.
So I suggested he go with his heart and sort himself out - which he unfortunately agreed with. However he had not told me they were back together.
I guess I should have assumed but I prefer fact.
But he declined my catching up as FRIENDS offer and instead offered coffee on the Monday. Which I accepted.
Well last night he went out with a friend, and I jokingly asked if I would receive any text messages - he told me he'd try not to bother me. And he didn't.
Disappointed I went to bed at 10pm - but the devil in me made me text him - just a simple
Good Night, don't do anything I wouldn't do.
I got a response and we started texting from there.
Until I decided to test the waters again - because he still wouldn't confirm or deny that he was back with his ex.
You see in one of our first encounters when he was a SINGLE man he sent me a text like :-
"So What are you wearing? .... Just kidding I've always wanted to ask that"
After that it was sort of a joke between us. So last night I text oh and by the way I'm wearing a black singlet & a pink G (as in G-string).
He text back saying
Yes I did take a long time to reply.
Deliberatly this time. I didn't need that :) !
I'm sure its ace!
I apologised and said I saw the line and I crossed it anyway, and I was sorry.
His response was :-
You are ace. As brilliant as that image was I sure don't want to be that guy you don't like - the ex. If things were different I'd already be there! Trust me!
My response :-
U could never be that guy.. U have brains & an honest heart.... Million dollar question - so u R back with your ex?? So long as U R Happy - thats what matters :)
He goes on to tell me that they are trialling 6 months back together. and that if things are the same (whatever that means) then that's it! and he goes on to say I WISH U WERE HAPPY!
This goes back and forwards awhile and I realise I AM HAPPY!
I tell him i'd rather be alone than with the wrong guy... and I honestly hope they work it out. I tell him I will definitely respect His relationship Status.
It's about 3am and he rings me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We talk - he is quite drunk has been drinking for 8 hours almost.
I try to be the fair person - i will never be the OTHER WOMAN and neither will I settle for SECOND BEST. And he is Definitely not the kind of guy that would cheat.
He says he thought he was doing the right thing (getting back with her) - but he has to reconsider that since he's rung me twice now when he's been out drinking!
He concedes that if he hadn't have gone away with her that he DEFINITELY would be with me .... I say nah get real something else would have popped up ... but he was adament (in his drunken state) that he'd be here!
We discuss how he has to do what he is doing - because otherwise he will wonder if they could've made it.
But I digress - I did tell him that I was in his almost same situation prior to Marrying FOTY - and I too took history as an obligation to keep trying.I told him that HISTORY or a PAST with a person does NOT mean you are meant to be together.
Part of me wanted him to say
"You know what you are right! I am NOT Happy but I was happy with you."
But he's a great guy, a decent guy and it is not in his nature to hurt someone else for his personal needs/wants/desires.
And that is why I LIKE HIM!
So readers my conclusion??
Well I don't want to be the other woman, I really really really like this guy - but I will walk away willingly (sort of) - because I have had the rug pulled out from under me due to the excitement of another woman - and I won't do it to somebody else.
I won't text him anymore - even though I loved texting him last night.
I will still think about him ... alot - but I wont let him know it.
If they break up - I hope he calls me, but I won't be stopping my world waiting for that day.
I will wish them both the best - because the LIFE GPS is set and who knows where our final destinations are focused.
I am going to see him everyday at work until his contract ends, and I am going to dream about him - until I meet someone else that matches his intelligence, sweet nature, gentleman manners and oh so many more things he is made of.
I realise that by even having this emotional relationship with HWG ...it could be considred a form of cheating.
And I could write about here why I think he should be with me, but the bottom line is that He's TAKEN.
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Posted by EasyToSay on 2008-03-06 05:49:59 | Rating: | Views: 486
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Just to play Devil's Advocate here, and from a complete outsider's perspective: What if he's one of these guys who gets more of a rush out of life when he feels desired by more than one person? Who wouldn't? But, what if he's setting himself up for just that rush? Maybe it's not about love or relationships. Maybe it's about ego. Just presenting an alternate point of view for consideration...
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Posted by BootLady
on 2008-03-06 06:07:51
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I don't think he is one of those guys - but you could be right? Maybe I'm blinded by the spell he cast over me with his pure manners / morals and man talents :) ...thanks for the "thought"
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Posted by EasyToSay
on 2008-03-06 06:12:02
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When you love something let it go and if it comes back to you, you will know you are what he truly wants. I truly believe that, it has worked out for me in the past.
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Posted by prelude2it
on 2008-03-06 08:59:45
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I feel for you and feel how much you like this guy...it's hard not to get what we want when we feel in our deepest heart that it's right and the other person doesn't seem to see it. Time will tell...
good luck, friend.
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Posted by Ellie2008
on 2008-03-06 13:33:41
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prelude2it - Yes I agree with you. Especially now since I believe that he does like me and I've now let him know I feel the same.
I won't pursue, I will leave him be - and if he comes back - who knows where things might go. If he doesn't then I'm confident that there are decent men out in the world waiting for me.
Thank you.
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Posted by EasyToSay
on 2008-03-06 14:25:45
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Ellie - Yes I really do like this guy, but my moralistic side says tread lightly. And I do think he likes me - he really is a good guy - which is why we both know that in the current situation he has to make sure he does the right thing by his partner.
My heart isn't too hooked yet to let go and start again, my head says "be patient"!
Afterall what's this in comparison to my marriage ending. LOL
Thanks for your kind words.
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Posted by EasyToSay
on 2008-03-06 14:29:22
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Gwatlan - you know you are right, and I know you are right ... just have to convince my heart :) No really i think he's a great guy, and maybe because FOTY was such a "tird" he looks even more wonderful! LOL
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Posted by EasyToSay
on 2008-03-07 02:33:04
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hearts need to be checked at the door and on my way out i want to forget mine. i hope all goes well for you and your fella comes to his senses and realizes what he had when he had YOU.
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Posted by lastblastkl
on 2008-03-07 18:18:20
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lastblastkl - thank you for your words - I too hope he realises before it is tooooo late. But as I've learned life goes on and heart ache fades. :)
thank you again.
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Posted by EasyToSay
on 2008-03-07 18:31:58
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Trust your heart to do what is right for you.Maybe he isn't good enough for you.He just don't know what he is missing not having you in his life.I hope everything goes well for you.Wish you the best.
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Posted by kidatheart
on 2008-03-09 11:42:34
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