Here we go again, I hear you saying as you click on READ MORE, EasyToSay has gone mad.  She's finally lost the plot.  She warned us she's got PMT, and she's realised it is almost 12 months since her marriage died in the arse........ well these are a few things I want to say outloud... because these things hurt me and I want to set them free....... I actually may add to this ... but here goes...

1. He didn't pick my engagement ring.  Infact I chose it, I layby'd it and I picked it up... and the ONLY bit he was involved in was proposing with it

2. He called our wedding off 8 weeks before we were supposed to get married (the first set date).... as I sat on the floor happily putting our wedding invites in their envelopes he calmly told me he didn't want to marry me.

3. When we did finally get married, it was on his terms - a cocktail stand up wedding ... and our wedding song that he picked ....was by U2 - "I still haven't found what I'm looking for" ... He thought this was hilarious.  And he refused to do the bridal waltz.

4. On our honeymoon, he took his surfboard, and checked the waves every day before he'd committ to doing something together!

5. When I had to have minor surgery to remove a cyst in my breast, and I was freaking out because my Grandmother died from Breast cancer, he wouldn't re-arrange his on-the-road sales job to take me to hospital, did not visit me during my brief stay, and was not available to pick me up when I was "released"!  (btw - thank goodness It was benign).

6.  He only came to ONE of each of my doctors appointments/ultra sounds when I was pregnant with our children, and that was only so he could make sure I didn't find out the sex, which he was dead against.
(I found out the sex of our second child .... and to this day that is the ONLY thing I've kept from him!)

7. He used to remain up the "footy" club drinking with the guys, often not coming home until the wee hours.... The few times I stayed up there with him he would refuse to stand talking to me, instead he'd flirt with the single girls at the bar.

8.  One night I got so drunk at one of his footy events I had to go home.... instead of staying home with me, he dropped me there and went out with the guys. I was a mess.... vomitting in the TAXI!!!! Ha ha ... I can laugh now.

9.  When I was feeling sad, and out of control after the births of both children (a bit of post-natal depression), He went to Golf .. on both occassions.  Golf was more important than helping me cope.

10. When we watched TV, I had to wait for the ads before I was allowed to ask questions about his day, or discuss any challenges I was facing..... we never sat at night enjoying each others company.  If there was nothing on TV instead of turning it off he'd play a DVD.

12. He would refuse to speak to me if I didn't want to "make love/ have sex" with him.... once he even carried this into the next day.  Telling me I made him soooo mad!

13. He cheated on me, he lied to me ... he still lies to me.