Update…
With less than 48 hours before I start the first ride I still feel confident. Am I alittle scared? Umm maybe… but I will take a line from one of my favorite songs from one of my favorite bands… I think it is actually on my profile. And well I know it was written about a person they were in a relation ship with… but I can relate it to this place.
“And oh yeah I might be crazy -
but that's not the same as insane
And I'm scared -
but that's not the same as being afraid”
The basis behind the song is that no matter what happens he is ok as long as he can “swan dive… into you” lol kind of like thoughts… no matter how bad it gets, I can always come here to write about it and find shelter.
Now on with the update ha-ha
I am feeling good about this, I am still not sure I realize how hard it is going to be and I was a little less sure this morning after my trainer got a hold of me lol… I seem to have a love hate relationship with her. One week I love her… the next week… well I don’t hate her but I am less in love shall we say. I went in to see her yesterday and my thought was it will be a light day… some easy stuff to get the blood going maybe some stretching… ummmmm yeah right… she said… “We are going to work the muscles that you won’t work on the bike.” I ask… “Will I be sore?” and she said “not with the muscles you will use on the bike.” I say, “But umm you use a lot of your muscles when you ride that long… and I really do not want to be sore on top of it all.” And she said… “Nah… you will be fine.” Ummmm yeah… ok well I am sore now… and I will be even sorer tomorrow… because it is always worse 2 days later. We did lateral jumps with dumbbells… and reverse sit ups… pull downs, push ups… forward rows… ha-ha but either way no slacking off for me it seems and in the end its all good for me lol and I did take a short ride last night when I got home from the gym… just to keep my “seat” used to my seat.
Tonight I have another 17 mile training ride which will be my last time on the bike untill the event… this will probably not be a hard fast ride but just a basic equipment check and see if things are how they should be… maybe the last 5 miles sprint it out just to wake the legs up and all that.
I have a few things planned… some will be surprises you will see in the video (if I can make it happen) or at least in pictures. I plan on trying to get a few photos of the down town area before it’s invaded then some pictures after… to give you guys an idea.
Thank you again for all your support…. And once again If you still want to donate there is time… just click the link below… and I would like to thank all of those that have donated… and thank thoughts and it’s staff for the unlimited support it has given me… I wish there was more I could do for thoughts to show my thanks. I hope what I have planned will be enough.
http://main.nationalmssociety.org/goto/ForSydney
And lastly… I was going to keep most all of this to myself, but I wanted to share some of it because it touched me so much. I truly hope she is ok with me doing so. I got an email from Bia when I came to work today that blew me away. I will not post all of it here, but just a small passage. Because this is going to be something that will be with me while I ride… and because of this I have so much less doubt than before… I will find the strength and when I am unsure I will remember this:
“When you ride in the MS150 I know you will have Sydney along for the entire journey, she'll be watching over you, encouraging you and reinforcing the sentiment of "The distance you ride is of no consequence, it is your participation, thus bringing attention to the plight of those that suffer from Multiple Sclerosis, and aspiring to do the best that you can possible do that is the ultimate achievement of the goal."
If you become tired or downhearted about anything on your journey, listen for Sydney's soft whisper in your heart letting you know that she believes in you and trusts that you have the fortitude to make the right decisions, and determinations.”
I will leave you with that… because I really don’t know what else to say now. Other than the love I have felt from everyone around me has humbled me so much in fact that I feel as if I am not doing enough to earn it. All of you are with me and in my head most of the time and you guys are what helps me push forward, for her… for you… and then for myself.
Smile… the road is long… the wind is howling… but you are never alone.
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