Time to unload a few things…

First I made a tough decision, but I am not going to play ball. I think I am finished. My mind and my heart are there, the desire is strong and true, but I just do not think my body will take the abuse much longer. It would be different if I got paid big bucks, but this is semi pro, we don't even get enough for me to quit my regular job. The money is not worth it if I cant walk, so I have been talking with my trainer and I have a team that does other events that might want me. We don't make any money, but our gear is paid for and we get to try out a lot of new toys and such as they come out and develop them. Most of the time it would be bike tours for charities, or I hope to be able to do a few tri athalons as well. These things are hard on your body but in a good way, not something that you have 300lb guys actually trying to take out your legs as you run. Or are looking to lay you out cold if they can. It was a tough decision but I feel like it is the right one. Coach says I am giving up, that 32 is not all that old, I understand I fill an important spot and they even offered more money, but sometimes you have to look at what you need to do and not what you want to do.

So Sat night my lil bro called me and asked me to come pick em up… him and his wife was going at it. I get there and it is Kinda crazy, pots flying and people screaming lol so we left. I asked him where he wanted to go, if her wanted to crash at my place or take him over to our moms or what. He said he was not sure and just need to clear his head. So cool let's go play some pool for a bit Kinda chill out, it's been a few months sence we have done anything like that. We go out there and are there a few hours and decide that If I am going to be driving it is best to stop now lol. I told him look lets hit the store grab some beer head back to my place and have a little bon fire… He liked that idea we used to do that all the time. Well at the store I run into 2 of my cousins and one of their finance. They asked us what was going on, like most families the news had already rippled through the family and we assumed that by now, he had beat her to a pulp and I had kicked in their door and done doughnuts in their front lawn and we sped off into the night… you know how things get stretched the more it gets told. Anyway we told em what we had planned and they Kinda had something the same planned except she was getting sour mix to make long islands lol so they all decided to come to my house… ok first just let me say I might get drunk 1 or 2 times a year and that is a stretch… I might buy a 12 pack 6 times a year to put in my fridge and maybe a bottle of wine every other month. I am not a big big drinker. Well I will make this already long story shorter I um have decided that the best way for me to describe the evening is to say that there are parts of the information that I stored in my memory that night have been corrupted and are not able to be retrieved at the moment lol I got trashed… I was sick for 2 days… I did not go to work Monday, and Sunday was hell. I have paid the piper, and the only thing I can say is yeah dad you where right… he used to tell me, " Boy, if your going to be stupid, you got to be tough."

Well yesterday my family got together for dinner at my aunts house, yesterday was 1 year ago that we buried my grandfather, someone who was very important to me. The gathering went well, we all brought what pictures we had and shared different stories and memories. Most of which we had all heard 100 times before but each of us listened and laughed like it was brand new. It was a good time I know grandpa would have enjoyed it. I think we are making that an April 1st tradition. Not really a celebration of death, but a celebration of the life he had and the knowledge he has given us. Families just do not hold fast and do things like that anymore, when an icon in the family passes they drift, and we are making sure that does not happen.

Well I think this is more than enough, I had planned on venting about work but I might save that for later, I am sure any of you who actually read all of this may need some coffee at this point to wake up lol. I hope all of you are having a great day.