View Blog    Ray of Sunshine Sometimes in our lives, we are lucky enough to cross paths with someone who makes such an impact on your life, that it causes you to want to change your ways and be a better person. Well, about five months ago, I met a person like that. She's so sweet, its easy to fall in love with her.   One look into her big hazel eyes, and see her big beautiful smile, and she will capture your heart forever. Her name is Angelika Eva, she was born May 26th (2007). Mi sobrina (my neice), is the cutest baby you'll ever see, (at least till I have children of my own *lol*), she's the daughter of my best friend Lisa, whom I call my hermanita (little sister). The minute I held Angelika in my arms and saw her looking at me and smiling, I felt something inside that I haven't felt in years, I felt a real urge to change my life. Even though we're not related by blood, she's still a big part of my life, and I want to be someone she can look up to when she grows up. Someone she can be proud of and not be ashamed to say to her friends.. "Look at my tia (aunt) Chispa". My life has become so much brighter since Angelika was born, and Lisa allowed me to call her daughter my niece and make her a part of my family. I could be in the worst mood possible, and the minute I look at Angelika's smile, and she giggles, it just makes everything so much better, even to the point that she tends to make me forget what was bothering me in the first place ! I'm trying so hard to be a better person, I don't smoke, rarely drink, I TRY not to cuss anymore, especially around her. Making changes to the way I eat, so that I can be healthy and be around for her for a long time to come. Just basically making my life alot better. I've been cutting out the negativity in my life too, I don't want to bring any negativity around her. Angelika Eva means so much to me, its hard to imagine what life was like before she was born. Every moment that I get to spend with her is a real blessing to me. I would do anything to protect her and keep her safe and happy.     Posted by DominicanaBlanca on 2007-10-25 10:43:28 | Rating: | Views: 72     Email This to a Friend Friend's Email *    Friend's Name*    Your Name*    Security code*    Refresh Image                 Print This Blog Post     Bookmark: Delicious  Digg  Reddit  Facebook  StumbleUpon    Permalink:      Blog Comments    Reading your post at a time when once again--as it often happens--I am put in a very frustrating, sad and angry place when a "friend" comes to an impass with me and terminates connections. Suddenly that ray of light becomes a painful laser or blinding force that throws me off course instead of warming the way. I have met a few of these "rays" in my life, but so far not one has stayed with me more than a few years(and the time gets shorter with every new one). Just when I think I have found one who will stay with me...they get taken away. I have received more than enough comments about the error in my philosophy and way of life even though I have been like you trying to be the best person I can be with all the good habits and such. But, in all my efforts to be the good person, I seem to have ended up with nothing of value in my heart. As much as people comment that I am such a good guy(I am starting to think they are just the people who wish to use me), I get comments about how hurtful and inconsiderate I am. How I judge and slash people apart for not being as "good" as me. I have never desired to be better than others other than in competition when I want to be the best. I have never thought I had any ego or God complex. And, yet, here I sit without a genuine friend in the world I can count on and feel connected with...always on the verge of a complex because I just keep running into these impasses. ANd, if I think about it too much and don't just keep doing what makes me feel content, I may just self-destruct. And, I don't really want to pour all that out on a web page--heck, I can barely type it all. I know, I'm already babbling. Ok, fin. You can delete this if it bothers you. Sorry for venting here. You just struck a cord, and it's my fault for reading anyway. Posted by  brainstormer  on 2007-10-25 22:11:29  Would you like to comment?     (Maximum characters: 5000)     You have characters left.      Security code:                                                     Refresh Image

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