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The one thing in life that I dislike the most is to hurt people...like breaking up with my partner, saying something that seems insensitive...
Sometimes I feel I have this link with every person in the world...and I feel their hurt just as painfully as they do.
I believe in love,compassion,understanding,companionship,hope and all the things that make peoples eyes sparkle with joy. I would've loved to only evoke these emotions in the people I come into conact with, but life is not that easy...life is full of new and wonderful things. But you have to let go of the old to let in the new...
Sometimes the time comes where you have to look at your life and your self and decide if the people and possessions are really helping you achieve what you believe your goals are. If you decide that they are not, you have to let go...and this is what causes hurt.
What's even worse than that is when a person lets you know how much you hurt them...or begs you to come back. Now my compassionate heart screams at me to do so...to undo the hurt I had caused...and many times I prefer to do so, at the expense of my own happiness.
The day I figure this out, will be a good day for me...Sometimes I wish I didn't care so much, then it would be easier...less to think and worry about...
Then again...a roller coaster wouldn't be any fun if it didn't have it's ups and downs...
Oh, and don't forget the torture accompanied by the making of the decision...Before I ever decide to let go of anything, I allow it to torment me for weeks....trying to figure out if this is the right thing or whether or not I'm being selfish etc...(maybe also to punish myself for thinking about hurting someone....
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Posted by Divapixie on 2008-03-27 02:59:55 | Rating: | Views: 101
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