urn:uuid:e8fde805-00e1-836c-3173-f0d052a3685c 2008-10-30T01:31:55-04:00 Divapixie urn:uuid:b696db64-b744-1ef7-7b39-8e3968975322 2008-03-27T04:22:35-04:00

Head in hands
Men in bands
Excruciating noise
Thoughts destroy my poise
My two arch enemies
Are in cohorts
They cause tragedies
My heart and my thoughts
One is winning a war
The other is losing for love
I want no more
From the sadist above
When my sentence is served
And my life is done
I got what I deserved
And the hurt is gone
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urn:uuid:e2a70d68-8304-5087-1e3b-8303eda90c6e 2008-03-27T03:42:56-04:00

In my head
Want nothing more
Than to be dead

How I yearn
For the final dash
See love burn
Watch life crash

Lose my soul
Keep me sane
My final goal
Escape the pain

We were one at heart
Death will do us part.
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urn:uuid:3646658e-6d02-6a26-a6eb-72a1c2910e2e 2008-03-27T03:39:06-04:00

There were shadows all around,
My skin was burning,
there was fire in my eyes…
with a start I realised that,
once again, the sun has risen
into the skies.

I was startled by this dawn,
releasing me from my tenebrific gloom.
It carried a promise of life,
dissipating all thoughts of doom.

Smiles light my face
My heart pounding songs so true,
Light had entered my life again
The light had risen with you…

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urn:uuid:bb72fb57-1dc2-f060-a13a-77b1f94c7522 2008-03-27T02:59:55-04:00

Sometimes I feel I have this link with every person in the world...and I feel their hurt just as painfully as they do.

I believe in love,compassion,understanding,companionship,hope and all the things that make peoples eyes sparkle with joy. I would've loved to only evoke these emotions in the people I come into conact with, but life is not that easy...life is full of new and wonderful things. But you have to let go of the old to let in the new...

Sometimes the time comes where you have to look at your life and your self  and decide if the people and possessions are really helping you achieve what you believe your goals are. If you decide that they are not, you have to let go...and this is what causes hurt.

What's even worse than that is when a person lets you know how much you hurt them...or begs you to come back. Now my compassionate heart screams at me to do so...to undo the hurt I had caused...and many times I prefer to do so, at the expense of my own happiness.

The day I figure this out, will be a good day for me...Sometimes I wish I didn't care so much, then it would be easier...less to think and worry about...

Then again...a roller coaster wouldn't be any fun if it didn't have it's ups and downs...



Oh, and don't forget the torture accompanied by the making of the decision...Before I ever decide to let go of anything, I allow it to torment me for weeks....trying to figure out if this is the right thing or whether or not I'm being selfish etc...(maybe also to punish myself for thinking about hurting someone....]]>

urn:uuid:0d193083-9d79-dd48-d5df-6ccdb7480af5 2008-03-25T02:42:08-04:00

How? By giving unconditional love...not an easy task when sometimes I feel I want to rip off the head of somebody in traffic...But I'm also practicing being patient...coz that's the fool-proof way of preventing frustration. Another walk in the park...

I have thought of many devious ways that I'll be able to achieve my dream without trying to rid the world of it's hate...but none will work unless it is done with love.

I admit, I'm going to need all the help I can get...and I am going to have to grow still more often...and figure this shit out...

Any suggestions will be appreciated.

Peace.]]>