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I will have to fake it baby...
Acting grown up is boring...
The best time I have, is coming here and playing 16...
So, I have to remain an actress in this world.
Literally, I change roles when in the "real" world.
My ideal world in my head..surely is more enjoyable than the rat race of life.
Trying to suicide the child in me...was not a good idea.
Instantly- I started feeling very depressed.
It is sad that people get all stuffy...
I call them 'yuppies'...
People who try to act so serious, and think that their status in life makes them someone.
I watch the kids next door play from my balcony...
Now that is living, one minute they are cops, the next- explorers, and some games I still cannot figure out.
To live in a world of fun.
Yet, the real world does try to dominate our senses.
We have found the secret to the fountain of youth baby girl.
To never let our spirits grow old.
I worked in an old folks home, and I realized something about age...
Age is all in the mind...
Some people were so bitter and ancient minded...
The ones who stuck out to me were the ones, who still could 'think' young.
Maybe it is the fact that recently, some people close to me, told me I need more maturity.
I have come to this conclusion...I enjoy flipping those types of people off, in spirit.
A huge middle finger of defiance.
I will not grow up..."i'm a Toys'R Us Kid."...hehe...(sticking my tongue out)
I flee from anyone, who tries to change me.
Rebellion on stereotypes.
People can be how they want to be.
If they want to be old minded...then leave them alone in it.
Going back to saying...
Be careful with who you hang out with...it rubs off on us.
I would rather be alone...than have to change to be in someone's presence.
It is an honor to be me...and an honor to be in my presence.
That is how I want you to see yourself.
Be honored by yourself.
I love you my immature baby girl...
Never change for anyone!
You will always be mine.. baby...!
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Posted by DifficultSoul on 2008-05-31 19:14:20 | Rating: | Views: 257
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Hey I'm waiting here on the playground. You are eternally young, LftH.
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Posted by Pauligan
on 2008-05-31 20:18:11
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Pauligan-..
I dibs the slide!
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Posted by DifficultSoul
on 2008-05-31 21:29:14
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I love acting young, maybe because i am surrounded by youth.
It doesn't stop me feeling old and worn at times.
The best times of my life are when i am playing with my children.
I love this, thank you for reminding me.xx
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Posted by bubblydi
on 2008-06-01 07:18:57
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We are all kids at heart even if you are too serious to realize it. Being a child every once in a while keeps me alive.....smile....
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Posted by InsomniacOne
on 2008-06-01 18:42:06
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BubblyDiane-..
Feeling worn and old, is not in my vocabulary.
Maybe you just need to buy a Michael Jackson CD..hehe.
I love you.
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Posted by DifficultSoul
on 2008-06-01 19:38:24
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InsomniacOne-..
Living life in my teenage mindset, is surely what keeps me alive.
Here is to forever living.. I cheered you with my ice tea.
Peace.
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Posted by DifficultSoul
on 2008-06-01 19:40:15
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Once your spirit grows old your heart, body and mind will follow. I have the spirit of a child lol.... Anyone for a game of dodgeball? oh oh how i used to love to play hide and seak.... or storied around a campfire... man o man....
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Posted by DouglasMB
on 2008-06-01 20:06:32
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DouglasMB-..
You reminded me of camping, and staying up all night with cards and board games, as a child.
Even remembering our childhood and talking about it, makes us feel lighter on our feet.
Thanks for the lift in spirit.
Peace.
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Posted by DifficultSoul
on 2008-06-02 01:42:45
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anytime... anytime at all...
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Posted by DouglasMB
on 2008-06-02 02:10:01
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they lie: those that say they have grown mature and that you should too especialy if they want you rapped in their blindness! where are the mature? I don't see them??? I cant find them mature!!! did they mean : thickheaded to be? so we are why asking for it! isnt being mature is to have a wide heart and the heart to to look forward and to join kids to make them happy to fulfill their dreams and to wash the tired hearts to laugh and refresh!! ...jeeup! and draw the art of innocent laugh! not the steam of lairs!!! seriously when do we not play???
even studying seriously is a game with your fate! that humorous challenge you race with! so how would you describe what they mean??? I wonder if they know it! seriously aren't they childish to think that they have matured? they don't dream I guess? they don't date?!! tell me if an old lady who makes a scarf is not playing with her fingers!!!! once there was this lady who rejected me missing her baby because she thought that I should graw up on liking babies!!!!
why did she have one when she is older than me for five years I wonder!!!! going through all the pain!!! while she has 3 other kids enough!
those mix up being mature and being kind to yourself and others! why kill the sense of humor? I am against drinking cs you wake up the next morning dead! but am not against joining games that refreshes!- bitter hearts are those that have no sweet laughs to share-! with themselves or others! I mean those who don't hope for it and are against it! not those who lose it but want it dearly!
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Posted by LilSoul
on 2008-06-02 08:34:56
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LilSoul-..
What a yummy comment.
I love the attitude.
I agree with you on all levels.
Maturity?
I think they wanted me to act stuffy and yuppyish, which I could never pull off for very long.
The comments only made me want to be more childish, so it ends up, blessing me, instead of an insulting curse.
I really like how you think.
Interesting mind you have.
Love&Ligt always...
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Posted by DifficultSoul
on 2008-06-02 17:38:51
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This reminds me of when i was at school, in assembally every morning, forced to be quiet and serious, always brought out the silly giggles, and i am still like that now, the more serous and straight i am asked to be the more i feel the childish part of me boiling up inside,like when i tell my neice that she mustn't laugh or smile and she can't control herself! he he
Some people were born mature and straight, while others, like me and you, were born to be silly, i look at those older than me now and wonder is it only me who feels like i haven't grown up? all lifes crap makes us responsable and can weigh us down, but doing something a little immature is better than any antidepressant in my book!
A laugh a day keeps the doctor away!
and as my dad always says, Don't let the bastards grind you down!
great post honey x
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Posted by missmarie
on 2008-06-03 08:38:47
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DS, it's summer time! let's go shopping for squirt guns and water ballons!!! never grow up, keep the eternal child within alive. hehehe
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Posted by spiritualcoma
on 2008-06-03 12:49:39
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i thought growing up that we were allowed to be what we wanted, to do what we wanted. then to find out there are even more rules. well i for one do not like rules, i will not break them or cause hurt for anyone. but when it comes to my happiness, i will stay child like in my heart, and play until i am worn out. :)
there is nothing wrong with being who you are, wanting to have fun. It makes you free spirited, and those "yuppies" are jealous. so now that coma has the water guns and balloons, who wants to go on the swings with me? :p
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Posted by pixierose
on 2008-06-03 18:50:14
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missmarie-..
I had my final lesson on ignoring old hateful bastards.
hehe.
I get off on cuss words for some reason.
I feel so rebellious when I use them.
I love that you were born silly, like me.
I think we will then, die, silly.
You think?
Love you Miss Z.
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Posted by DifficultSoul
on 2008-06-03 18:53:48
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spiritualcoma-..
Can I get a super soaker?
You have to live with the pistol.
Only one super soaker per war.
Girls need more of an advantage.
That does sound fun.
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Posted by DifficultSoul
on 2008-06-03 18:56:46
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pixierose-...
I break all the rules too, then make up new ones.
It works for me.
Love & Light
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Posted by DifficultSoul
on 2008-06-03 18:58:11
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DouglasMB-...Be careful what you commit to.
I just may need cheering up, everyday, could you handle that?
Kidding.
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Posted by DifficultSoul
on 2008-06-03 18:59:25
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Beautiful post, DS!! I'm up for the swings, pixie...race you there!! :)
I remember, few months back, i went to a playground with two of my best friends. And we played on the swings and the sea-saws, and the merry-go-rounds, racing each other up and down...it was soooo much fun! all the kids watched us like we'd lost it, but we had the most amazing time!! Coma, lets have a water balloon fight!!!
Awesome post, difficult soul!!
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Posted by angelwings
on 2008-06-04 01:56:23
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I agree DS I never want to grow up, who says we have to? My Granny never grew up and she always had fun. She laid down for a nap one day @ 92 and never woke up. What a way to go, she died and never had to grow up!
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Posted by trevorjohn
on 2008-06-04 09:37:22
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Oh by the way, we were going to meet at the playground a while back to beet someone up, remember?
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Posted by trevorjohn
on 2008-06-04 09:38:48
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wow great post and love the song
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Posted by lostarm
on 2008-06-05 19:18:08
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angelwings-..
Great comment.
Makes me wish for this rainy cold weather to go away, and feel summer on my face!
I'm in on the waterballoon fight!!
Peace
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Posted by DifficultSoul
on 2008-06-05 19:22:09
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trevorjohn-..The comment about your Granny was touching, made my spirit leap.
I have missed you girl.
We really need to visit around like we used to.
You made my day today, seeing you here.
All Love and Light.
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Posted by DifficultSoul
on 2008-06-05 19:24:00
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lostarm-..Michael Jackson has been rocking my spiritual soul, since being a very young 13 year old.
His music is ageless.
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Posted by DifficultSoul
on 2008-06-05 19:25:18
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Pixie-...Yes I will meet you at the swings...!!
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Posted by DifficultSoul
on 2008-06-06 14:59:52
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