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Life's Meaning
Emotions....all of them...are necessary.

All of life's happenings are necessary.

We live to learn.

Jealousy....whether we have it shot at us....or we shoot it at another.....eventually causes us to admire.

Hate....teaches us to Love.

Tears of pain.....rains down a shower that makes us long for joy.

Anger pushes us around like a bully....and makes us long for happiness.

Self-pity......takes us down a pitiful road...and at the end of it....is a banner of Self- Love.

We all want to escape the bad things in life...that is a wasted mind set.

We tend to reject and wish for the hard feelings in our emotional makeup to end....or never wanting to experience them at all.

That kind of thinking comes from a naive state of mind....for in all things...our character is being completed.

Without the hard times in life....the good times in life would have no meaning at all.

Our spirits are designed to be formed....as tools are formed in the heat of fire.

The hard things in life.....is the fire that we must go through...to form an evened out and completed character.

Some of the darkest times in my life were filled with anger, bitterness, betrayal, jealousy, self-pity, and feelings of giving up on life, because I thought I could just not take anymore of the pain.

Just when I thought all hope was gone....those hard emotions that I was feeling...and other people were projecting upon me....caused my spirit to birth a Godly Anger...and I fought back.

I fought back with all of their opposites.

I tried the route with paybacks first, of course, we all tend to want to repay evil with evil....and I surely did some of that.

It was only when I started paying back those hurtful emotions....to myself and to others....paying back evil with good....is when I truly formed a character that I can be proud of.

I would not be who I am today without all of that pain.

If I lived a life of all flowers, joy, and Dr. Feelgood emotions...I would have no substance or depth to my soul.

Those hard times have given me compassion and understanding for others who face them.

It has given me knowledge and stamina to encourage others to keep wading through those dark thoughts and feelings....because surely at the end of that dark road....is a bright and glorious light.

A light of self discovery.

A light that teaches us that....this is what life is all about.

Life is beautiful in all things....it is just that when we are blinded by darkness....we cannot see that truth.

I am here holding a lantern in front of you....to light that dark road you may be on.

I walked that road...I am still walking that road...up ahead you will find your own lantern.

Until you find your own light....I have come back to share the glow of my own.

Our births and our deaths even have meaning.

We were born to die.

We die to be born again.

All things have a purpose.




Posted by DifficultSoul on 2007-12-16 09:43:19 | Rating: | Views: 303


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Posted by
tonyrayhutchison
on 2007-12-16 10:18:21
 
Good post DS, I've had to read it a couple times, but I think I'm getting it.
 
 

Posted by
Hollis
on 2007-12-16 12:24:41
 
There you go again saying the things I have felt for so long and tried to put into words,but they don't come out right. Thank you for helping us all think about things on a different level. You are such a blessing.
 
 

Posted by
missmarie
on 2007-12-16 12:33:38
 
when someone is in that state of pain and self pity, it can be very hard to get through to them that there is a light waiting at the end of the tunnel, it takes a very strong person to be strong enough to fight someone elses demons, you can be pushed away time after time, you may take the blame for a part of the pain, but in the end, when that person see's the light and see's that there can be a life after pain, then the realisation of truth is rewarded to you, and gratitide is never nessesary, just seeing someone who was so close to the brink who can now stand up and say, i am ok, i am somebody and i will not give up, is more than enough reward for being a friend and a guiding light,
Ds, i have seen you be that light for so many, i have seen you take the blame and be pushed away, but i have also seen the rewards you recieved for not giving up on those you have helped, even when it becomes a long hard journey, and you may feel like giving up yourself, you never do, i know you have never given up on anyone, even though you have your own pain to deal with.
i am so very proud of you, and yes a little jelous that you have so much strength for others and for yourself
bless you DS you are a living saint xx
 
 

Posted by
ReD_MooN
on 2007-12-16 17:37:00
 
wow...
 
 

Posted by
ReD_MooN
on 2007-12-16 17:40:32
 
Ok, sorry. I had to read that three more times before I could say anything.
I should be used to this feling by now, but for some reason I am still shocked when I read your writing.
I'm sorry. I can't put this into words.
I feel this intense closeness and bond with you that i can not possibly understand, never mind put it into words.
Thank you so much. All love always.
Your soul is amazing. I'm a changed spirit because of you.
 
 

Posted by
Forgetmeknot
on 2007-12-16 18:19:10
 
Very nice post DS!! It's an important thing to remember that everything has a purpose.
 
 

Posted by
rrd333
on 2007-12-16 19:46:02
 
this is a wonderful thing to read. thankyou
 
 

Posted by
ladiegodiva
on 2007-12-17 02:06:57
 
Excellent message. Really very good and it carries a lot of punch.
 
 

Posted by
alwadghani
on 2007-12-17 03:12:52
 
very nice
iam glad that you find your own light
i hope i will find mine
 
 

Posted by
memanny
on 2007-12-17 04:14:07
 
i was taught that life is a circle all that we have done since birth will go with us until we cross over good and bad
light and darkness
grandpa used to say:Don't too much hay in the wagon
thank the creator not only for the roses but
also for the thorns.
 
 

Posted by
memanny
on 2007-12-17 04:15:23
 
dont'put
i left this out in last post
 
 

Posted by
Pauligan
on 2007-12-17 08:00:04
 
The road never ends and it's nice that we can share this journey with a lantern holder such as yourself, LftH. This is one powerful post that will touch many and will shock a few out of the downward spiral of self pity. xx
 
 

Posted by
bubblydi
on 2007-12-17 09:11:13
 
You held my lantern for so long.
Your lantern gave me the light to find my own lantern.
Thanks DS.
I owe you.xx
 
 

Posted by
DifficultSoul
on 2007-12-17 10:22:41
 
BubblyDiane-..
You owe me nothing. I seem to recall you coming to my rescue several times when my lantern was very low on oil.
I seem to recall you taking some of that holy oil, and pouring it into my lantern.
So, we are even my dear Diane.
I love you.
 
 

Posted by
DifficultSoul
on 2007-12-17 10:51:34
 
scarboroughfair-...
I was thinking of you and me when I wrote this.
You have one of the saddest childhood stories that I have read.
Look how you have turned out.
Some of the loveliest people I know, have been through hell on earth.
Your pain has made you a compassionate and caring man.
I admire you greatly for turning your pain into beauty.
 
 

Posted by
DifficultSoul
on 2007-12-17 11:43:03
 
Paul-...
The road never ends and it's nice that we can share this journey with a lantern holder such as yourself, LftH.

What about you Mr. Light of My Life?
Your lantern is what guided me out of that sea of self pity.
If you want to give me any credit at all, you must first accept some credit of your own.
I love you Paul!
 
 

Posted by
DifficultSoul
on 2007-12-17 11:53:54
 
memanny-..
I have missed you!
I got your instant message this morning.
I have a habit of leaving my computer running...it may appear I am on line...but actually sometimes I am off in the house on an escapade. I was not ignoring you friend.

Your grandpa was a wise man.
A rose would not be complete without the thorns.
The circle of life...keeps us in balance.
You my friend have very special meaning to me, your native heart matches mine.
You are in my family circle of friends, not only in spirit, but in blood.
Peace to you my wise brother.
 
 

Posted by
DifficultSoul
on 2007-12-17 11:55:22
 
alwadghani-..
You will surely find your light if you seek it.
Seek and you shall find.
Thank you for the comment.
Peace to you.
 
 

Posted by
DifficultSoul
on 2007-12-17 12:01:26
 
ladiegodiva-..
Thank you.
I am glad you enjoyed it.
Not everyone likes my punches.
It shows that you are a strong one to admire it.
I came to see you last night.
The chocolate store LadyGodiva's Chocolate...reminded me of you.
It made me think of your lovely comment you left me on one of my photos.
I said this similarily in your journal, but I want to say it again...that one nice word you left has stuck with me.
You just have never left me a comment before, so I did not know if you wanted a friendship.
I am glad to see you here.
I hope we can become good friends.
Peace.
 
 

Posted by
DifficultSoul
on 2007-12-17 12:04:17
 
rrd333-...
Thank you, and you are welcome.
Best wishes for you.
I will have to come and check out your journal.
Peace.
 
 

Posted by
DifficultSoul
on 2007-12-17 12:05:58
 
Forgetmeknot-...
Good morning Mrs. Namaste.
I love to see you here.
It is important to remember that all things have a purpose.
It gives life meaning.
Peace to you today sweet girl.
 
 

Posted by
DifficultSoul
on 2007-12-17 12:39:57
 
ReD MooN-...
I think what you are feeling is a mutual love and respect between us.
I admire and respect you as much as you do me.
Loving someone...is a divine connection.
I understand completely what you are trying to say.
I feel the same toward you.
Peace my sweet girl.
 
 

Posted by
DifficultSoul
on 2007-12-17 13:12:41
 
MissMarie-..
I understand what you are saying.
I have been rejected for what I do, many times.
I do not get hurt like you might think I do.
I understand what it feels like to be in a sea of self pity.
When we are in that state, we are touchy, we take everything personally,and we are easily offended.
I take that into consideration while I do what I do.
I do not hurt because I know that it is a symptom of the condition they are in. I know that I am not responsible for someone else's thought life.
I deal with that kind of rejection like this. I try 3 times, if on the third time they reject what I have to offer them, I step back, leave them alone, and sincerely pray for them.
Never do I hate them or judge them, for I have been in that same position.
You called me a Saint!!
I love you.
In my days of wanting to be a Nun, I so wanted to be called a SAINT!
You putting that into writing has made my dreams come true.
My dream is to be remembered for my faith in God.
I will never forget you for that.
I love you Marie.
Your comments fill me with so much good emotion.
Your love alone makes up for all the rejection I face.
That word Saint...made up for all of it.
You not only made my day with that word Saint...you made my whole life.
I love you.
 
 

Posted by
DifficultSoul
on 2007-12-17 14:19:11
 
Hollis-...
I think about life constantly, and I feel compelled to write down what I am thinking about.
I am glad that it makes sense and is able to bless you.
Thank you for the lovely comment.
 
 

Posted by
DifficultSoul
on 2007-12-17 14:21:25
 
tonyrayhutchison-..
I have read it a couple of times myself.
It took alot more than that for me to get it.
It took living it, to get it for me.
Thanks for commenting.
Peace.
 
 

Posted by
scotslad60
on 2007-12-17 15:52:11
 
They all said it before me DS! I can only add that you are not carrying a light - you ARE the light and there are many following you through your words, wise woman.

Namaste.
 
 

Posted by
tystikal
on 2007-12-17 22:26:45
 
Hey D.s. ....thats it i dont really have anything worthwhile but hello to say.
 
 

Posted by
DifficultSoul
on 2007-12-17 23:21:35
 
Scotslad-..
Mr. Namaste.
I have missed your presence gracing my page!
I learn from the best...and as I told you...I have learned much from stalking you in the forums.
Peace my friend.
 
 

Posted by
DifficultSoul
on 2007-12-17 23:24:15
 
tystikal-..
Ahhh.
A greeting of hello is very worthwhile.
It was your way of letting me know that you were here and thinking about me.
That is very worthwhile my friend.
It means everything to me when my friends care.
Thank you.
 
 

Posted by
Pauligan
on 2007-12-18 00:12:12
 
You once told me that i lit a torch in you with a blog of mine about masks and shields. We have been supportive friends to each other since forever and we inspire each other constantly. Have I left anything out...oh yeah...I love you too.
 
 

Posted by
benventure
on 2007-12-18 00:54:21
 
of coarse the moon comes first then comes the sun.
i remember when i first saw my first bird
i wondered where it went when the moon shown
so i asked it
it said somthing about dreaming the word's he'd held back...why? because the night disguises his dreams.
i like this post DS
because who are we if were just one thing?

 
 

Posted by
DifficultSoul
on 2007-12-18 11:14:30
 
Paul-..
I remember that, I was so used to hiding behind a phony facade.
You have inspired me to truly walk in freedom in being myself.
That entry taught me to quit hiding.
I live that entry now.
I love you too.
 
 

Posted by
DifficultSoul
on 2007-12-18 11:16:20
 
Ben-...
'it said somthing about dreaming the word's he'd held back...why? because the night disguises his dreams'

This struck me.
Most of my blogs, are describing a combination of my dreams.
I keep a dream diary of all my most striking dreams.
That phrase just hit me Ben.

 
 

Posted by
gurumoorthy
on 2007-12-20 05:54:45
 
I was about to start a topic almost similar to this .It was to be titled " Soul Aching " , But this piece is positive and kudos!
 
 

Posted by
trevorjohn
on 2007-12-20 14:54:39
 
As always Difficultsoul you write as tho those words should be coming right out of my very own soul. I am trying to remember where and where we were together was it in this life or was it in another? I feel the connection with you so powerful, it almost overwhelms me at times.
Like I always say..... Thank-you for being you! I love you!
 
 

Posted by
DifficultSoul
on 2007-12-21 01:49:12
 
gurumoorthy-..
Soul Aching sounds like a wonderful title.
I would encourage you to start and finish it.
Thank you for the kudos.
Peace.
 
 

Posted by
DifficultSoul
on 2007-12-21 01:51:03
 
treveorjohn-..
We have always been together.
We are one creation.
That is my whole point of being here, to unite as as one heart, and make us realize we are one creation.
Peace.
 
 


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