DifficultSoul

Philosophy Metaphysics~ Sexual Evolution

2009-10-01T23:45:12-04:00

'Candid Eyes

2009-09-28T18:05:02-04:00

Concepts, visions, ideas, call them what you like
I like to call them visions only because that is a better
looking 'word.
Well, this vision has been in my mind for days now, I am
going to try to express it here, for you, for all of us.

In this vision, I see myself here, on the screen before you,
knowing full well that more people watch the internet now, more
than regular tv.

We are in fact in an era where we can put ourselves on the new
wave of tv...the internet.

Here at Thoughts.com~ 'I have the ability to publish my own writings,
videos of my personality if I wish, and post pictures of myself.

It has all been handed to me free of charge.

I have a stage, like I have been praying for!

I have always wanted to be a preacher, like Billy Graham, since I
was three years old.

Now, God has given me my own 'Station'

In my mind, this 'BLOG' is my 'tv, show if you will...think about it??

AND..we all thought we had a "Secret Blog", no, ...You are on candid camera!!
hahaha!
Really, step out of the box for one second and grab my concept...

We all have the power, to be STARS...on tv.
hehe.
What do you think about that?

From now on my lovely people...when I visit your BLOG, or your ROOM'...
I am expecting a good show.

Smile, you are on candid camera..`Philosophy

Share your dreams...

I will be watching!

Catch My Dream...Dream Catchers

Thank you Thoughts.com!!

One 'Love

My Cross, My Madonna

2009-09-24T14:50:39-04:00

I really loved this, I borrowed it from Crimson Read's blog.
Thank You Dear!
It is a dedication to my faith and my idol, Madonna.
Enjoy it..it is powerful.

~Heaven and Hell dwell in the Mind~

it is finished

Hotel ~Thoughts.com

2009-09-24T11:22:15-04:00

I was lost and wandering
And, I came upon a wonderous place...
A mansion with no walls..yet, it had
many rooms, enough for everyone.
I was free to stay, at no charge, offered
my very own room.
During the night I would roam the halls and
peek in everyone's room while they were away.
In each room, I found a diary, journals filled with
secrets, stories, poems, prose, and everything else
under the sun.
I also got to see some photos of who lived there, some
decorated their rooms with things that revealed their
personality.
Sometimes, they even left the radio on, to share the
songs that they love.
I feel like a ghost roaming through these 'Great Halls'
of Thoughts.com.
No one can see me, but they feel my presence.
Many come to my room as well, and I let them roam freely
in my mind, sharing my life, with the family you have all
become to me.
We are all here at Thoughts, checked in, never to check out.
For even when we click off our computers, we still leave our
forever' rooms open, to everyone.
So when you come to visit me, know that I live here in spirit,
this place is an annointed home, that houses my deepest
'soul secrets'
I will always leave my room here open, forever welcoming anyone
lonely or afraid.
Come in and read the words I left and find comfort in knowing,
that I too, love to come to your door to leave you 'Love
My family...
My Home..
I have been blessed with both, here at Thoughts.com.
I honor this spiritual house, that we are allowed to dwell in.
I could never check out or leave, because even when I do, my 'words'
are a part of me that I leave here for those I love.
My Words are the expression of my soul.
My mind is my soul..
Words never fade or disappear, you can take them with you,
to comfort you when you are out in the cold world.
May we all find comfort in each other, my wonderful, my beautiful
Thoughts' Family
I Love You

She Whispered Mind Control

2009-09-12T23:40:54-04:00

pain

joy

happiness

hate

love

fear

pride

courage

hope

~some of life's emotions~

All emotions were meant to be experienced,
but not all at the same time...

Anxiety is created in our minds when we let ourselves
feel too many emotions at once.

Sooner or later, we have to learn to choose between
the emotions that we feel...in order to have stability in thought.

We become double minded when we choose not to deal with our feelings.

Double minded, in being that we become so that we can never make up our minds,
in as much as it ends up making us completely paralyzed in life...so we feel
fear in everything we do, and end up doing nothing.

I call it the "evil foreboding"...a feeling of constant..'fear of trouble.

Our feelings are not always reliable.

We (especially women) can change our minds quite
often.

In fact, we can feel many different ways within an hour,
about the very same subject.

We cannot rely on our feelings..they lead us to lose
some of our control.

If only we could really tap into the power of our minds.

We were created to live inside of our heads...a world within ourselves.

That is reality~ for all of us..inside of our own minds do we exist.

We all have a slightly different view on life, the world may
not be as it seems to me... as it appears to you.

Our experiences, our memories, what we have learned, what we
believe, all shapes the view of the world in each one of our minds.
In each one of us, there is a unique view that we take on.
It is what makes us individuals...makes us the same but, yet so very different.

That is why I respect everyone's opinion, even if I do not agree, because, I
am aware that we are supposed to learn from each other.

We all have a unique opinion on every subject..and that is what makes life
so very interesting.

The 'mind', is the 'soul' of our human nature.

It is where our character is formed, and it is where our personalites
are housed.

My words now that I type, reveal my personality, my character, and
my belief...they reveal me.

I like to call writing, silent talking~

Leaving myself mental notes...on how to be...'ok

Yet, so many take our written word for granted.

I have come to know many of you very well through your words.

You have let me read your thoughts.

Very interesting, our emotions, then become words..don't they?

Our thoughts, our emotions, are all expressed through the written word.

Even God revealed himself through the 'Word.

So, welcome to my thoughts and emotions, a clue to my character, a revealing
of myself, if you will.

Emotions
Feelings
Thoughts
they all melt together..
to let us feel the feeling God himself has, for we are created in his image~

Let us put our minds on good things, lovely things, things that uplift...

Or we can sit around and let all of the emotions torture us, and make us confused.

Taking mental inventory is a wise practice.

Take interest in your thought life..

When you feel anxiety..stop and make a note about what you were thinking about..

Our thoughts, our emotions, create our moods...

God what have I been thinking about...I have been an emotional mess for some time?!

hehe..
Really, I stopped and said that to myself...

I have found the secret to being content!!

The secret: Mind Control..hehe, I just felt like a mad scientist (silly smile).

Seriously though, we can control our minds, or we can let it control us.

Hmmm..

Mind Control

I am getting very sleepy...so are you.

Think on that.

Make Up Your Mind

2009-08-25T13:27:31-04:00

To be free

I wasted so many days..in worry that had no benefit

I wasted so many days...in anger and unforgiveness

I wasted so many days...reliving the haunted past

I wasted so many days...breathing in stale air

I wasted so many days...in worthless thinking

I wasted so many days...

I found that my mind is a very powerful influence over my own life

It is so very important to take inventory of our thought life

We can literally think ourselves into a living hell...

I spent so many days...trying to be happy

When all along...happiness was a state of mind

It is a daily choice when we open our eyes..

We really do choose how we will feel for the day

To manipulate our own minds...is to finally have control of life

Life...exists in our heads

Maybe it took me being out of my head...to be able to stand back..and
see my big picture

Depression really does manifest in our minds...

It is conjured up by our thought life..

Life changed for me...

When I learned to control my own thought life...

I finally took my own advice

Ugly Jealous Faces

2009-08-14T18:58:27-04:00

Prelude to a Kiss:

I ask myself, why so long?
Why did I take so long to see
myself through your eyes?
Why did it take YOU so long to see me...in my eyes?
The years so wasted...in misunderstanding
The tears, warm and salty, I
saw your heart
I was so bitter
So unforgiving
So proud
So cold
I judged you the way I judge
myself
Harshly
Can you finally believe in me?

A jealous kiss:
I hate jealousy
It is ugly on who wears it
I have lived a tormented life
because of jealousy..
Having the one I love to never to
believe in me
I am by nature a flirt and a preacher
I flirt with men, women, children,
butterflies, kittens and puppies..
Always.. suspicion in the way I love
people...
I love people in agape love..in a God type love..

I hate jealousy..
Love is to be shared with everyone...

I love to have friends...

You have made me jealous with your jealousy...

It is in my character to nurture and share some kind of light with all people...

You misjudged me over and over again..

I write here in my diary with a higher purpose.

I am not here to be popular...

I am not here to be romanced...

I am not here to hurt anyone...

I am here because, my purpose in life is to write..

It is to befriend people...

It is to show agape love....real love

Jealousy is wrong..

It is evil

It kills trust

It makes us believe the worst in each other

It is rotten company

The jealous kisses have hurt me...

The jealous embraces were hard...and cold

They almost chased me away...

I will not be on trial for life...to prove my love

No wonder scripture says that..men can stand against anger,
mire, tragedy, but NO MAN can stand against jealousy..

I want a gentle and trusting kiss..

I want to see trust in your eyes..

I want my character to not be questioned on a daily basis...

Read my mind...read my heart...know me for once..

There is no reason not to be sincere...

I have nothing to hide but the shame...that jealousy puts upon another
person...

One sure way to lose a man or a woman's respect, love, and trust...
Is to constantly be jealous and untrusting of them...
This wicked emotion almost destroyed the best relationship of my life...
It almost stole my family from me...

Take your jealousy and bury it..
It is ugly...
to all who let that emotion rule their hearts...
Take it and bury it...
It makes you oh so very UGLY.

Relationship Tip:
If your love has a problem with jealousy...give them all of your passwords...hehe.
It saved me a lot of trials..
A password to my heart...

How To Lose a Woman's Love

2009-08-11T02:07:46-04:00

This is a letter to all of the men in the world...
I am writing to let you know how to get rid of a woman for good...
Or in other words...I will tell you how you may lose someone you may
end up loving..
You know how I love lists:

~Call another woman baby..
~Dismiss her for another woman's company
~Lie to her
~Have sex with another woman
~Have other close personal relationships with the oppposite sex
~Be a rude jerk and only think about yourself
~Hound her with the past night and day
~Talk to other women on the internet before bed
~Stifle her way of expression
~Tell her you will never understand her
~Make sure you let her know things just to make her jealous
~Tell her how much you like some other woman

I could go on and on with this list....but these are some of my personal
favorites that I see happening in this insane world of so called 'Love
Yes, I may sound a bit jaded, only because I am...
Yet, I have to believe that there is one man out there that is not so stupid
After someone could do some of my list...how do you expect a woman to love you?
So if you're in need for some advice on getting a date...
Keep in mind...that once you meet someone...
You never know how you may feel about them tomorrow
Tomorrow might be too late to be sorry
Some things just cannot be forgotten
Once you jade a woman...there is no turning back...
So all of you lonely men who wonder why it is so hard to earn a
woman's trust...just know...you deserve it
No amount of apologies, no amount of regret...can heal
a broken heart
Maybe I just want to point out that we should start thinking
before we speak or act

Still, I believe in true love
A faithful love
A Love that willl make US 'faithful
I have not witnessed it yet...
But...I will experience it one day...
Isn't that what we are all living for anyway?
To love and to be loved?

I'm It~

2009-08-01T15:31:56-04:00

Starryskye has asked me to join a game called 'Tagged.
So I have been 'tagged, meaning I have to reveal five things
about myself, and then pick five others to do the same.
So here goes:

~I listen to music everyday, it brightens my soul.

~I like to sit back and watch life, rather than participate...
I am an avid people watcher.

~Color is magic to me...I love to mix paint for the canvas...I see
color when I look at the world, it stands out to me.

~I find life, even the tragic parts, kind of humorous in a way, we all
know the ending to every story...
I kind of have a sick sense of humor.

~I have found that the most important thing in life is ...people.
It is all about relationships...
We were born to be loved and to love in return.

There are some facts about me...now I must tag five others.
I choose:
badlydrawnstickman'
samais'
ColoradoDreamin'
smilinirisheyes'
Pauligan'

The Mirror Talks Back

2009-07-28T14:29:47-04:00

Welcome to my mind
Do you hear the music?
A place where I live out my life
A place I get lost in song..
There are mirrors here, everywhere I see
myself...I watch myself move, talk, and walk
Sometimes I do not want to see what may
be staring back at me
The countenance upon my face gives
away my emotions
Emotions that I sometimes do not
want to feel
I have tried to escape this place,
but I am caged here until my body perishes
Maybe like a bird that never got to fly free...
That is how I feel inside..
Like a caged bird
With the wings clipped, never to soar
the skies free and clear
That is how my body feels...like a cage
for my spirit
Am I the only one who can feel their body?
The weight of it..the total idea that it is just
a shell of a place where we house our spirits...
I feel so different here in the solace of my mind...compared
to the way I feel when I let out my emotions
No wonder we all act so shy and protected in public
It is really a scary thing sometimes to be vulnerable
and to let people into our lives
By into our lives I mean, how much we really let someone else
into our psyche, into the way we think, or really feel
So many phony faces we carry
So many disguises of well to do...and actually, none of us
have this silly world figured out
I just know if I had a say in how life went, this world
would be a very different place
It would be a world where I would never have to miss my
smile again
Have you ever missed your own smile?
I have and now I practice in the mirror (wink)
So, lately that is what I have been doing inside
of my head...in front of all of those mirrors
Perfecting a sincere smile

The Scent of Life

2009-07-16T18:06:40-04:00

Flowers we are
To be picked in the valley
Blowing in the wind, able to
water and sun ourselves
With a rainbow comes a new bud
A petal that will only be beautiful
for a short time
They wither and die..but each season
the wild flowers rebloom...a new life
I have lived many lives of that flower
in the field.
A flower with a body of a woman.
The beautiful face set into the petals
Short is the season, it is sorrowful
to see one of the lovely flowers not being
admired and set into a lovely vase.
The only life to live was to be blown in the
wind and a gift of an aromatic scent.
Pick a flower for me...bring it to my door
I will admire it and notice its short and
gifted life.
Do not forget to touch the petals to feel the
silkiness of its skin, not one flower overlooked
in the field.
Capture them all for me
For all of us to fill one elegant vase

To Hell With You

2009-07-03T23:48:40-04:00

We have all been taught for so long that if we do not please God, that we will go to Hell.

God has no hand in Hell....we do.

Hell has been portrayed as a pit of flames that will consume us for eternity.

Scripture is Philosophy, it is symbolism to the highest degree.

It is there to help us figure out what swirls around in our minds at certain points in our lives.

We all come to a point that we start to question our existence.

I do not care who you are, there will come a time, when you ask yourself....

Why am I here?

What is the meaning of this life I live?

Hell is unbelief.

Unbelief in a Loving Creator.

Unbelief in Love.

Unbelief in self worth.

Unbelief in forgiveness.

Unbelief in our having a purpose in life.

Unbelief in hope.

Unbelief in thinking thoughts that lead our minds into peace.

Whether you believe in God and afterlife or not, makes no difference in it being true.

Nothing or no untrusting thoughts can change the truth.

Unbelief in God...who I believe to be Love...does not change the fact that God exists.

When we pass from this state of being...that we call life....and pass into death....we will only take with us....what we believe.

I repeat over and over, You Become What You THINK.

If you never remember anything I ever said, remember that.

In this life, and after you enter death's door, you will be what you think, your existence will be what you think.

If you set your mind to believe that you will just die and be buried in the dirt, you surely will be, and you will be aware of it.

It will be like you are living in insanity for the rest of eternity.

Hell is insanity....a mind full of burning insane thoughts.

We exist in our minds, and we always will.

Our minds will become one with our souls when we fly free from our fleshly coverings.

Our minds will be able to comprehend things that they cannot understand now.

If we fill our minds with hate, self pity (self absorption), anger, envy, murder, gossip, malice, and pettiness, and any other self destructive mindset you can think of, you will become a combination of all of it.

A combination of Ungodly or Unlovely things, is what creates insanity, or Hell, we can live in Hell on this earth while we are alive!

If you set your mind to all of those things, you will become all of those things, and you will surely create insanity, or HELL in your own mind.

Heaven is also in your mind.

I spoke once of our creativity, the God given creativity given to all of us.

We will create our own destinies, and even though our creativity is limited now, it will not always be that way.

Heaven and Hell hold the keys to the unleashing of all of our creative abilities.

In death, we will create with our creativity, our own eternal destiny.

The purpose of this life, is to find out what we will be working with in eternity.

Just as an artist chooses the substance which he will work with upon his canvas.

Will you choose bright vibrant colors, to paint upon your canvas?

Or will you have to take from the supply of insane thoughts to create your destiny painting?

I already chose my colors.

I chose the Color of Love.

Looking Through Stainedglass

2009-06-01T11:00:37-04:00

Speed- making all scenery a blur....., full of so much emotion.

The winding road led me to a tiny church, with a huge bell, sitting right at the edge of the ocean.

It was deserted, but the back door was left open, just for me.

I went there to cry, and to forget you.

To forever erase your memory from mine.

The best sermon I heard in my life, came from my own mouth, in the pulpit of that quaint mystical place.

My voice echoed from the high vaulted ceiling above me.

The encore came as I stood in front of the majestic doors, and breathed in the ocean.

Felt as if I was breathing in life itself.

I played there in that tiny church,....

played the piano

sang

lit several candles

read deep scriptures from the "fancy holy book"....in a distinguished strong voice...

Pulled a few pious faces....

Even put on a priestly robe from the closet.

Anger consumed me in that place with delicate stained glass windows....

Tears ....cleansing tears were shed in sanctuary.

Alone, secluded, in such a seemingly holy place.....

"Sneaking into buildings used to be a favorite thing to do as a 10, 11, and 12 year old.

Never to vandalize, only to explore....there always seems to be a door left unlocked, if you look for it."

First and only time as an adult, to attempt my sneaky ways.

Then....night falls,...I sit in a lonely pew...seeking an invisible God.

I half hoped he was hiding in that lil' haunted church....

A thought imprinted itself in my mind like a tattoo....

"You are the Church"

My bell rings constantly in this church- that I found within myself- that day.

ding ding...(grin)

Sitting on that pew, I was dealing with accepting, that everyone I had ever loved, had hurt me.

To cry pitiful tears....

River of Tears overtook me...mmm.

Life is really more than who we are....and how we feel.

I learned to stop being a soft hearted baby that day.

Feeling sorry for myself never changed anything.

It only left me wasted - drowning in empty days.

Days that I emptied myself....

Void of Life....

Self pity...

Wasting away on better things lately.

Leaving my "fantasy priesthood" in that tiny church....driving away was a hard thing to do.

I turned around more than once.

It was like being drug into the house by mother as a child, kicking and screaming, wanting so badly to stay out and play....

I took something with me though....

a secret place....with stained glass windows

A place where secrets to life lay hidden, and we find jewels of wisdom if we seek them.

I found that life is not all about me.

not about me?

A day to memorialize in my memory...the day that I learned....

Life is not all about me, and being self-centered has made me miss out on the real experience of life.

A new level of emotional freedom.

To discover, that I was not created to live alone and isolated, with 'feel sorry for me' thoughts.

Out of fear of being hurt, we retreat into self.

Not letting ourselves care about anyone, so we never have to be vulnerable.

Vulnerable looks like the word pain to me.

I once thought it better- to never have loved at all...than to have lost a love.

What a lie...even the painful memories of the ones I have loved, are better than no memories at all.

I seem to recall only the good memories anyway.

To live all of life as it is sacred.

Not just sacred in our church buildings and ceremonies.

No...like breathing that ocean air in while standing in the arch of that doorway....

The air I took into my lungs was sacred....

The scene of the ocean flooding toward me, was holy scenery.

Singing that song in that echoing church, had nothing to do with religion, yet it was holy.

Holy

Holy means- sacred, awe inspiring, deserves respect, spiritually pure.

A kind word is holy.

Making love is holy.

Sharing a smile is holy.

Watching children play is holy.

Picking wild flowers is holy.

The lesson in the Lil' Church on the Ocean....?

All of Life is Sacred

I Need Answers

2009-05-25T22:48:56-04:00

What are we waiting for?
When does life get to start?
Who can answer those questions?

Dream Sequence

2009-05-23T00:34:41-04:00

I see a road before me, yet my car is not moving.
I am stuck in this city....
The New City erected from ashes...
I live in that new city, satisfied and awed in a way.
I see so much potential for all of my dreams to lay before me.
I have found that time no longer holds me down.
Today and now is all I have, in every breath I breathe in.
I float away in the clouds...all while messing them up, making figures
in the clouds.
My dream, I can fly, I never sleep, I ruled this city, a fortress of righteousness.
I spoke through satellites to the nations.
Dreams
I spoke in every language under the sun all running together.
Calling out the end times...
Calling out the righteous and the wicked.
I flew as a bird above this city..
I also was hooked onto a cross in just a loin cloth...
The sky obeyed me in this dream.
Oh to have an apple tree, and one to sit under it with me,
hearing all of my dreams whispered in the ear.
Someone to talk about forever with.
Who could understand or accept such things, but me?
A friend
One who actually knows and trusts in you?
Why can't we be the people we wish we could find?

Be the person that changes the world.

Be the person to stand up and actually have some godly pride.
Leaders full of passion and loyalty to the law of righteousness and
justice for all of the human race.
Sit down just for a minute with me...
What else can I do with it?
Just a catharsis...a draining of thoughts.
Thoughts
Thoughts
Such awesome thoughts.
Am I dreaming, Am I awake?
My dreams are so real now, sometimes it is hard to tell the
difference.
Poetry
Prose
Thought process...
Mind games..
Mind reading..?
Sit down next to me.

Minor Adjustment

2009-05-13T18:42:54-04:00

Dream Catcher

Dream Weaver

Dream Walker

Some may ask me, why have all of your dreams come true?

My answer, because I demanded it.

Pushing self love again...

I live on a plateau that allows me to see the past and the future...

Having both crash into each other, as a tidal wave against tidal wave...

Feel sorry for me attitudes are demeaning and not so bright...

It urks me when some want pity for living life.

Sure we have all been through life's surprises....

No one deserves pity...

Pity is not honorable, rather it remarks about someone's character.

Pitiful characters are just that....'pitiful.

So many of us running to the doctors, crying around about how pitiful we are...

So many believing they have no control....

So many crippled by the rock of life that lulls us into ordinary days

I have no ordinary days....

Each day is full of emotions, visions, a pure vivid dream state -while wide awake.

There is nothing wrong with you...

We are human...

All you think and feel are ancient archetypes of the human soul...

Embrace your humanity...

If I could make everyone strong inside like I have mastered, there would be no more crime.

If I could maladjust this so very adjusted world.

Hold your face in your hands, and feel the countenence upon your palms...

There is not a dang thing wrong with any of us, when it comes to our natures.

Down with the 'Vanity of being a perfect human being....

Our natural states are the way we were supposed to be...

No heavenly mistakes....

We were created in a perfect state...

A perfectly human state.

The Magician

2009-04-02T02:13:55-04:00

The darkness we can find in the back of our minds
Literally makes us see in a different color
At times, we have no choice and the blackness
engulfs our souls
We start asking ourselves what is this all for?
Nothing makes sense in our confusion of color change
We get tired of 'Living
Once in this state of mind, I swam out into
the ocean without the thought of coming back
If it is not pain that I felt, it was hopelessness
I kept wondering, who would miss me?
The ocean would not take me though..
It spit me back to the shore..
Lying cold and wide awake..shivering in darkness
Then I awoke lying safe in my warm bed
Not in the flesh did I do this, but in my mind
My mood was as black as a cold piece of coal..
When all I wanted to feel was the fire 'red of
a hot simmering coal
Hiding away with my tired mind
Hiding away in flesh from the world around me
What could fix my mind?
Was I broken?
Was I made defective?
Nothing made sense to my weary soul
Living like a zombie...like the walking dead
Nothing could quench my thirst for light
Seeking a magic potion to make me whole
I turned into somewhat of a mad scientist..
Mixing brews and hopeful potions of healing..
Studying formula recipes to create a magic for my soul
A miracle of a sound mind
I said my spell mantras..
Unto the 'Great Physician'
Chanting words not understood
Magical words that revealed unto me
a Potion'
Science, Medical Miracles, Philosophy, and my Mantras:
I turned all of those into a substance that cast out darkness
I spent years mixing and testing my potions on myself
Until one day..I came upon a form..
A small form..one which I put upon my tongue
Then I chanted the spell, to make it potent
My hands arched unto Heaven...
Thankful...for in them..I had held..
A Miracle

A Penetrating Spell

2009-03-26T03:40:20-04:00

Born to make us believe
Born to walk through the grass with bare feet
Born to grab the stars within the palm of my hand
Born to tease the mind with dreams coming true
Born to feel the skin that my spirit is wrapped in
Born to convince...that the face within the mirror
is divine..
Born to feel the heat of the sun, and not get burned
Born to cast a spell upon the souls crying in the dark
~A spell of Light~
A light that shines out of the eyes
A day or night that never ends
An aroma of musk and jasmine, that makes the head spin
An embrace that never lets you go
A kiss that penetrates the mind...unforgettable
A promise that will surely be kept
A hope that can never die
Loving the presence of that someone you cannot forget
Loving the laughter of children
Loving the existence we have been gifted
Love for life..even in pain
Love for that spiritual dance, that spins you round
and round'
Love for the feel of that hand in yours
Love for the beauty of nature
Love for standing on the edge of the beach
taking in the roar of the ocean..breathing in
the salt air..
Making a wish in front of a wishing well and
seeing it come true
Flowers
Candy
Laughter
Making Love
Prayer in Earnest
Holding a baby in your arms
Music
Dancing..
Staring into your lover's eyes
Worship unto a Holy God
Loving who we are
Hope
Love
Life after Death
The Beginning of Forever
The end of depression
The end of hoplessness
Love is the closest thing we have to Magic..
~God bless My Magic Spell~

The Door to Our Minds

2009-03-25T09:05:28-04:00

“Human beings, by changing the inner attitudes of their
minds, can change the outer aspects of their lives.” ~ William James

Depression
Life
Laughter
Tears
Anger
Hope

Candid Words..

Hopelessness
Hate
Apathy
Death
Compassion
Contentment

More Candid Words..

Words..that can become emotions~

What kind of words do you let live
inside of your head?

Our thoughts determine our moods..

What we think about shapes our lives..

Stop and really think about what you
have been thinking about.

Sunshine
Color
Light
Darkness
Whining
Complaining

More Candid Words...

We have so much power over our psyche...
Yet, so many of us are not aware of it...
No, we would sometimes rather drown in
self pity..and to pretend that we do
not know any better.

Candy
Hugs
Kisses
Jokes

More Candid Words..

We can live in self pity and
depression if we want to...
We can live with a scowl upon
our faces...

Pity
Lethargy
Bitter
Sentimental

More Candid words..

We all have a choice to what
lives in our minds...
We do become what we think we are..

Love
Silliness
Joy
Stubborness
Ignorance

More Candid Words..

What words do you let swirl around
in your soul?

Whatever they are...we truly deserve
to have what we put our mind to.

I pity no one..
I may have compassion, but
never do I pity any human being..
Our minds are powerful..
Whatever we put our mental energy
into...we deserve to feel the emotions
of such thoughts.

Love
Hope
Faith
Belief
Satisfied

Hmmm...
I like those last candid words
the best..they are what I allow
most into my mind.

Wonder why I am so silly at times?
Wonder why I can write a hundred and
some entries about God and hope?
Wonder why I could care less about
what people think of me?

It all has to do with what I program
into my psyche.

What have you been thinking about?

Demanding A Perfect Love

2009-03-18T05:20:53-04:00

I want to be the only one who lights up your eyes...
I want to be the one you think of before you sleep...
I want to be the one you confide your deepest feelings in...
I want to be the one you fantasize about...
I want to be the one you see the future with...
I want to be the one you think about when you are lonely and unsatisfied...
I want to be the one you need to talk to about all of your important decisions..
I never want to be able to be replaced...
Now you may think that women ask for so much but give so little back...
I am here to tell you, I am not an ordinary woman...
I am very particular and sealed with the stamp of Almighty God...
I am past the point of hiding my wild' side for God...
I am very much a zealout in what I write and what I think...
I am very much accustomed to the Love of God...and his attention...
That means, you may have to work twice as hard to get my attention...
We women are flowers, in the garden of God...
Those of us who know who we are in God...are extra spoiled and a bit difficult...
Never will we settle for feeble attempts at our love...
Lilies of the Valley...call for extra attention..even though we can water ourselves...
Flowers...aromatic...and full of beauty...desire much devotion and love...
I see the women in this world, who do not know their worth, settling for mediocre love...
Never will I settle...remember...I can water myself, with love, adoration, and attention...
I want to be the one and only...the most beautiful, the most precious in your eyes...
Poor poor women who know not the love of God...let me tell you...
I would rather be alone, than with someone who shares their Love with someone other than me...
I find this site so disturbing in many respects...
Married people...giving the love to another...that should be saved for their loved ones...
What a rip off...to settle for such a cheated love...
Yes, Difficult Soul is being very difficult...
Only because...I am angry by the love....so many of DO NOT get...
Phony love calls for a wayward heart...
My love clings to God...only because...so many times...my beautiful face has been betrayed...
I, in my own mind, am as beautiful as beautiful gets...
I see that in other women too..
So many beautiful women, settle for a shared love...
I never want to share my love...it makes me angry...it makes me feel cheated...
I want a man who only sees me...
Is that conceited, is that too much to ask, is that being difficult?
I think not..
God has spoiled me...
Women of the world...listen to me..
Never settle for a love that makes you feel broken inside...
It is better to be alone than with someone who breaks your spirit...
Your spirit was created to be lifted up...to be edified...to be worshiped...
Love makes us worship each other's spirit...
Never settle for the LUST of the body....wait for someone to truly love you...
We are created in the IMAGE of God...we are like him...we desire to be worshiped.