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my son was home from Loyola U for the weekend on 2007-11-30 23:05:59 |
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You are such a good mother.
This was very loving and thoughtful.
Makes me want to go right in and hug my son.
I think I will.
Peace.
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did you ever have one of those days? on 2007-11-30 23:03:51 |
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Days like that...only make the good ones even better.
Nice contrast Roe...after all the words listed for the bad day...the good day description spoke way louder even though it had fewer words.
Peace.
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everything but eternity is temporary on 2007-11-30 22:59:28 |
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I really liked this Roe.
Especially this:
nothing lasts forever
except for eternity
That is why I live life like I mean it.
Today is all we really have.
Peace.
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My Favorites (hijacked from Whitters!) on 2007-11-30 22:18:32 |
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Nice tribute to the stars.
My favorites:
Morrissey
Rick Springfield
The Goo Goo Dolls
Michael Landon
Depeche Mode
Justin Timberlake
Johnny Cash...The Man in Black
Elvis Presley
Larry Hagman..J.R. Ewing...hehe
Madonna
The Cult
Judge Judy
I could go on for a long time..but these were on the top of my head.
I like them all because they stood out to me..because I could tell that they loved who they were.
That makes anyone a star in my book.
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Short Survey for the Bored on 2007-11-30 22:12:34 |
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That was fun.
Thanks.
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Short Survey for the Bored on 2007-11-30 22:11:24 |
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What is one thing you never take for granted?
God's Love.
Is there someone who never fails to make you upset?
Yes...my older sister who wants to fight about doctrine...she always wants to convince me that my faith is wrong.
Is there someone who never fails to make you happy?
Yes....my friend BubblyDi on this site.
What place never fails to make you happy?
In front of my paint easel.
What do you indulge too much in?
Being on line...coffee...and tea.
What is your best trait?
My Faith.
What is your worst fault?
Jumping to conclusions...without all of the facts.
If there was one relationship or event you could turn back time to fix, which one would it be?
My mother's death...I had not forgiven her for leaving my daddy and me. I only had the heart to do it when it was too late.
What is your guilty pleasure?
I spoil and pamper myself far too much.
Is there someone you could trust with your darkest secret?
Yes...a bluebird who visits me daily.
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Sean Taylor, Redskins #21, shot in his home on 2007-11-30 22:01:42 |
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I read your first entry that stated he had passed away.
I am so sorry for his family.
What wickedness that exists in this world.
All over theft and greed.
How sad.
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Rest In Peace Sean Taylor on 2007-11-30 21:59:30 |
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What a senseless tragedy.
You have left a beautiful tribute to him here.
What a warm heart you have.
Rest in peace Sean.
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War Within Us on 2007-11-30 18:58:44 |
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Scarboroughfair-...
You are absolutely right.
It is raping someone's mind to ridicule them.
Look at how even the children of today are responding to that kind of mental torment...they are taking guns to school and killing their peers.
That kind of cruelty can cause someone to become a murderer....but also...the children have to take some blame.
We have all been made fun of to some extent in our lives...and we are all not murderers.
Although....ridicule could be considered emotional murder...have I ever ridiculed someone?...Yes..I am ashamed to say.
That is what I mean by fighting...we have to fight the pain and bitterness that cruelty can cause to live in our hearts.
Becoming strong in spirit can make us almost immune to any of that garbage...if we truly love ourselves...and believe in ourselves.. we could come to the point of total self love and love for others... that no amount of ridicule could break us.
Good reply...you have me thinking.
I almost wrote a book in this response to your comment.
hehe.
Peace my friend.
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War Within Us on 2007-11-30 18:38:43 |
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BubblyDiane...
It is what I always wanted to be.
Thank you.
I love you.
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War Within Us on 2007-11-30 18:37:54 |
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SpinningReflection-..
Hmmm...another beautiful heart.
Goody. I will have to come and poke around your journal.
I did not see that comment...I will have to go and see.
To have even said that about me...shows that you are too a Beautiful Soul.
Thank you.
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War Within Us on 2007-11-30 18:34:57 |
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Scotslad-...
You have proven to be a worthy Warrior yourself.
Namaste.
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War Within Us on 2007-11-30 18:33:11 |
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Sexyback-
'Be like a postage stamp. Stick to one
thing until you get there.
To the question of your life, you are the only answer.To the problems in your life, you are the only solution.'
Out of the mouth of babes...will the truth cry out!
Wisdom!
I honor your heart today beautiful girl.
Never let anyone steal your wisdom.
I read your journal today.
I was very impressed!
Such wisdom for your young age.
Peace.
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| Posted in
The Definition on 2007-11-30 17:12:14 |
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I really liked this entry.
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The Definition on 2007-11-30 17:11:54 |
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Did you book me a flight?...I am all packed!
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Love Monsters on 2007-11-30 17:10:46 |
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Red spandex!!
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The First (and only) Dating Service Date on 2007-11-30 17:09:02 |
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Paul-..
WHERE ARE YOU????...you are never home.
I drove by your house 12 times today..and you were not there.
Pick up!
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War Within Us on 2007-11-30 14:22:57 |
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Pauligan-..
They surely are.
Remember my Warrior Site?
hehe.
I am the Warrior... (me singing that Scandal song?)
Peace.
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if i tell you i'm strong will you play along? on 2007-11-30 14:08:19 |
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You know?
Pain is really hard to bare...but you are turning yours into something useful and constructive.
I really admire that.
Pain makes for beautiful lyric, prose, and poetry.
Keep writing...you have a talent.
I love how you can turn pain into loving light.
Namaste!
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so he's lying around agian, decapetated all my dol on 2007-11-30 14:05:20 |
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Pain raining down...it is cleansing you.
Keep writing.
I love your first line..darkly poetic..and it turns on a light in my mind.
Wonderful piece of work.
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i try to discover... on 2007-11-30 14:03:15 |
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This made you sweeter in my eyes.
Love beautiful Love.
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your fighting for my love on 2007-11-30 14:01:52 |
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That does not sound like ramble to me.
Sounds like beautiful prose from the soul.
I loved it.
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the only living boy in new york: for gramma on 2007-11-30 13:33:23 |
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Just curious.
Where did your title inspiration come from?
Short post...yet is says so much.
Lovely.
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Your Book is Being Written on 2007-11-30 13:11:39 |
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triumphofspirit-..
You said it all.
I cannot add one word to that.
You got my Spiritual Meaning perfectly.
You should write a blog on that vision you took from here.
It is TRUTH!
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Your Book is Being Written on 2007-11-30 13:06:34 |
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Diaphonous Me-..
You said it very nicely.
We would never have light...without the darkness.
Just like the day could never be distinguished from the night...if we did not have both.
Both have their purpose.
We all have purpose.
All things have purpose.
Peace to you...
I love the Lucky Charms Complex.
I still have that for breakfast quite often.
Keep shining...in the beautiful darkness.
If there were no darkness..we would surely not shine...we would blend in.
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my cat, number 2 on 2007-11-30 11:15:23 |
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Yay for Mr. Kitty.
Give him a hug for me.
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macbeth on 2007-11-30 11:14:10 |
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He did leave us with much wisdom for life.
He makes us think very deeply..which is always a good thing.
I liked that one..he put life into much perspective...so much so...that those who are not looking for the meaning of life...could never truly understand what he meant.
Seeing that you can understand...shows me that you are a very deep thinker.
A seeker.
I admire that greatly.
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i wanted to write this on 2007-11-30 11:09:54 |
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I love Shakespeare.
He is so deep.
So deep that you really have to pay attention to see what he is trying to say.
I found a bunch of plays of Shakespeare in the library...old time recordings of them in black and white.
Watching those and reading him in print is very interesting.
Nice quote.
I sent you a PM...in response to yours.
Check your mail.
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The Causes of Acne on 2007-11-30 11:05:20 |
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Acne is miserable condition.
I never had it as a teen...but in adulthood...I started having a bit of a problem.
I guess a few pimples keeps me from being too conceited.
hehe
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Why Women Talk So Much on 2007-11-30 11:02:59 |
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Hehehe!
Isn't that the truth.
Men have a gift of tuning us out.
Why do you think we turn to these sites to talk to other women?
Our voicebox and soapbox...gets to rest.
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Love Monsters on 2007-11-30 09:32:09 |
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I am picturing you in spandex right now.
Hmmmm.
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Along the Way on 2007-11-30 09:29:48 |
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So you are taking me to Russia then?
You said anywhere.
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The Definition on 2007-11-30 09:26:28 |
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Hanging on to all of the past hurts can also cripple us...and make us emotional cripples all of our lives.
You said some really important things here Paul.
Conflict does build character...but how we deal with that conflict determines what kind of character is formed within us.
You met me when I was drowning in self pity...do you remember my entries...when I held on to that self pity over my painful past?
They were draining to me...and probably to anyone who read them.
I became more and more pitiful...each day that I let my pain define me.
I became bitter...hateful...and petty.
I know you remember.
You are too nice to say that you do...but rereading all of those entries...I sickened myself...and it caused me to want to change.
I was embarrassed about what I had become.
Now you know why that I deleted so many accounts.
That pain that I let define me...made me a person that I was no longer proud of.
This is an excellent entry Paul.
Now pick up your phone! hehe
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The First (and only) Dating Service Date on 2007-11-30 09:16:12 |
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Oh ..you picked up.
Sorry I missed you.
That is such a coincidence...I have always loved Russia...and I have longed to live there all of my life!
When are we leaving?
I am so glad you loved the perfume.
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The First (and only) Dating Service Date on 2007-11-30 00:12:09 |
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Oh one more thing...can I borrow $500?
I will pay you back with my income tax check.
Call me as soon as possible..it is an emergency!
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The First (and only) Dating Service Date on 2007-11-30 00:09:33 |
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Paul...I need a place to stay..I have been evicted...and it is all my son's fault...he stole the rent money to go and party on.
Can we stay with you?
hehe
Ok..I will quit now!
I am entertaining myself before I go to sleep.
This is more fun that Last to Post game on the forum.
It is kind of fun being a stalker.
hehe
Nighty night.
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The First (and only) Dating Service Date on 2007-11-30 00:06:57 |
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Paul-...this is the fourth time I have called. I really need you right now.
My car broke down...and I need a ride.
I also feel so depressed and need someone to talk to.
You must be at work still...or you would pick up.
I must miss you or something...I will call back later.
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The First (and only) Dating Service Date on 2007-11-30 00:04:43 |
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I think this is my all time favorite ...humorous post of yours.
hehe
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The First (and only) Dating Service Date on 2007-11-30 00:04:07 |
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Are you there yet Paul?
I know you are there.
You are just not answering.
I just bought some new perfume for you.
I got it on sale.
hahaha
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The First (and only) Dating Service Date on 2007-11-30 00:03:07 |
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Paul...
Where are you?...pick up your phone!!
(whine whine)
I am in crisis...I need to vent.
Paul...I need someone to cry to.
Men!
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Love Monsters on 2007-11-30 00:00:16 |
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That was beautiful.
I did not think I could love you anymore than I already did...but my love meter for you just shot through the roof!
I love when men are all vulnerable and mushy.
It just makes my heart melt.
Too many men are so tough acting...they think that attracts a woman...just the opposite is true.
Why do you think Rock Stars who sing love ballads have so many women screaming for them with tears in their eyes?
Vulnerability makes you shine like a Star.
You Love Monster You.
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Peek Into My Private Message on 2007-11-29 23:43:45 |
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Forgetmeknot-..
Thank you.
I think the same of you.
You are very unique and very special.
You are perfect...remember?
I agree with you.
We are all perfect just the way we are.
I will always remember that as my first impression of you.
It put you in a very bright light to me.
Never lose that attitude.
Namaste...in honor of your Mr.
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Peek Into My Private Message on 2007-11-29 23:40:42 |
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scotslad60-...
What's Love got to do with it?
Everything!
Namaste.
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Peek Into My Private Message on 2007-11-29 23:39:44 |
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missmarie-..
We love you just as much.
We can be the three muskateers..female style.
hehe.
I win.
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Peek Into My Private Message on 2007-11-29 23:38:43 |
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Pauligan-..
We were waiting for you...you did not show up.
You must have been in the shower again.
I even had pizza!
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Your Book is Being Written on 2007-11-29 23:36:01 |
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Forgetmeknot-..
Thank you very much kind lady.
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Your Book is Being Written on 2007-11-29 23:35:19 |
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Pauligan-...
You do not see any darkness because I kicked it out of me too many times..it is afraid to come back now.
That is why I like my bully killer side.
It saved my life.
Darkness is a big bully.
Peace.
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Your Book is Being Written on 2007-11-29 23:32:54 |
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Scotslad60-..
I surely do...I have no other choice now...it sometimes gets me into trouble.
(me grinning sheepishly)
Peace.
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Your Book is Being Written on 2007-11-29 23:28:47 |
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BubblyDiane-..
You said it girl.
Now pick up your gifted pen...and write until it is.
I love you.
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Your Book is Being Written on 2007-11-29 23:27:14 |
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Rajah-..
I agree with you.
Creation does consist of darkness and light.
They are reversable.
My darkness made the light...oh so very bright.
I learned alot in my darkness...more than I have learned in the light.
I so agree.
Peace.
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THE SWAN SONG OF RUPERT.B.BEAR on 2007-11-29 21:46:18 |
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Sing Rupert Sing.
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A sorry tale on 2007-11-29 21:20:07 |
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Welcome Rupert.
I did not mean to miss this one.
I usually catch the current 3 or 4.
I am sorry about your other site problems.
I promise not to be a stress bucket...or at least not too much.
hehe.
Welcome.
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AFRAID-BUT NOT FOR ME on 2007-11-29 21:05:14 |
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I watched a documentary about the melting polar caps awhile back. At the rate it is melting, they say much of the land of the earth can be under water...sooner than they had originally thought.
It was kind of a scary thought. The ocean levels rising so fast like that.
Makes me glad to be as old as I am...but you are right...fear for the children.
In all reality what can they really do to stop the changes?
In my opinion...not much...we cannot fight mother nature...she always wins.
Pollution is another story...we do pollute our oceans needlessly....as well as the land with our garbage and toxic waste.
It really is a tragedy what we have done to the place that inhabits life for us.
Nice post...made me think.
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Living under ground on 2007-11-29 20:58:42 |
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How interesting.
I will check them out Rupert.
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Autumn has come and gone... on 2007-11-29 00:03:37 |
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Sounds like the changes in us as well.
I like how you look at things.
Refreshes me.
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Temporal on 2007-11-28 23:46:13 |
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I fly in my dreams also.
I got better with each dream.
Do you know that you are dreaming when you are flying?
Or is it just a normal dream?
I know that I am dreaming in my dreams.
I do really daring things in them, because of this knowledge.
They are very life like.
If I did not know better...I could recall them as memories, they are so real.
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The ladder to success on 2007-11-28 23:38:42 |
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You are so bad!!!
hahahaha.
Makes shallow look really bad!
hahahaha.
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A Senior Citizen on 2007-11-28 23:35:10 |
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s
oops.
This is how I fix my typos.
I need prayer...I am obsessed.
I try not to look for them anymore.
When I see one...I have an urgent need to fix it.
hehehe.
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A Senior Citizen on 2007-11-28 23:33:17 |
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It sure sound like you are.
I am growing old gracefully...sort of.
Miss Clairol will always be my friend.
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I'm over the hill on 2007-11-28 23:31:08 |
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I am over the hill ...I kind of like the view from over here better.
Youth is overrated.
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Handling teens on 2007-11-28 23:28:22 |
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Hahaha!
Reverse psychology at its best.
I need to use that one on my son...but in a twisted sort of way. hehe
He likes to bang on his desk in his room when he gets killed on his on-line game.
It just gives me a knot in my neck.
Hmmm.
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Useless Facts on 2007-11-28 23:24:36 |
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These facts would be useful if you went to New York and hopped into the Cash Cab.
Have you ever seen that show?
hehe.
Wayne...you never disappoint me.
'An eagle can kill a young deer and fly away with it.'
Do you think that is really true?
That one was my favorite.
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Along the Way on 2007-11-28 23:16:32 |
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Can we go to Disney Land?
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Simple Inspiration on 2007-11-28 22:48:52 |
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I just want you to know that I used this whole entry on another site...to help a brokenhearted friend...and later on the homepage...she was quoting several of them.
I did not take the credit...I told her that I read it in a friend's journal.
You touch people...just know that.
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A Child's Poem. Thank you veterans! on 2007-11-28 22:45:37 |
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You had that passion in third grade!
You had no problem releasing it then.
I just came from reading 'Passionate Energy'....keep writing...you have no problem whatsoever in being who you are.
You shine.
You are strong and noble in heart.
Like that Eagle...now fly sweet girl.
No one can take your wings.
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Passionate Energy on 2007-11-28 22:40:32 |
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You seem to carry the world on your shoulders.
You feel everyone's pain very severely.
You want to change the cold world so everyone will just be happy.
You get intensely hurt when you cannot make the vision in your mind of the perfect world....come to be reality.
If the world could see what I see in my mind..and acted in love toward each other...this world would be beautiful.
There would be no more pain or loneliness...no more turmoil in my mind.
The passion of love that lives in you scares you because you do not understand it...but you feel the power of it.
It consumes my thoughts...I want to get the nerve to share my heart...because my vision is beautiful.
I am afraid of rejection of this beautiful passion...because I never want it to die.
If it died...I surely would have nothing to live for.
I love you.
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The Worth of Secrecy on 2007-11-28 21:53:45 |
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I think you are well on your way to freedom in this area.
When you come to the point..where you trust yourself with your heart...it will not matter who breaks it again.
If you can turn to your own heart in time of need...you will never be alone.
Go back and read what you wrote.
You have a beautiful heart...see it...and believe in it.
Others will surely admire you...if you admire yourself...not everyone...but enough that matters.
I see much of my heart in yours.
I used to hide as well.
I was embarrassed of how I loved others..and how I loved God.
I was afraid of rejection.
Rejection from others will never cease.
Rejection of yourself...must cease...in order to find your peace.
Let yourself shine...recognize your self worth...and walk in dignity with it.
Peace.
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I ain't got no crystal ball on 2007-11-28 21:41:11 |
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I vote for cuddling and PJ wearing.
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:0/ on 2007-11-28 21:39:31 |
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Hehe..
I heard about poor Hulk Hogan.
It is sad...isn't it?
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**No one ever hears you** on 2007-11-28 21:38:10 |
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Sweet entry.
I talk to birds for fun.
None of them ever talk back...but there is this blue bird that visits me everyday...I doubt it is the same one...but I pretend it is.
I tell my pretty bluebird my deepest secrets.
I hope he never stops singing.
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God on 2007-11-28 21:34:48 |
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I really liked this.
It reminds me of the Depeche Mode song...Blasphemous Rumors.
I have the video in my links.
I think you might like it.
It speaks of God having a sick sense of humor.
Listen with your heart..not your head.
I can only hear him in my heart.
Nice poem.
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The In-Laws on 2007-11-28 17:11:45 |
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I love you already.
hehe
You just tell it like it is.
I love how you just be yourself.
You are genuine in heart.
I love the Sims2 game.
I really get into building my own cities and designing and decorating my houses.
I built a whole city and many of the houses from the ground up.
I even put landscape in.
It is a very relaxing hobby.
It sure must be hard having no privacy.
I hope your situation improves soon.
I really admire how you befriended the ex.
That shows very strong character.
Thanks for the add on in the friend department. I love meeting new people.
Peace.
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Happy Birthday to Me on 2007-11-28 17:02:35 |
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Happy Birthday to you..
Happy Birthday to you..
Happy Birthday to Sadiee Lady...
Happy Birthday to you.
I am sorry your Birthday got overlooked.
I am glad you were born...because I have a new friend now.
The ex remembered?
Now that is a new one I have never heard before.
Bless your Birthday heart.
Peace.
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Remember her with a smile on 2007-11-28 16:18:55 |
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That is beautiful.
It reminds me of my longing for my mother.
You have me all teary eyed.
My mother died when I was still very angry at her for abandoning me.
I never got to forgive her while she lived.
Memories of her are very painful for me.
Especially, since I see her every time I look into the mirror.
This sparked something in me very deeply.
Thank you Marie..my goal is to think of her with no pain attached.
Peace.
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| Posted in
please think on 2007-11-28 16:09:52 |
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The Truth...sets us free.
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please think on 2007-11-28 16:09:15 |
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I love you Marie..you are free.
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Angry on 2007-11-28 16:00:02 |
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Their punishment is their own rotten character...when they die...the only memory of them will stink in all of the nostrils of those who knew them.
In the History Book of the Universe...they will be called Vultures.
Vultures feed on rotting flesh...just as their words rotted their whole being.
In a sense..they will feed on their own poison.
We all reap what we sow...it is a Spiritual Law.
Some call it Karma.
Just getting that out..I bet you feel relief.
I know how you feel.
My own flesh and blood did this to me...over and over again.
Peace will come again sweet Marie.
I promise you that.
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another thought about a dream on 2007-11-28 15:51:46 |
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Oh by the way.
I think everything has to do with God.
hehehe!
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another thought about a dream on 2007-11-28 15:51:14 |
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I would love to read about your dreams.
I get alot of ideas for my entries from my dreams.
Like the dancing with my feathers...that was a daydream while I was sitting watching the sun go down.
I really liked your post...and your interpretation.
I am really into dreams.
Nice post.
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Bleeding Love on 2007-11-28 15:40:36 |
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Diaphonous Me-..
Thank you.
Peace to You.
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| Posted in
Bleeding Love on 2007-11-28 15:39:28 |
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Forgetmeknot-..
Thank you Mrs. Honored One.
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| Posted in
Bleeding Love on 2007-11-28 15:37:41 |
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BubblyDiane-..
As long as you have life breath in you..there will be.
I love you.
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another thought about a dream on 2007-11-28 14:25:01 |
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I dream like you do Marie.
I know that I am dreaming and I can somewhat control what I do in my dreams.
I even try really daring feats, as flying, walking into burning buildings, diving off of cliffs, just because I know I cannot die in my dreams.
I believe actual people and objects sometimes do not even represent themselves. I believe many are symbolic.
Sort of like my prose. I present ideas in symbols...because I cannot explain them any other way.
My theory about the man in the dark robe is... That he is The Spirit of God..The Spirit of Love...who also haunts my dreams.
He seems robed in darkness because you cannot truly see him with your natural eyes...because you are not ready to truly comprehend his existence yet.
You then see him in his plain clothes, because in reality..Marie..God is one of us...we are spirit...with a body.
God does not need his fleshly garments any longer...he is spirit...as we are.
Our dark robes is the flesh we live in...and when we enter Death's Door..we will no longer be housed in these robes that we call bodies.
We will become like him....we will be purely spiritual.
I also believe Scripture is Spiritual Prose...symbolism..like my blogs.
Scripture calls God ...The Great Physician.
Maybe your doctor represented that title that someone gave him so long ago..He can heal a broken heart...He can heal a broken life...He can heal broken dreams....He can heal a wounded mind.
I keep a dream journal...a paper one.
I write all of my interesting dreams down...and refer to them often.
I believe they are a key to the Spiritual Realm of God.
Even nightmares.
They make us think beyond this tangible world.
It is amazing that you dream as I do.
You are the first person I have met who dreams as if awake, like I do.
Now tell us...what is your interpretation?
I am excited to hear it.
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please think on 2007-11-28 13:57:42 |
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I think it was a very cruel and selfish thing for him to do.
He was using that as a form of manipulation.
We are all our own masters of our destiny...if someone wants to murder their own body..than that is their choice.
Bad things happen to all of us...and not all of us are running around trying to kill ourselves and blaming the whole world for our stinking thinking patterns.
It was his choice Marie..to think on death until he acted on his own thoughts.
You had nothing to do with it.
I would almost bet my life on it...that he did this to others as well as you.. before he took his pity party and hung himself.
That may sound harsh...but it is truth to me.
I have been through much emotional, sexual, and physical abuse in my life, and I do not use it as an excuse to hate the world..and to torture others with my pain.
I instead turned my pain into something constructive...to help others through the same pain.
This entry made me angry...at him.
Not you.
You are right...how dare he blame you for his own self pity ..and the murder of his own body.
You did not put the rope around his neck...he did.
I love you Marie...and I care not who flags me.
I see how this guilt has eaten at your whole thought life since he did this selfish cruel act to himself.
Peace Sweet Marie...have peace now.
You did nothing wrong.
We all choose our own lives..or our own suicide.
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Bleeding Love on 2007-11-28 12:17:16 |
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Paul-..
Would you really go?
It is not just a fun pow wow...it is very traditional.
Spiritually traditional.
Sort of like the Man Called Horse...traditional.
We will fast food and water...and take part in traditional ceremony.
Maybe they will let you just watch...since you are a white boy...hehe...I am not sure.
I will ask my friend who told me about it.
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Bleeding Love on 2007-11-28 12:13:49 |
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BubblyDiane-..
It is okay...you are so nice...even telling off the spammers.
hehe.
You make me smile...so wide.
I am going to post a pic of me smiling today...so you see what you do to me.
It was taken about 6 months ago...but I was smiling then...why I am smiling now...because someone Loves me.
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Bleeding Love on 2007-11-28 12:11:11 |
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trevorjohn-...
Do you realize that you have been a Lighthouse to me?
So..I can pay you the same gratitude.
Thank you for keeping that Light of Love shining in your heart.
It makes any storm of life...Bright and Beautiful.
Peace.
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Bleeding Love on 2007-11-28 12:01:55 |
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scotslad60-..
I think I will make you the conductor then...because you surely have given me much fuel for my fire.
I highly respect you.
I read much of you on the forum yesterday...I dare not add to what you say...I see that it is your field to combat in those religious forums.
I so admire how you do it.
I could not be as gentle and full of wisdom with dealing with such arguments.
You are as smooth as glass.
Namaste.
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Bleeding Love on 2007-11-28 11:55:13 |
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Paul-...
Are you dressed in traditional dress?
hehe.
I get to go to a real pow wow!
In August....I have to make a peace pipe to offer to the Chief.
I am so excited.
You should come...we could dance until the stars disappear.
We can say you are a Native at Heart.
Peace. (me sounding like an Indian Chief)
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| Posted in
Bleeding Love on 2007-11-28 11:51:50 |
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missmarie-...
I am glad that you have found and embraced this never ending love.
It fulfills us even in the hard times of life.
Keep walking in the Light of Love...my sweet Marie.
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| Posted in
Bleeding Love on 2007-11-28 11:45:08 |
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BubblyDiane-..
There are many Diane.
The whole goal is to find that multitude and become an army for Love.
I am tired of walking alone.
This is a never ending battle of truth and love.
I want you to realize that you ....not just me...are just as responsible in this fight between Love and Hate.
You are my ally.
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| Posted in
Asserting yourself on 2007-11-28 09:30:09 |
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If all people could have that mind set...there would not be so many hurting people...left alone being afraid in life.
I think a good dose of recklessness is very good for us..especially when it involves reaching out to someone.
You are sweet Heizo.
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| Posted in
Dating Service Date II on 2007-11-27 22:57:04 |
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I did not tell you who my stalker was.
Hmmm.
Do you have ESP?
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| Posted in
Stupid People... on 2007-11-27 14:30:41 |
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hehe.
You are very entertaining.
I needed some good clean fun.
That OJ idea.....hahaha!
Peace.
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I am.... on 2007-11-27 14:27:27 |
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I think I love you now too.
You shine.
Your Self Love..and Self Respect...make you glow as bright as the sun.
Beautiful words from a beautiful heart.
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| Posted in
Moonrise. on 2007-11-27 13:57:41 |
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Difficult Soul is speechless.
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| Posted in
Dating Service Date II on 2007-11-27 12:11:09 |
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Pick up the phone Paul.
Are you in the shower?
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Dating Service Date II on 2007-11-27 12:10:03 |
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Paul..you are so hard to please!
What does a woman have to do to make you love her?
I seem to recall crying around to you like that.
Is that what you thought of me?
(me sobbing)
hehehe!
I just think you have a problem with commitment.
Hmmmph.
hahahahaha!
You know I am kidding..right?
HMM.?
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| Posted in
The First (and only) Dating Service Date on 2007-11-27 12:04:24 |
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hahahahaaha!
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The First (and only) Dating Service Date on 2007-11-26 21:37:41 |
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Hahahaha.
I love this.
You poor thing.
I think you may have given up on her too soon.
Maybe she was just testing you and your capacity of unconditional love?
hehe
Poor Paul.
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Yes on 2007-11-26 21:01:12 |
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I could not agree more Manny.
God cannot and will not be put into a box and dictated to.
He has no master....He is the Master.
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The Message on 2007-11-26 20:59:31 |
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That was a beautiful comment Manny.
You have a beautiful and pure heart.
You are beautiful to me.
I am so glad that I found you.
I needed you at this time in my life.
You do not know how much.
You speak words like my Father.
You are wise and noble in my eyes.
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Giving Thanks on 2007-11-26 20:54:15 |
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I cannot wait to see your book.
I am proud of you my brother.
I just love you.
You make me feel like a Native again.
I have been white for too long.
hehe
Peace.
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| Posted in
I dread on 2007-11-26 20:50:59 |
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This is beautiful yearning for the way it was supposed to be.
Amazing emotions you can stir.
You make me soar as an Eagle.
It will be restored, you watch and see.
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Temporal on 2007-11-26 20:20:35 |
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I fly like an Eagle in Spirit.
Do you ever feel like that friend?
This poem hints that you do.
I love all of your new pictures on your profile page.
You bless me.
Peace Forever.
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| Posted in
Native War Cry on 2007-11-26 20:12:48 |
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Ahh...some nice Staff member fixed my flag.
Thank you.
Now back to the real comments.
Peace.
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| Posted in
Native War Cry on 2007-11-26 16:35:08 |
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I would hate to expose her...because that would be mighty embarrassing for her...especially since I know that she does this under other screennames.
I just may do that.
I wonder if I would have the nerve?
I think maybe I would.
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| Posted in
Native War Cry on 2007-11-26 16:20:13 |
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I have a stalker...and I know who SHE is.
She likes to give me low ratings as well.
Oh well...if it makes her feel good..at least she will feel good for a minute or two...instead of feeling sorry for herself.
hehe
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| Posted in
Drowning in the Sea on 2007-11-26 12:41:04 |
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Wayne..hehe.
You always make me laugh...but seem to leave me with something profound to think about....even with your jokes.
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| Posted in
B@*!$*% rule...right? on 2007-11-26 10:45:11 |
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Just know..a..B%$&*..is remembered as such.
The good guy always wins in the end...because they will be remembered in a good light and memory.
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MISSTAKE on 2007-11-26 10:42:05 |
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We all eventually have sex my dear.
No need to have a guilt trip.
If that were the response we should have...we would all be walking around with our heads down in shame.
We are sexual beings.
We were created as sexual beings...and we will always be sexual beings.
Peace to you.
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| Posted in
Drowning in the Sea on 2007-11-26 10:01:00 |
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Scotslad-..
You do see it...because I can see what I saw...in what you wrote.
You just reiterated that whole entry in one paragraph.
You did it quite beautifully, I might add.
Namaste My Teacher.
hehe
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| Posted in
My lost soulmate on 2007-11-26 09:44:35 |
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This is so beautiful.
It is a hard thing...this thing we call love...because our hearts are capable of loving so many.
Liisa would be honored by this tribute to her.
Jenny would have to understand since she loves someone... who loves like you.
Peace.
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| Posted in
An update on 2007-11-26 01:10:49 |
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I am so happy for you.
A ski resort sounds like a very cheerful place to work.
Everyone having fun...maybe the attitudes will be better in that kind of atmosphere.
I am glad you have found peace of mind.
Take care Rosaline.
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| Posted in
The Deer on 2007-11-26 00:52:26 |
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Your grandma sounds mysteriously beautiful.
Lovely tribute to her.
Peace.
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| Posted in
Drum on 2007-11-26 00:49:46 |
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We still have the heartbeat of the people.
Rest your weary eyes..and when you awake..your Spirit will soar.
We are in ceremony here...as we fellowship as brother and sister.
Lovely piece here.
You take me to an enchanted realm in my soul.
Peace.
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Yes on 2007-11-26 00:46:11 |
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I was raised by an American Indian Evangelical preacher.
In the end of it all..before he died..he told me that the Bible is a guide book... inspired by God..but not to be taken literally.
He told me that God is not a big mean king on a throne ready to throw me into hell for being human.
He also told me that God is everywhere..in the air we breathe..in the sun that shines down on our faces...in all things.
I believe the Great Spirit is God...and his name is Love.
Your writing here reminded me of his last words to me.
Thank you.
Peace.
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The Message on 2007-11-26 00:40:32 |
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Love is a Healing Medicine.
That is why I love the Native American culture.
It is all about togetherness and appreciating the simple things in life.
Nature...song...dance...being with the ones we love.
I will dance for you tomorrow while I play my stereo really loud.
We will dance together in Spirit.
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| Posted in
Drowning in the Sea on 2007-11-26 00:27:08 |
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JMadtownWeb-...
Thank you my new friend.
You are sweet to think so.
Peace.
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| Posted in
Giving Thanks on 2007-11-26 00:15:28 |
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I want to go to the Sundance.
I read up on the Dakota Sundance.
There is a circle in the earth in South Dakota, if I remember correctly.
It is the Medicine Wheel.
I never got to learn much about my heritage...I grew up in a predominantly white small town....between two reservations.
In Montana was my homeland...near the Rocky Boy Reservation.
It is so neat that you got to hold on to your roots.
I loved your poem...I would love to go sweat it out...fast...and dance til the stars disappeared.
Do they let women dance?
I think I read somewhere that they don't.
I would anyway...I am a rebel.
Peace.
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Behind The Lodge on 2007-11-26 00:04:12 |
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My daddy taught me how to traditionally dance. I tried it in a night club once..where there was a huge screen that displayed the dance floor.
It was amazing...the camera was on me..and before I realized everyone was standing still watching me.
Looking from the screen to me on the platform.
There is the Grandfather's power in the traditional dance.
Your poem made me feel like dancing again.
I have not danced since that night.
I would love to go to one of those traditional dance ceremonies.
I have never experienced one.
You have soul eyes my friend...like me.
I believe it is from my Native blood line.
You are a blessing to me...I only have one other Native friend in this world.
His name is Two Feathers.
I am glad that I found you.
Peace.
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| Posted in
Got a bad case of Liberal or Conservative? on 2007-11-25 22:13:24 |
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I put out my opinions on a constant basis.
I care not who agrees or disagrees.
Thoughts.com is a wonderful outlet.
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| Posted in
Drowning in the Sea on 2007-11-25 21:55:25 |
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trevorjohn-..
Believe it.
Ask Paul...he helped give me some light and color.
Self pity colored me UGLY!
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Drowning in the Sea on 2007-11-25 21:54:07 |
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Pauligan-..
I think he knew what he was doing when he picked you too Paul.
You were the lighthouse that God put on that hill for me.
You grabbed my hand and pulled me out of that black sea.
You convinced me that I was somebody worth loving.
I will never forget that...or you.
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Drowning in the Sea on 2007-11-25 21:46:50 |
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ReDMooN-..
It is very possible to build your own lighthouse.
We are all chosen to be Lighthouse keepers..not just me.
Your lighthouse is within you.
I am thankful for you too darling.
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| Posted in
spell check and instant messages have turned us on 2007-11-25 21:33:57 |
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Hehe.
So true.
I enjoyed this Roe.
I also liked blueeyed's guide.
hehe.
TTYL.
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| Posted in
time flies when you are having fun and even on 2007-11-25 21:07:54 |
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It is so wonderful to see someone's life being celebrated like that.
We should all receive one of those presentations.
What a wonderful touching idea.
Thanks for sharing.
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| Posted in
Paying my last respects to a terrific family on 2007-11-25 21:03:51 |
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This may sound strange, but I have always loved funerals.
It makes people really aware of the short time we have with each other.
There is sort of an air of extra love for the deceased.
Goes to show..we do not know what we have until it is gone.
It shows a really kind heart in you to go out of your way to attend a funeral when only seeing the announcement in the paper.
Peace.
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| Posted in
Stoned Again! on 2007-11-25 20:36:08 |
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trevorjohn-..
I tried many different career paths in my life and found nothing but misery in them.
I have always known since the age of 11 that this was my life's work. To share the Love of God with others.
I never knew how to achieve that for the longest time....until I discovered blogging.
I have formed my life around this calling...and I do not work outside of the home for this very reason.
My son is now 18 and he will be on his own very soon...I dedicated the first half of my life to loving and raising him.
I have dedicated the rest of my life to this calling.
The calling to Love.
Peace.
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| Posted in
Being Vulnerable, what does that mean????? on 2007-11-25 20:21:53 |
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It is when we become vulnerable...that we truly began to live.
Your heart is so open...I can feel that through the screen.
It allows your inner beauty to shine through all of the pretenses of life.
You look beautiful today.
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| Posted in
So Blessed on 2007-11-25 19:47:05 |
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Hey J...how are you doing?
I hope all is well.
Just thinking of you.
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| Posted in
The Voice on 2007-11-25 19:20:25 |
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Paul...we are ALL God's choice.
Silly!
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| Posted in
A good man looking for age 40 plus to chat on 2007-11-25 17:33:59 |
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Hello.
Nice to meet you.
My name is Jennifer.
I saw you in the forum.
I hope you find someone to share your life with.
I can share some of mine with you..here on line.
I live for loving on people.
Peace.
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| Posted in
Say goodbye on 2007-11-25 16:55:55 |
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I miss you!
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| Posted in
-screams unheard-. on 2007-11-25 16:55:15 |
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I left you a comment back.
Peace sweet girl.
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| Posted in
Stoned Again! on 2007-11-25 16:19:22 |
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rosebud-..
I am glad that it missed you.
Here is a Love Stone.
You just recently started commenting on my entries...and I already like you.
I will have to come and invade your page now.
Peace...and thank you.
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| Posted in
Stoned Again! on 2007-11-25 16:07:41 |
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ReDMooN-..
I have trusted many who betrayed me.
Just know..that later on..it will make you all the wiser.
I am glad you have one that you can lean on.
Here is a great big boulder of Love..and of encouragement.
Never give up on Love.
Peace.
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| Posted in
Drowning in the Sea on 2007-11-25 15:41:18 |
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BubblyDiane-...
It is a dark world when you are blind.
You just see an everlasting sea of darkness.
I love you...may neither of us ever be blinded again.
If so...we can be a light to each other.
Love you my dear friend.
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| Posted in
Drowning in the Sea on 2007-11-25 15:39:36 |
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missmarie-...
The honor is all mine.
Your love for me...has made my heart sing.
Your honest heart inspires me...and your unconditional love...challenges me to be a better lover!
Peace.
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| Posted in
Drowning in the Sea on 2007-11-25 15:37:48 |
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rosebud-..
I have a mountain of paper journals that list many fool things I did....due to self pity.
It sure makes a mess out of a person.
I regret much that I said and did during that time.
It has built character in me though.
I am no longer a whiny feel sorry for me character...I have real character now.
I would not change it if I could.
My days of swimming in that black sea...showed me the way to the Lighthouse.
Peace.
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| Posted in
Drowning in the Sea on 2007-11-25 15:34:26 |
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badlydrawnstickman-...
Thank you.
That means alot coming from you.
Oh yeah...your new Indian Name is.. Fire Man!
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| Posted in
Drowning in the Sea on 2007-11-25 15:30:41 |
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AliveOnly4aMoment-..
Dear..I still struggle with bad thoughts.
I fight them on a daily basis.
They are forever resurfacing...trying to drag me back into that black sea of despair.
Life truly is a battle in our mind.
We must fight for thoughts that make us feel good about ourselves..instead of letting bad ones weigh us down with bad memories.
My blogs...are MY truth honey.
They are told from an honest heart...and they describe the struggles that I have went through..and how I have overcome them.
You seem to be swimming back to the shore right now with every ounce of strength that you have in you.
That is the hardest part..it is scary and confusing...because you do not know what you will find upon that shore.
The first thing you must find when you get there...is self LOVE.
You must learn to cast aside all of the hateful things that has been programmed into your pain filled mind.
Release them...and let them float away into that black sea.
Realize that you are loved...God is Love...and we are made in His Image...You are Love...and Love is a Light to our souls.
The only reason that you cannot be that light to yourself...is because of what has been said about you by people you trusted.
Just know...you are beautiful just the way you were created.
Fall in love with yourself...like you were meant to.
Then it will be easy to love others again.
You are fearfully and wonderfully made.
Your opinion about yourself should matter more than other's opinions about you.
Be good to yourself in your thought life.
Live again sweetheart.
Love is NOT a LIE.
Someone just showed you hate and rejection once ..under the guise of Love.
True Love makes you SHINE.
I love you sweetheart.
I think the world of you.
Peace to you.
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| Posted in
Embracing Adversity on 2007-11-25 14:48:43 |
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rosebud-...
I reflect often..and after reflection...that is when I write in my journal.
All of those who comment to me...give me much to reflect upon.
I encourage you...be free in your mind.
No one's opinion of yourself matters as much as your own.
The comment above from RedMooN has caused much reflection...and she has inspired a new entry.
Reflection is good for the soul.
May you find peace..in knowing that you have the right...to be who you are.
Peace.
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Embracing Adversity on 2007-11-25 14:33:32 |
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ReDMooN-..
I am sorry that my view on religion hurts you.
I did not mean to hurt you.
Religion was my life for 32 years of my life.
I am 36 at the moment.
God to me is not Religion.
I cultivated those views through personal seeking and personal revelations.
It by no means takes your faith from you.
In all truth...I do not completely understand my faith at this moment in time.
I was so used to that Religion.
God is very real to me.
I will try one more time to make my view point clearer to you.
The Bible to me...is read like a Philosophy Book.
I believe it was put here to make us think...and to seek God.
It was put here to teach us right from wrong.
It is a prompt to make us seek God.
I have sought God all of my life.
I have found him...and he is as real to me as I am real to myself.
He lives and breathes inside of me.
Never let your misunderstanding or my searching for understanding of my faith...ever turn you away from your faith.
Some people find truth in religion...I just could not...because it dictated too much change of the Human Spirit.
God gave us a free will...and told us to be fruitful and multiply.
If we were as bad as Religion made me feel...then why in the world would he want me to reproduce such imperfect beings?
In all truth...I think that Religion has misinterpreted that Holy Book...and took it as literal...when I believe it was meant to be read as a Philosophy on Life...and Love.
God is Love to me dear one.
God is Love.
People will not always agree with me....because everyone is different.
Everyone has a different outlook on life.
I cannot expect to have everyone agree with me...that would be just plain silly of me to expect that.
My views may not be popular with some people...just like some other's views are not popular with me.
Now never let anything I say...or what anyone says...ever take your faith.
It is your own.
I am sorry if my views hurt you...but I stand by them...they are the faith that I have found in my quest for God.
Peace sweet girl.
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| Posted in
The Voice on 2007-11-25 13:27:33 |
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You were my Lighthouse Paul...the Light upon the Hill.
The one God put there for me.
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| Posted in
The Voice on 2007-11-25 13:26:22 |
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I do love you Paul.
You have been an inspiration to me for so long now.
You could not do a bad post...even if you wanted to.
I love and admire you so much.
Never forget that.
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| Posted in
Embracing Adversity on 2007-11-25 03:06:42 |
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Scarboroughfair-...
I agree.
We are what we think we are.
Thank you for the kind words.
I love your writing as well.
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| Posted in
Stoned Again! on 2007-11-25 03:04:14 |
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Scarboroughfair-..
What a sad suicide note.
I wonder if he ever tried smiling first?
Here is a smile for you my new friend.
You made my night tonight.
Your journal blessed me.
Peace.
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| Posted in
Notebook 2003 on 2007-11-25 02:17:48 |
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Miss you.
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| Posted in
Blogs/Suggestions for peace on 2007-11-25 02:05:44 |
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Hehe..Marie...how could anyone be mad at you?
If they are...oh well.
I like you and I love all of what you say.
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| Posted in
English is really crazy on 2007-11-25 01:25:40 |
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Hehe.
ForgetmeKnot-..I did not mean to mirror your comment.
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| Posted in
English is really crazy on 2007-11-25 01:24:38 |
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I am really glad I learned English from infancy.
Can you imagine being a foreigner trying to learn the language?
hehe
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| Posted in
Why English is tough on 2007-11-25 01:22:11 |
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I love it.
I am intrigued with words.
No wonder I read the dictionary for fun.
I loved this.
hehe
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| Posted in
Moving Thoughts on 2007-11-25 01:19:54 |
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Nevada?
I think you still have Vegas in your blood.
Wherever you go...will be lucky to have you.
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| Posted in
The Voice on 2007-11-25 01:16:20 |
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This is the best thing you have ever written Paul.
It as if you were in my head once upon a hate myself day.
I applaud you.
Truly amazing.
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| Posted in
The First Girlfriend on 2007-11-24 23:33:55 |
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Young love...that is exactly why I refused to wear dresses after 2nd grade.
Hmm.
BOYS!
Heavens to Betsy!
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| Posted in
The Voice on 2007-11-24 23:22:26 |
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Ok..it passed.
AMAZING TRUTH.
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| Posted in
The Voice on 2007-11-24 23:21:51 |
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I am speechless!!
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| Posted in
The Voice on 2007-11-24 23:20:42 |
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I am speechless!
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| Posted in
The Voice on 2007-11-24 23:20:25 |
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I am speechless.
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| Posted in
The Voice on 2007-11-24 23:19:48 |
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I am speechless.
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Worried on 2007-11-24 22:53:11 |
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Just checking on you Little Star.
I hope you are doing well.
Did you find a job yet?
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The Reason Why Blogging (or writing) is Good for M on 2007-11-24 22:50:35 |
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I think if all business people had your work ethic...their businesses would blow through the roof in productivity.
It is always okay to be frustrated with someone who will not do their best.
I think that if you are going to do anything at all...do it right...or do not do anything at all.
Venting is good for the soul..it actually helps us reach that higher plain.
I admire your work ethic.
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Embracing Adversity on 2007-11-24 21:06:37 |
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Wayne-...
You said it Runs with Beer.
There are no winners in a war.
So why do we keep having them?
This world is full of wars and strife.
Just a waste of time if you ask me.
Especially, when we can spend our time making each other smile and laugh.
We do get wiser like you said.
I am a little bit wiser now in just keeping my mouth shut sometimes...or my fingers off the keyboard.
Reminds me of a Proverb:
It is a foolish thing to pull a mad dog's ears. hehe
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