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 Ugly Jealous Faces
Prelude to a Kiss:

I ask myself, why so long?
Why did I take so long to see
myself through your eyes?
Why did it take YOU so long to see me...in my eyes?
The years so wasted...in misunderstanding
The tears, warm and salty, I
saw your heart
I was so bitter
So unforgiving
So proud
So cold
I judged you the way I judge
myself
Harshly
Can you finally believe in me?

A jealous kiss:
I hate jealousy
It is ugly on who wears it
I have lived a tormented life
because of jealousy..
Having the one I love to never to
believe in me
I am by nature a flirt and a preacher
I flirt with men, women, children,
butterflies, kittens and puppies..
Always.. suspicion in the way I love
people...
I love people in agape love..in a God type love..

I hate jealousy..
Love is to be shared with everyone...

I love to have friends...

You have made me jealous with your jealousy...

It is in my character to nurture and share some kind of light with all people...

You misjudged me over and over again..

I write here in my diary with a higher purpose.

I am not here to be popular...

I am not here to be romanced...

I am not here to hurt anyone...

I am here because, my purpose in life is to write..

It is to befriend people...

It is to show agape love....real love

Jealousy is wrong..

It is evil

It kills trust

It makes us believe the worst in each other

It is rotten company

The jealous kisses have hurt me...

The jealous embraces were hard...and cold

They almost chased me away...

I will not be on trial for life...to prove my love

No wonder scripture says that..men can stand against anger,
mire, tragedy, but NO MAN can stand against jealousy..

I want a gentle and trusting kiss..

I want to see trust in your eyes..

I want my character to not be questioned on a daily basis...

Read my mind...read my heart...know me for once..

There is no reason not to be sincere...

I have nothing to hide but the shame...that jealousy puts upon another
person...




One sure way to lose a man or a woman's respect, love, and trust...
Is to constantly be jealous and untrusting of them...
This wicked emotion almost destroyed the best relationship of my life...
It almost stole my family from me...


Take your jealousy and bury it..
It is ugly...
to all who let that emotion rule their hearts...
Take it and bury it...
It makes you oh so very UGLY.


Relationship Tip:
If your love has a problem with jealousy...give them all of your passwords...hehe.
It saved me a lot of trials..
A password to my heart...



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    Posted by DifficultSoul on 2009-08-14 18:58:27 | Rating: | Views: 240
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Jealousy is really negative energy...and, honestly, I wouldn't give anyone my passwords...I don't want anyone reading my diary, or looking in my pocketbook, or listening in on my phone calls...those are my moments...my private moments....and for the jealous person, I think that there are never enough assurances you can ever give them...to let your sig. other have that kind of power is being co-dependent...I agree with you that jealousy is an inherently ugly and bad, bad thing.
Posted by  funfreak  on 2009-08-14 19:11:22 
  
funfreak-..
In all reality...a relationship is a co-dependent union in the fullest sense of the word.
Secrecy really has no place in real intimacy.
Jealousy has hurt me, and in the process of trust building again, complete openness with another human being, is a sacred union.
Trust should be pushed at all limits to assure ones love to another.
That is just human decency.
Romantic love to me is...a bit spiritual alchemy..
It is for two souls to lose themselves in one another..so your term in the comment, is totally different than my interprtation of the term.
Romantic Love...should have no secrets in my opinion...
Posted by  DifficultSoul  on 2009-08-14 19:17:35 
  
All of this was a bit difficult to read...and it made me think of the show I am currently watching:P The old Incredible Hulk live action show. Jealousy...monsters...green. It seems so infectuous...and like something I can't just get out of my system. But, I don't think I ever saw it that way. I don't want to think I am infected...

Does this mean good news for you? Or, are you still healing?
Posted by  brainstormer  on 2009-08-15 00:51:53 
  
Hi sweetie!
Once again, very insightful...but,
ALL my passwords? heehee!
:)
All love to you!
Posted by  smilinirisheyes  on 2009-08-15 14:44:42 
  
*goes to get a shovel* Can your light be anymore bright? I dare to imagine such. Thank you for shining. I soothes me often. Thank you.
Posted by  Evanescence  on 2009-08-17 15:14:00 
  
peace2u....you said it just right...'it is a wretched poison.
It breaks and rots a person's spirit.
Posted by  DifficultSoul  on 2009-08-18 12:43:35 
  
hatgirl-...ditto..yep.
Posted by  DifficultSoul  on 2009-08-18 12:44:07 
  

brainstormer-..
I am sorry that my opinion was hard to take.
This means that healing is pretty much in place.
I can write about just anything now..'with no pain.
All of my experiences, have turned into the past..and it is
used in the best of my writing.
I like to write and make people aware, of what other people are
thinking about them.
Hmm..
Healing..that is exactly what it means.
Healing is when you can hear another's opinion..and it does
not change yours in any way, shape, or form.

Posted by  DifficultSoul  on 2009-08-18 12:48:59 
  
smilinirisheyes-..
Yes, ALL of my passwords.
My evidence.
hehe.
Posted by  DifficultSoul  on 2009-08-18 12:49:53 
  
evanescence-..
Only as bright as you are my dear, only as bright as you.
Posted by  DifficultSoul  on 2009-08-18 12:51:00 
  
Reminds me of that song "Hey Jealousy". I'm glad to see personal growth experience. The trials in life are so immense I know. Keep spreading your good karmar dear! Like I said, you have inspired me and given me tools for the toolbox of my heart! Love you. ooxx
Posted by  finalbow  on 2009-08-22 19:17:48 
  
Jealousy dwells in the deepest pit of our souls,
Subversion and ruins its cruelest goal
when least expecting it , it then rears its head
Tainting the heart until dying or dead,
It has no compassion, winner takes it all
Its very unbaised , it regard to the "Fall"
It tears at two hearts, So seemingly strong,Spawning destruction
It doesnt take long , No stones left untunred ,Doubting in its path
Sparking wildfires of fury,frenzy and wrath, It's accusative sword
cuts so sharp and sure and the damages done are left with no cure,
It feed on suspicion and distrust tearing at foundation till
crumble to dust , It posins the mind till falsites seem true
Firing , anger, Unreason and hatred on cue
It creeps on your beind, no signal nor sound
Consuming completely , no empathy found
Tenacious reproach this you defend
Till vows onf security are tossed in the wind,
this "Green monster" Dwells in all of us
And we are never prepared when it comes to call
"But if loyalty and reason dare take a firm stand"
This emotion called "Jealousy" cant get out of hand...
Love you!
Starryskye!
Posted by  starryskye  on 2009-08-23 04:30:11 
  
I need to learn trust...I hate jealousy, but there are times....
Great post again DS...:)
Posted by  dreampower  on 2009-08-31 17:04:03 
  
wow, this is some real life lessons for all the people out there who has struggles in relationships.. jealousy is such a back-stabbing demon that can hit all around us. and we have to evade it. trust is the only way, it is the backbone of long-lasting love and an enemy of jealousy :) great post. love you writings..
Posted by  _Aian_  on 2009-09-09 04:59:31 
  
The green-eyed monster will destroy love, the tongue can destroy, as well. So sad that some people see jealousy as a badge of honor, a way to show love or be loved. Great post and wonderful insights. Much healing and love to you. xo
Posted by  Ellie2008  on 2009-09-23 16:55:16 
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