I think I may go insane.
I'm tired of waking up everyday, with this nervous excitment in my stomach, because I expect something epic to happen. Or at least SOMETHING to happen.

It never does.
I always go to bed with the feeling that everything up to that point has been really anticlimactic.

I think that's why I'm so prone to wanting to self-destruct.

Self-destructing means forcing things to change..