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Its a strange conundrum to post a blog anonymously in order to confess or digress or release oneself to the world. Some days I can't get to the yoga mat until I free my mind of the distracting, emotionally fueled thoughts that need to go, and leave me alone. Somehow this writing is a way to reach conclusions, it seems. Mostly it's a diversion toward neat summaries of thought. Even if off the subject.
I wonder if this is pure indulgence, this working things out so attentively. I'm indulging my proclivity to think and think, just like the woman this morning. She is tangled in emotions about relationships, so writing about it, perhaps will help. Especially if you can tell it straight like it is. I'm more likely to couch my truths into other forms.
Yoga mat. I'd be wondering how she gets to waste away the morning in such freedom, if it were me reading this. So let me say, its only temporary for awhile, that I get to be so wasteful with my time. Soon enough I will have to do my yoga while its still dark outside, and then push my self along to get ready for work. And though my intentions are to keep things on the early side, there will be a part of me that sort of slips in discipline and gets to rushing too much.
I can't decide if its worse to measure out responsibilities with the clock, or play in the moment until there is only rushing left. Who is to say one is more superior? I don't want to become an automatron, but I do want to be in the action of the world around me. Its another conundrum, me lingering freely and me on top of things!
Well then, guess I feel better now that these issues have been worked out. Multi-tasking you know, writing about one thing, solving a totally other thing.
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Posted by Delawara on 2007-12-31 10:19:55 | Rating: | Views: 59
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