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Dearest Omega,
So today for some reason my tears were harder than usual to get up.
I had waited until aproximetely 1:10pm when i hugged Dj.
I had hugged him so tight i just didnt want to let go.
That is when the tears started to come.
This is when i had glanced around at everyone, and my thoughts had all disapeared.
All the loud cheering became quite, and soothing.
The most memorable thing was the look on Dj's face when he walked away from everyone.
I think what i want the most is to see him in stop and shop just so that i can hug him and tell him that i love him again.
I try'd to get my mind off of chris all day, but jason groping Amber write infront of me really didnt help.
Chris is a mystery.
Kind of like meatballs.
I guess i will never know exactly what he was thinking.
I do regret not saying goodbye though.
Even though i would much rather say see you next year.
Maybe that kind of hope would drive me insane.
I feel guilty spending so much time with someone whom i really dont like.
It is fact that near people and surroundings CAN change you.
Ive seen it happen.
One to many times.
And its a shame that i have become a bad person becouse my release therapy is nolonger needed.
Only on the most tragic occasions.
But lately I just give myself private acting lessons.
I wish i could go back to the way i use to be.
When i was so sure of myself.
Now i dont know who i am anymore.
When you graduate from highschool,
and then out of college,
People arent going to look at you the way they do now.
It is a fact that you will spend more time with yourself than you ever have.
Its probably a good idea to start having epiphanies now.
Love,
Liz
P.s 8th grade has officially ended.
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Posted by Dearomega on 2008-06-17 15:28:46 | Rating: | Views: 31
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