Think! Think before you speak, think before you act, think before you assume... My thoughts are changing. Analyse, understand and then react. Do not attack. I am more relaxed now,... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-04-02 09:25:00
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So today marks our 10th anniversary, dating. It's a good feeling... Been going through so much lately, it's a relief to have something to celebrate. Now, what to do for... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-04-07 06:15:02
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So I am glad I didn't go all out last night. . . Turns out he is not big on anniversaries. You'd think I woulda gotten the picture ten years into this relationship. We had loadshedding last... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-04-08 05:08:04
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Seldom, do i think about it but when I do it hurts so bad. My baby would have been 7 years old. I wonder if she would have looked like Amelia and brought me as much joy. I was young. I was... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-04-09 03:01:40
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You bastard ! How can you tell me you are getting tired of this when you caused it in the first place. How dare you tell me to get over it when you made sure you fucked me up so bad I'd spend... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-04-09 09:52:55
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My child is not in the hands of another family. S/he is not even alive, S/he is with God I let them take her ...... not away from me but .......................out of me.... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-04-10 07:39:18
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Do you think about our baby? I am convinced it would have been a girl. Andrea, that is what I would have named her. You know this, I told you before, didn’t I? I think about... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-04-10 08:09:04
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Confessions: are like vomiting in a night of heavy drinking, painful but it makes you feel better….& after the hangover it’s just the memory … So the weekend looks... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-04-11 08:28:31
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I see you in my fantasy I hear you speak words full of love You have reasons for everthing you do You've lived life long enough to know what it is you are looking for You take me in... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-04-14 04:54:52
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I'd like to thank all of you who gave me your support. Much appreciated. I have decided not to talk to Dru about it. He seems okay and I don't want to hurt him unnecesarily. Let... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-04-14 08:04:17
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Today my heart is heavy, disappointments from people that shouldn’t concern me are the order of the day. My previous job! Too much to explain so I’ll try to make it brief.... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-04-15 04:50:07
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Depression What does it take to drive a person over the edge? I wonder… Obviously I am talking about me and Dru. I do not see myself depressed. My blog is very morbid but as... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-04-15 10:19:56
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If our love was a fairy tale I would charge in and rescue you On a yacht baby we would sail To an island where we?d say I do And if we had babies they would look like you It?d... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-04-16 06:34:12
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This stupid f*** thing, I wrote a message and then it wouldn't take the verification code so I copied and pasted and it only saved half my blog......... grrrrrrrrrrr Let me see how much of... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-04-16 07:39:09
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I am so broke it's actually funny. Never been broke in the last 3 years. We don't even have petrol money. Scary! lol I cannot believe it's so bad and I guess it doesn't help to be... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-04-17 02:56:29
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I got a call yesterday from an old love, how ironic since he offered me the world on a silver platter and i refused. Now that I am down and under - BROKE - he calls and makes a comment "It... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-04-18 02:24:15
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It is freezing cold today. Cold front from nowhere!  Saturday was lovely weather, Sunday afternoon just got cold suddenly. Now it’s icy frozen. When I pee it’s like I expect... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-04-21 06:44:40
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So, I got the Position that my manager “Forced” me to apply for. He was conducting the interview so I knew before hand that I would get it. Pity though that I stay on the same... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-04-23 05:33:35
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I moved offices today, had a busy morning - Realised being idle for a month made me really lazy......... Blush... It's all good, just quiet - no radio and lonely. I'll get used to it, I am... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-04-24 09:59:12
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We had a long weekend so I been offline for a few days now. Don't mean to brag but this week we only work Today (Tuesday) and tomorrow and return again next Monday Whooohooo!! Ok, SAturday-... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-04-29 05:42:17
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Needs_to_talk you are spot on, it is pink eye. I read up on it yesterday and got all paranoid, stormed out the office almost in tears because I was so afraid my child was going to have some... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-04-30 03:09:23
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Okay it feels like it is supposed to be tomorrow this time already, today is dragging like you cannot believe. I want to go home and just play with Amelia or watch 'day of our lives' = loser.... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-04-30 10:24:28
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