Today 3 years back my dad's brothers' daughter gave birth to a little girl. I don't even know this kids name. AND NO she is not my fucken cousin. I hate the piece of shit. I was about 12 years... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-03-03 02:27:05
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It's Monday again, sitting at work my boss is away until Thursday so I'm idle ONCE AGAIN. The weekend was quiet but hectic at the same time. Dru has got to re-evaluate the people he chooses to be... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-03-03 03:27:42
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If only two people could say to each other that they choose to be understood and heard by each for always until both decide otherwise. Then between the two of them there will always be... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-03-03 07:03:06
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Sitting at work I think about that night and it leaves a glowing grin on my face. Should I text him and say something or will he think I am asking for more…. well I wouldn’t mind it... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-03-03 07:04:31
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I came across My diary from my Matric year, 1999. I forgot how messed up I was. The images I collected and pasted are haunting, scary, disturbing. This was my school diary – not a journal.... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-03-03 09:20:11
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Writing about my past has stirred some feelings I thought were dead. Dru came home early last night 7pm usually gets home around 9.30pm. I was so angry with him but obviously couldn't tell him... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-03-04 01:24:04
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This year’s been very confusing for me. I am going through a growth spurt – emotionally. I am in need for something deeper then what we have. I am no longer prepared to do be... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-03-05 07:42:45
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Ok so yesterday we didnt talk much, you were all upset because i was ugly to you. Being nasty because you cannot take care of dea the way you were supposed to. So we laying on the bed making dea... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-03-05 09:26:42
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If you read my previous blog you'll know that there is abitch at work that fucks with my head like I wanna fuck her up - fat bitch. My manager is explaining something to me and she is all in... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-03-06 03:34:41
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So last nyt was a follow up of the night before. We chatted about sex while bathing. You told me that you bought us a porn movie, I cannot wait for it. TO sit and watch it with you and do stuff... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-03-06 08:15:50
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I have now decided that I am going to seek other employment. AGAIN. I think I have serious issues with finding a job. I can't get to a place that I am satisfied with, not even happy just satisfied.... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-03-07 06:08:04
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I don't know what is up with me, I am so mean to Dru and he doesn't deserve it. I think I am unconsciously trying to push him over the edge. It will give me no pleasure to see him fall, it will... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-03-10 04:39:15
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Laying next to you I could feel my breathing get heavier. My heart beat go up a little as I turned and saw you peacefully pretended to sleep. I know you weren't sleeping, I... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-03-11 07:58:11
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My favourite thing about everyday is that it has an ending. My favourite little saying: It will be all over in the morning. I am back to my usual self. I can honestly say that ,not all my... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-03-12 09:04:35
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Why, why, why do we bring each other down. Every women will agree that we need to hold each other up but then as soon as anyone comes into our lives that we don't like or don't click with, the... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-03-13 05:18:06
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I have been talking to a frined and I just realised how great my life is. No offence to my friend. Lets call her Mia. I met Mia at my previous company, I left that shit hole becasue the people... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-03-13 10:27:44
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Dear Daddy, There is so much I wish I could tell you, I am sure you feel the same. It's so hard to talk to you because of our past. I hurt you so many times by the things I said and the way I... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-03-14 02:21:47
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You appear to me with a loud bang Your complexion is yellow/brown, I see your veins through the skin You head is big, so are you. Your clothes are rags. You scare me, purposely. you... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-03-14 08:26:54
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I don't keep many friends, too wary of what we women are capable of with regards to backstabbing, jealousy etc. I had a friend who swore on her life she was dating my bf, she lied (about being... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-03-19 05:28:10
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I neglect you and make you think I don't love you anymore. I use harsh words when you fail at a task, and make you think you're stupid I make you scream at baby, then make you think... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-03-20 07:25:36
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In light of the response I recieved from my only reader needstotalk..... today, I will try something different. I am going to be positive and look at the brighter side, This is my gratitude list.... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-03-26 08:17:05
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It's going to be a good weekend for me. I have plans for a change and I will carry them out. Friday after work I will go to a friend who has a baby that is 4 months old. I know her since... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-03-27 01:52:20
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You are on your deathbed right now, at whatever point you are in your life at this very moment. Was your life fulfilling? If the answer is NO, then you are given 5 wishes to change the things... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-03-28 04:15:44
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I kept my plans and i am so proud of myself. Ok my friday night cancelled but she is not really a true friend so I am not too phased by it, I ended up going to my mum and I sat with my family... Read More
Posted by: Deana on 2008-03-31 13:45:00
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