I should be sleeping, its late, i have to wake up so damn early. i was late for work today...really late. 2 hours. who cares. i've been talking to my ex lately. My oldest dearest friend. It doesn't work as lovers but we've always been close. i think it's been a few years since i last talked to him.  he says he's off drugs now and got his own apartment. i'm proud of him. he's one of the most amazing people ive ever known but had a very hard life. he is awesome though. we both understand eachother. we can tell each other anything. the best or worst. we knew each other when we were both still young. we lived dreams together. he held me through my hardest times. i loved him unconditionally. back, before i became so jaded by life. when the beattles song rang true to my heart, all you need is love.