You are always on my mind. And trust me, its not because I want to think about you. But everyday I see somebody who is in love or falling out of love. And for some reason I always think about you. Maybe because you were the one that loved and left me all at the same time. At first you made my heart smile, now you make it cry. Not because of missing you or anything of that nature, just because you hurt me in such a different way than I have ever been hurt before. I mean you led me to believe that we would be together until the day that the sky cracks open. Yet here I am blogging about you so we both know that it was a lie. I wish I would've known that you would have done the things that you did before I got my feeling involved. It's like now I just can't get you out of my mind. I've even tried to find love again with people that really do make me happy and make me feel good about myself. But when they sau things to me that you said to me I have a flash back of how I felt when you furst said it to me , then a flash back of how I felt when you left me the way you did. So now, thanks to you, I can't even love the way I want to. I wonder if you rememebr the voice mail that you left me at 2 o'clock in the morning the day that we had our first arguement?????? Well I do! You told me that you would always be there for me because you can see the pain in my eyes that everybody else had put me through and you would never do anything to hurt me. You also said that i was would always be your lil pookie no matter what, even if me brake up. REMEMBER!!!! Well that was bullshit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!