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I'm a young woman, and I have a son (he's a toddler). He's great & I am so blessed to have him in my life. When he was 6 months old though (2 weeks before his 1st Christmas), his Dad left our marriage. Throughout the majority of our 2 year relationship, and through our entire 3 year marriage my husband was verbally, mentally, emotionally, and physically abusive with me. Believe it or not, I always tried to understand why he treated me like that, and I actually justified it at times by saying or thinking that it was because he loved me so much, and he knew he could treat me like that & I'd never leave, 'cause he also knew that I loved him so much. Anyway, I guess the final straw for him was during a physical confrontation he grabbed our then 5 month old son from my arms, placed him in the crib very roughly, and made him cry really hard. After that he really began to drift from me emotionally & he was rarely home. I should also mention that after the birth of my son, I suffered from terrible post-partum depression (not post-partem psychosis though, so I wasn't in danger of hurting myself or my son), but I certainly wasn't myself either. So needless to say, hinde sight is 20/20, 'cause in the New Year (after getting through an emotional & terrible Christmas) my husband admitted to me that he was having an affair. This devastated me, because my Father cheated on my Mother a lot when I was growing up, and my husband knew how I felt about this. It gets worse though, after only dating this whore for 1-3 months, she became pregnant with my husbands child. Of course everyone that has met her knows that she trapped my husband, and it goes without saying since my husband told everyone that she comes from nothing, and that her family is a bunch of welfare cases & losers, so needless to say he felt guilty, likehe needed to be with her to make her life somewhat okay. This is totally ridiculous in everyones opinion, because obviously the right thing for my husband to do, would be to stand by his family & wife, and support this child with his wife (heck, I'd even fight for custody of this child with him). Now throughout the first 4 months of our separation, my husband continually lied to me & his mistress, seeing both of us, spending time with both of us, and being intimate with both of us too. Finally, he moved home in April of 2007, but I knew it would be short-lived, 'cause after she did a "let's get together to talk about a possible abortion", his whole attitude at home changed. I'm sure she'd like to believe that he actually loves her & wants a family with her, but truth be told, he doesn't want a family with either of us. He would be perfectly happy "doing his own thing" (his words), being a weekend Dad when it was convenient (not during televised sporting events like NFL Sunday), and spending his money on whatever he likes or wants. Having a 2nd child wasn't in the great plan for him, and she really messed his plans up. Right now she's thinking they're going to be this happy little family unit for the next 50 years, but she doesn't even know him, let alone what he's really like, and she has no idea what's going to happen. KARMA'S A BITCH though, and what goes around comes around, and I can't wait for the day when he leaves her with 2 kids (oh yeah, she has another child from some pot-head that she wasn't married to either...she's real classy!!!) in an apartment, with no car, no money, and more debt then she ever had before. She totally gets what she deserves though. The sad part of all of this though; not only has my son lost his full-time Dad (although I'm sure he'll be better off not growing up seeing his Dad abuse me), and not only have I lost my husband & best friend, but his life is completely ruined, and by giving me up, he absolutely gave up the best thing that ever happened to him. He's already started to see that too, 'cause I can tell when he comes to pick our son up for visitation (and his whore isn't with him), he's so different towards me, like he's trying to tell me how sorry he is, and how much he regrets what he's done. This new baby is about to be born anytime, and I know my husband is scared shitless about the arrival of this boy, but I'd give him until between December '07 & April '08, and he'll be outta there. This will all just be too much responsibility for him; it's sad that someone who doesn't want responsibility & who wants to live the single life keeps Fathering so many damn kids!? By the way, my husbands family hates her & loves me, and they're praying that he'll do the right thing & come home to me and our son, and we'll be a family - me, him, and the 2 boys.
So after reading what a jerk I'm married to (he's lied to me, abused me, stolen money from me, cheated on me, impregnanted some other woman, betrayed me, abandoned me & our son, led me on, threatened me, and more), are you wondering why the hell there are 2 women fighting over this asshole? I have no excuse accept maybe a poor self-esteem after being abused for almost 5 years, and well as for his mistress, believe it or not, he's a step up for her (she really thinks that she's hit the jackpot with him). Her past 2 relationships before him were also abusive, but she thinks he's changed, because he went to 2-3 counseling sessions, so he's all better. GOOD LUCK TO THIS WHORE!?!?!
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Posted by Cutegal1974 on 2007-10-03 10:25:07 | Rating: n/a | Views: 89
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