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 Goodbye, farewell, Adieu.
Before I say anything I would like to express my sincere gratitude to all the people who have given me unfailing support, whether by their own blogs, comments, email or IMs. I have been deeply touched by the depth of heart here on Thoughts.com, I have been truly blessed by the presence of some wonderful people in my life. I want to thank everyone for the hand of friendship that was extended to me, the laughs, tears and thoughts. Thank you!

The next part is the hardest for me to write about. I received all my test and scan results, as I blog preiously I have metastic cancer, as well as my breast, lymph nodes, ribs and spine, cancer has been found in my liver and lung and oddly one of my ankles. I've under gone a modified radical masectomy; my breast, lymph nodes under my arm and chest, chest wall have all been removed and I'll be starting on chemo and radiation therapy as well as a truckload of other goodies. The specialists have made it quite clear this is not treatment for a cure, it is to buy me some time. Time to spend with my beloved poppet, time to get my affairs in order, time to fullfil what dreams I can, time to say goodbye.

I have given up work and my study, my father had graciously offered to financially support Bailey and I as long as he needs to. My dad is a rock, he has his own worries and upsets to deal with and yet he stays strong for me. My sister and her husband have agreed to take and raise Bailey when the time arrives, it's all been formally placed in writing. My sister is already a wonderful mother to one and she will be a doting "mum" to my poppet.

Buying me time will come at a cost, tiredness and fatigue, illness and loss of strength, so i want to spend all my "well" time with Bailey, family and non virtual friends, so I am leaving Thoughts. I won't be deleting my log, I want my profile stand and my writings as well.

I hope that some of you will think of me fondly from time to time. Thoughts and many of its inhabitants will be in my thoughts and held in my heart. Please no pity either; I couldn't stand that.

I would also like to offer a warning; please, please, please, PLEASE if you think there is something wrong physically or that little niggle won't go away don'y simply ignore it get it checked by a doctor and a second opinion if need be. I didn't, I let tenderness and niggles slide and now I'll be paying the ultimate price. So PLEASE do something about it!

Take Care Everyone.
Be kind to others and spread the love.
God Bless.

All Our Love,
Cully and Bailey.

    Posted by Cully on 2009-08-06 23:14:47 | Rating: | Views: 1165
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My dear Cully.
Posted by  greunie  on 2009-08-06 23:21:10 
  
Cully, I just want to say to you that in the short time you have been here, you have touched my heart with your sincerety, warmth and graciousness. Your spirit is a testament to the lovely young lady that you are.

I'm not even sure what words I can say right now, but whatever time may bring, I hope in your heart you find peace. Fullfill those dreams that you can, love with everything that you have.

You're a very special girl cully and I wont forget you xoxo :)
Posted by  Kaybee  on 2009-08-06 23:25:12 
  
Cully know that you will always be in my heart. Please never forget that. You have touched me even before this. God be with you. Stay strong and know your in my prayers. You are so very special Cully. xxx:)
Posted by  michelle8angels  on 2009-08-06 23:40:28 
  
What words are there to say? Yet at the same time I want to say every word that comes to mind so that I know you heard all of them at leat once. What a strange thought, but that's what came out. I guess because what wanted to come out was too painful to deal with right now.

I will continue to pray for you. And if that time comes that you no longer need prayer for yourself, I will send Bailey and your family those prayers.

I had just thought of you early, with all this tagging going on. Wow.

God be with you. I hope you, Bailey, your family and friends form some ever-lasting memories.

I pray you find more peace than you ever expected.

Know that you are in our hearts and we are sending you so much LOVE...so much, Cully.

I thank God that our paths crossed.
And we will heed your warning.
You have lived a LIFE with PURPOSE.
Continue living it every moment as you choose...You are LOVED Cully.
Hugs and Kisses Always
Posted by  princessQ62  on 2009-08-06 23:55:49 
  
Cully, May you find the connection now with your loved ones and peace as you go through this journey. Love and protection to you and Bailey.
Posted by  Moxi  on 2009-08-07 00:12:45 
  
my prayers are with you!
Posted by  roe  on 2009-08-07 00:17:19 
  
Cully, I really wish I had read this tomorrow. It has taken some time to settle. However, please remember that there is always hope. There is always a reason to fight. But in the meantime , yes enjoy your little bundle Bailey, live your life any way you want to and always beleive that the impossable could happen. You touched my heart from the beginning. You and Eriska both. The both of you are always with me during the day in thought. In fact you have shared many dinners with me and Ron. cully, we all know this is wrong to be happening and we will never know why things like this happen. Sometimes like now I feel so guilty that it could have been me. Or why wasn't it me to spare someone else. Why does it have to be anyone. If i could ask one thing? Could you please show your dad where we are and tell him we need to know how you are. We just can't say good bye like this. At least i can't. Or perhaps all of us could send you our personal email and you can email us all at once. Cully this is so hard for you I know. I know your thoughts and concerns are with bailey even though you are going through this. Cully do what you have to do. You know that our hearts, our prayers, our hopes are with you and we can only pray that God gives you the time you need to do the things you want to and need to.
My love goes to you stronger than you can possably imagine.My prayers will be never ending. My thoughts will still and always be with you.

May God Bless you cully sweet one.
Your true friend always
kali
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))) ))))
Posted by  kal  on 2009-08-07 00:20:11 
  
Prayers and thoughts to a beautiful,strong young lady,and your family.
Posted by  cabinfever  on 2009-08-07 01:21:28 
  
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Posted by  TimothyStevenDowns  on 2009-08-07 01:29:14 
  
There are no smiley faces for one with streaming tears...







I'd sincerely hoped to get Aussie driving lessons from you. Now I suppose the task will fall upon Bailey, your Sister, her husband, and the rock who probably gave you the backbone now assaulted by cells of malicious distemper.

We'll hit something for you, and run right over it. If there's a smidgeon of truth to any of the extensive theories of conscious afterlife, I'll tell you all about it in due time.

My best wishes and abundant prayers to you and yours,
Along with my pledge to have every little blemished scrutinized,
"The Cully Imperative" for good health.

David
Posted by  davidsbass  on 2009-08-07 02:13:09 
  
Prayers and thoughts with you...

lex xoxo
Posted by  LexMorphic  on 2009-08-07 03:22:58 
  
*tears* Love to you .x.x.x.x.x.
Posted by  sarafeline  on 2009-08-07 04:21:59 
  
Oh wow, it dont really hit you untill it's to late, makes me realise how lucky I am. Theres not much I can say.

Oh dear, when you really need to give people a giggle and theres nothing at all funny to say.

I'll leave it at that.
Posted by  Phat  on 2009-08-07 04:41:55 
  
my first tears of the day. i have so enjoyed your perspective and writing. i am sorry you have to quit. peace and comfort for you pain, love.
Posted by  AllThingsBuck  on 2009-08-07 04:54:31 
  
Cully I have never understood why some are taken who deserve life and others remain who do not. It is with great sadness I read this post. I will remember you and Bailey, you are in my special file which I take out and read once or twice a year. I wish Bailey a great future, and that your remaining days are happy ones - with much Love Puck xxx
Posted by  puck  on 2009-08-07 07:07:35 
  
Dearest Cully. You are everything that is bright and beautiful in our world, Gone to soon. My heart hurts with this posting, though I knew it was coming. You brought a light into our little world, and taught us a big lesson. Don't wait..check it out and then check it out again. Follow your instincts.

Cully, you have brought into the world a beautiful little girl, Bailey. Your light will shine through her, and she will reach her potential under the loving guidance of your family. Today I say a prayer for everyone in your life. I say a prayer for comfort and warmth and peace amidst the storm. You are a blessing sweetie. God bless you and may he comfort you in your time of need. ((((hugs))))

peace :( shemelts
Posted by  shemelts  on 2009-08-07 08:10:18 
  
I love you, my sweet girl. I will pray every day that the Lord receives you with open arms. Until we meet again...xoxoPuRpSxoxo

Posted by  purpleflowersbyth...  on 2009-08-07 08:21:28 
  
Cully, you had an instant impact on my thoughts.com experience. You ARE Beautiful, witty, kind, a gracious lady, a fantastic mother and an inspiration to me.

Somethings don't make any sense to me, I will always smile when I remember you, because I am so lucky to have met you via thoughts.com .. Next time I go Rock climbing I'm going to the top of the wall, because I know that's where YOU would've got to if we'd got to go as we'd discussed.

I have nothing more to say but please know you've touched so many and I think you are one hell of a lady. Bailey will grow up amazing because her Mum IS and will ALWAYS BE the best! xxx
Posted by  EasyToSay  on 2009-08-07 08:44:32 
  
Cully, you are a remarkable woman, and one that my life will forever be blessed with your gracious presence. My prayers will always be with you and your family, you will not once be forgotten. Please take care of yourself and remember we're thinking about you! ((Hugs)).
Posted by  brlracincwgrl  on 2009-08-07 08:52:54 
  
My heart aches for you and for your lovely Bailey. Be strong for as long as you can be.
There aren't words to say what I want and what I feel. Just know that you're someone special and so many people know it.
Posted by  Whitters  on 2009-08-07 09:15:32 
  
My prayers and thoughts are with you, your little girl and your family at this most difficult time Cully. You have touched many people here with your grace, sincerity and strength. You will not be forgotten. xoxoxo
Posted by  NotesToLily  on 2009-08-07 09:56:11 
  
~ May God be with you and your lovely daughter..you have my prayers and thoughts ~
Posted by  frenchkiss  on 2009-08-07 10:01:51 
  
as always cully my thoughts and deepest sympathies lie with you
it is just the saddest thing ever that the world should be robbed of someone so
kind and beautifull, and my thoughts will be with you and your family.
fraglerock
Posted by  fraglerock  on 2009-08-07 10:03:58 
  
My heart is saddened that someone as kind and caring as you are should bare thia devastating news.You have truly touched many here.It is my belief we are a better group of people because of you.I will hold you in my prayers,and Bailey also.As Kal mentioned if possible can your father keep us updated?

Through this journey please never lose your faith in God.Remember all things are possible with God.You will forever live in my heart.Love,Nana
Posted by  nanahart  on 2009-08-07 10:38:48 
  
Cully, as all have said here, there are no words to express the depth of sorrow we all have for you and your personal tragedy. As far as the rest of us goes, we will always miss your lovely face and wonderful contributions here, at Thoughts. Your legacies are your words and your daughter...write for her...leave her your words and thoughts. They will guide her through her life...they will help her to know the mother she has. They will be her comfort and her joy someday. Leave her as many words as you can. Bless you, dear heart. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
Love.
Joanne
Posted by  funfreak  on 2009-08-07 10:42:53 
  
I read about your situation on Whitter's blog & I had to come right on over to your page & offer you my support. I know that this is probably the first time that you have ever heard from me but you & your family are in my thoughts.

*hugs*
Posted by  Mandie142  on 2009-08-07 10:49:07 
  
cully,your a true inspiration,thank you.
Posted by  monicaspeaks  on 2009-08-07 11:05:01 
  
Your love and courage are a light in the darkness. I pray for a miracle.
Posted by  circe  on 2009-08-07 12:02:50 
  
I send to you~~~Gods Healing Power and love and (((HUGS)))00xx00
Posted by  icemanlover1  on 2009-08-07 12:25:57 
  
Sweet Cully -- The faithful prayers of many birth miracles. My thoughts and prayers remain with you. Hugs, Love & Peace.
Posted by  ColoradoDreamin  on 2009-08-07 13:23:20 
  
dearest Cully, I my heart is hurting. You are such an inspiration, a kind thoughful witty mum. Please make sure Bailey knows this.
I will miss you so.

Love Azalia
Posted by  Azalia  on 2009-08-07 14:01:31 
  
For once in my life I have nothing to say. I hurt so much for you and I will never, ever forget you. There has to be a reason and I hope I find out why someday. God bless you richly, Elaine & Bryan x
Posted by  overthehillandfar...  on 2009-08-07 14:43:28 
  
Cully although I have known you for such a short time it is as though I have known you all of my life. You are an amazing young woman thank you for your friendship and kindness. I will keep my candle burning for all of you and I will make sure that the flames reach heaven so He can see it and carry you on those days when He needs to. This is not good-bye but hello! dear friend, you will always be with me. Linda
(((((((((((((((CULLY, BAILEY, GRANDPA))))))))))))))).
Posted by  homesite88  on 2009-08-07 15:13:44 
  
I get niggles every day, sometimes I just do not know how much longer I can go on. As for you, your not finished yet. So I will not be righting an obituary here. Where there is life there is hope. It seems here where I live in the Netherlands they tend to pop their clogs by falling off their bycicles. A friend of mine did just that two years ago, mind you he was always drunk but, god bless him he was a good friend. Well I am going to put you a proposition I will make a freinds request. Hope that is ok by you. Hope things work out with the new treatment.

Geoffrey
Posted by  geoffreyalan  on 2009-08-07 17:03:56 
  
Had to stop by again I just wanted to send you more love
Posted by  sarafeline  on 2009-08-07 20:13:30 
  
I never got to know you, you are somewhere in Australia?.....perhaps you live just round the corner,across the street even.Maybe we have even walked past each other somewhere sometime. Perhaps you were that young lady who offered me her seat on the train? ~smile~ Probably not but who knows? I am a very emotional person and I know you don't want pity and I understand that and i am not pitying you but even though I am a man and apparently not supposed to cry I have cried a river for you and the tears are banking up again even as I type this.It is not pity,it is raw sorrow.You are brave and I am glad you are able to be brave and strong for your self and your family.I don't know what to say so I must say the the one word I have always hated...Goodbye. xxx
Posted by  rupert777  on 2009-08-07 20:50:36 
  
MUCH LOVE CULLY.
Posted by  Evanescence  on 2009-08-07 22:21:16 
  
My thoughts are with you and your family.
Posted by  toothlesspenguin  on 2009-08-07 23:57:31 
  


If in case i hadn't said this before..it was probably..cos i knew i'd come across as a flirt..but little do i care now..so just letting you know i find you very pretty...and i'm a decent man...just... saying.....anyways...you take care of yaself..and do us a favor..keep smiling..cheerio

Posted by  isuckedthemoon  on 2009-08-08 06:16:10 
  
You're an angel already!
Posted by  Stupid_Lamb  on 2009-08-08 16:19:49 
  
Though you travel far away you shall be with us night and day, o'er the hills and far away.
Walk to pastures new my dear. W'out a tear in thoust eye, for you shall be at a better peace.
Your like we shall not see again,o'er the hills and far away.

Posted by  scythe  on 2009-08-08 18:04:58 
  
Cully, you are a strong, amazing woman and Mum. I cant tell you how the tears are running down my face for you, Baily, your Dad and your Sister. What a great, great family you have. I am sad to see you leave us but definatly understand why. Please dont forget us though. You've touched us all so, so much. Like others have said, please have your Dad give us updates so we know how you are and we can keep up all our prayers for you! I wish you peace and love with your family! God Bless you Cully....
Posted by  medicgrl1  on 2009-08-08 18:47:18 
  
Dearest Cully, You and your darling girl are in my thoughts and prayers, I am sorry, this breaks my heart, my oldest son is your age and I just can't understand the WHY of it all but I do know, God knows what he is doing and I do believe in Miracles. Dear girl, don't give up hope, don't give in to the Doctors words, they are just words and so many of us know a better doctor we will be diligently speaking to on your behalf.

You are beautiful inside and out and I pray you hold onto the strength you have shown us here and find a sense of peace within.

Many blessings to you and yours.
With Love,
Noni
Posted by  Dumpling  on 2009-08-08 20:10:48 
  
you are amazing, my thoughts and prayers are with you and baily and everyone else.

god bless you angel.

<3
Posted by  _hoplessromantic  on 2009-08-09 01:04:37 
  
Hi! I havnt read any of your blogs before but after reading this one, i spent my afternoon going through your writtings, not just out of respect, but becaus ei wanted to get to know you as who you were rather than who you have become, both very strong and admirable people in my opinion.

I have NO idea if your going to be reading these comments but if you happen to read this one, i'd like it very much if you new that its people such as yourself that make every second count and dont even want any sypathy when times liek these occur, that really makes me feel like we ARE incredible people dispite the hard times we go through from day to day.

You an inspiration, dont forget that.

x
Posted by  Rachel_Anthea  on 2009-08-09 10:12:04 
  
you are a beautiful soul cully - and the soul never dies. it begins its next journey, one that will be filled with amazing new learning experiences. may god bless you on your journey. we will miss you here on thoughts, but wish you comfort in your time with your loved ones. this is the beginning of a new journey, always remember that.

one love,

ben
Posted by  jason  on 2009-08-09 20:03:47 
  
May peace be with you at the end of this journey and also with you at the start of the next.
Posted by  IrishMike6464  on 2009-08-10 03:44:03 
  
What a strong lady you are... God Bless You and Your Bailey. *still praying*
Posted by  BeJeweled  on 2009-08-10 09:05:18 
  
Oh Cully! Words can not express. I am sitting in a puddle of tears and prayers.
Posted by  cancersucks  on 2009-08-11 09:15:21 
  
God bless you. You are in my thoughts.
Posted by  bjennyb32  on 2009-08-11 20:46:16 
  
You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
Posted by  jennmeyers  on 2009-08-13 20:40:19 
  
You are a couarageous person and I want to thank you for sharing your journey with so many - God bless you and your family
Posted by  waterlily60  on 2009-08-19 15:56:29 
  
My thoughts and prayers are with you, Cully. Enjoy spending time with family and friends, and specially Bailey... Big hugs x
Posted by  chococake  on 2009-08-26 16:00:33 
  
There are people who make an impact by their deeds, others by their words.

You, dear lady, have made an impact on this old man by your mere presence and the indomitable will you have shown.

Be at peace, you are loved.
Posted by  Wheresmycoffee  on 2009-09-02 15:43:55 
  
Oh no. =(

I was too late.
Posted by  Wintersong  on 2009-09-04 01:13:17 
  
You probably won't be reading this, sweetie, but you are in God's hands. God will protect you and your family because He will always love you and has a plan for you. I am so sorry to hear what has happened to you, but I know that God has a plan for everything and will be watching out for you and your family. I will be praying for you, Cully. I love you, though I don't know you.. I felt I should say it. Keep smiling and trusting in God. This may not be an end, but a beginning. Stay strong, sweetheart. It's up to God now. :]
Posted by  thefantasy  on 2009-09-12 19:52:18 
  
It is appointed for everyone to die once. Many get there ahead of the perceived end of the plan..But we will see and meet one another again.. You show much courage in your words and in your plan Culley.. It is that, which inspires those who are left to miss and ponder on all you are.. Once the last breath is taken it is but an instant, a blink of an eye and then you begin life in a new.

I will see you in the coming Kingdom of Heaven.. Your courage is taken not forgotten.
Posted by  CKP09  on 2009-11-11 12:15:38 
  
God bless you, your family and your precious little Bailey. I believe in miracles and I am praying for you.
Posted by  Ellie2008  on 2009-09-24 22:45:03 
  
god bless you..cully...
Posted by  jeremyelijah  on 2009-09-30 09:14:29 
  
Hope If you ever log back in you read my dedication to you Beautiful one :)...

Sarafeline.x.
Posted by  Crimson_Read  on 2009-10-02 16:48:43 
  
Bless you, Cully. I never got the chance to "know" you, but have read some of your blogs and visited your profile.
Prayers sent your way,
*Dee*
Posted by  DeeinFL  on 2009-10-10 09:30:00 
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